retrospective entry

over the long weekend, our family had a good time at changi jewel. it was good for me because it was a long weekend, it was chill, it was family time, and it was watching my lovely wife be the lovely wife and loving mother that she has grown to be, and it was watching a rather cute miniature version of me be, well, a rather cute miniature version of me (before he grows up and becomes anything of me that i hate).

but what has been on my mind is actually, the fact that the staff/the guy at T restaurant, who gave us two extra oysters at closing time, telling us to enjoy. it’s not that we didn’t spend big in the first place as it was a restaurant, but the fact that the act was from one human to another, in an attempt for warmth of the soul/heart.

sometimes, things like these mislead me into almost thinking that there’s still some good in humanity. :’)

theme for today/joker movie: let go, live free.

although i’m thankful for all the concern/“concern” that people have for me, sometimes (like now) i do wonder how genuine any of it is. it’s easy to express care and concern, but it’s another thing to be in those shoes, having that predicament. do we truly feel the most we could for someone whose shoes we are not in? i know i do, for most of not all of my patients, even those that are not real. but i get a sense that it’s also very easy to not. and when i think of that, oh how lonely i do feel in this world haha.

A6 on a monday is constant, living, indisputable proof that the best of humanity will still NEVER triumph over the worst of humanity haha.

next year when i ODD o&g:

forgive me i’m trying to find/my calling, i’m calling at night
i don’t mean to be a bother but/have you seen this girl?