Friday, January 28, 2011

its always easier to quit, its always harder to forge ahead..

hardy people forge ahead

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

everyday you stab me once..
for the one time i stabbed you
if only i could make you stop stabbing me

longest week ever..

haha. i like hanging out with the people who sit next to me in lecture. (: at least they're real. want to eat at a kopitiam in a hospital with them next time, in the distant future. (:

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

its not even the first time i'm realizing that life is soo screwed up..

why am i still so surprised?


disclaimer its not even abt me, its abt the world at large..

the sticky, dry taste in my mouth..

so sad..

Sunday, January 23, 2011

i just want to pat your head again

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Sunday, January 16, 2011

just like in those chinese shanghai 1920s era movies,
you go along and have that,
while i do what i do best -
fight for a cause, sleep (or lack thereof), and romanticize..
the time has been arranged, to act out an accident.

what keeps their sanity.. eats mine. i am a free civilian now. yet.. they are so much richer than me. i am crestfallen....

on a separate note, i realise how fast i am living haha.

Saturday, January 15, 2011

maybe you are just, right. maybe all of you are just right, all along. maybe i have always been wrong. all the time.

the bottle is so scary. at such a young age.. haha nvm i'll walk by..

Friday, January 14, 2011

"In a social context, trust has several connotations. The typical definition of trust follows the general intuition about trust and contains such elements as:

- the willingness of one party (trustor) to be vulnerable to the actions of another party (trustee);
- reasonable expectation (confidence) of the trustor that the trustee will behave in a way beneficial to the trustor;
- risk of harm to the trustor if the trustee will not behave accordingly; and
- the absence of trustor's enforcement or control over actions performed by the trustee."

i can't believe i am so bothered by this that i actually typed and searched wikipedia. brooding so much that i actually am just doing nothing trying to find smth to do online.. i threw all sensibility to the wind and decided hey fk it lets consult the internet! (bright idea)

well as can be seen, trust is obviously a gamble. "the willingness of one party to be vulnerable to the actions of another party"..

but, as i also learnt from my recent addiction to the texas hold'em poker game on my handphone (another bright idea of a place to learn lessons from -.-), you sometimes need to gamble, to go to places. sometimes.. you win :)

haha and... the third takeaway here is. that from the above two pieces of rubbish, i have generated my own thoughts and formulated my own opinions. we synthesize for ourselves regardless of what we get for stimuli. this shows that.. no one can solve our problems but ourselves. make your own choices. i know how to do it now.


throw ourselves into motion.. we can do this..

happiness is a grasp away..

Thursday, January 13, 2011

i feel.. oddly free, and empty.

fill me up again

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

just woke up..

declared that i love my life and my life is great in a sarcastic manner -

the same way i did for a large part of the past few months -

the times that i did not was a lie..

on my way home just now,

i felt so monotonous.

i grimaced and knew for a fact

that everyday is going to be like that..

until something happens.

its just too tough to wake up, and too tiring to live life...

Monday, January 10, 2011

再给我两分钟?

我们的开始
是很长的电影
放映了三年
我票都还留着
冰上的芭蕾
脑海中还在旋转
望着你
慢慢忘记你

朦胧的时间
我们溜了多远
冰刀划的圈
圈起了谁改变

如果再重来
会不会稍嫌狼狈
爱是不是不开口才珍贵

再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰

别融化了眼泪
你妆都花了要我怎麽记得

记得你叫我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧

你说你会哭
不是因为在乎

Saturday, January 08, 2011

as will frankly put it tonight: how much worse can things get from here?

great i am now finally invincible haha i like it

Wednesday, January 05, 2011

how come it ended liddat leh. i didnt even say break up u know. i wanted to talk, and see how things go from there. but u assumed i wanted to end our relationship. you got up and left before i finished what i wanted to say..

how come it wasnt instead smth like.. us hugging through tears and holding on dearly, never letting go leh?

haha omg. i just watched detroit metal city.. IT IS SOO GOOD! haha! omg its damn funny, and damn jap, and its about music!! "no music, no dream~" wow. seriously, was reminded of so many things of my younger days when i was watching.. lol and krauser is seriously way too natas and kewl and all haha. terrorist from hell. everyone should watch it xD

sigh i wanna go japan :/ schs starting way too fast.. k its 4 am so i better sleep haha

Monday, January 03, 2011

haha watched hello stranger today! overall i think it was a pretty good film, really funny and very sweet haha.. :)

sigh haha. waiting. so tired now..