beautiful, isnt it
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
haha had concierge debrifing ytd.. haha.. which was 1 hour talk and 2 hour high tea at axis haha SUPER SUPER NICE OMG.

yea well work officially ended on sunday.. i'm slightly freeer now but not much.. my zhou jis are still owning me and the non existent c'wealth essay is worse. thn now must go sch buy books andgo for guitar.. MY SEVILLA DIE. DIEEE. OMG. KEVIN LIM TRANSFER YOUR SKILLZ TO ME. MY SEVILLA IS RLY DIE. fk la. -.- nvm today i going early to try mug abit. die la. how.

zz. anw. during ytd debrief, edmund showed us a nice quote haha. it went something like.

"people look at what there is, and ask, 'why?'
i look at what there ISNT, and ask, 'why not?'"

haha well i found it quite meaningful.

anw. i know where i got my weird genes from.. lol ytd at the phone shop my dad was bored cos the guy was talking to us la. then he rolled up the pamphlet and started trying to put it in a penholder lol..

i guess i prob have his genes amplified.. i like more guai lan stuff haha. well i like girls with braces, i really really like to poke ppl. anywhere also can tummy, sides face (Y). haha but did u know i really really really enjoy squeezing pimples and pus wounds? -.- when i see one i CANNOT resist squeezing the shit out of it one. and i just like to squeeze till dun have anymore to squeeze damn nice la. damn fun! i seen a lot of types of pimples/blackheads/random oil shit. then pus wounds are the best u catch them at the peak right they look green and its damn swollen and pain. then when u squeeze its rly rly damn pain but i get to see all the pus come out haha v nice..

:/ haha. ok.. lol. rmr the prev post abt how i cannot (and ultimately perhaps shudnt) 'buy' my way into some societies that i'll nv be part of? haha yea.. cos i'm still me haha the guai lan me who likes rly random and guai lan stuff.. haha oh well. their loss ^^
at 10:58 AM
Saturday, November 25, 2006
haha ponned 3 days of work -.- cos sick -.- again. -.- yea woke up one day hot and cold haha. high fever -.- lololol.

haha i stayed up the night before... doing homework -.- lol. anyway. i shall do one more zhou ji by tonight.. tmr last day of work >.< haha oh and first day of work.. at singa inn haha.. senghenk's father's restaurant.. must thank senghenk all the trouble getting me and des the job >.< wonder how it'd be hope its fun IS DINNER PROVIDED HAHA ITS A SEAFOOD RESTAURANT YAY. but doubt so -.- nvm.. zz haha rly hope its fun leh!

haha.. i'll begoing to aus 5 to 14 dec.. shud be fun fun fun! haha esp with my cute niece :D haha but then again. come back not long then have to go la. quite sad zz. haha.. but well.. must finish most of my work before going! then can enjoy from then on! haha ok target target!

today/sunday - one zhou ji
monday/tues - one zhou ji
wed/thurs - commonwealth essay
fri - er left over work -.- confirm have one..

then i bring chi book over to aus if got spare time read/pester mum read ^^ hahahahahaha.

come back give abt 2 to 3 days. finish work. YAY.

IF ONLY LIFE WAS SO IDEAL HAHA.

anws. hope can la. start from today! must do my zhou ji! -bi sheng!-


leaving everyone with new blog song! v v v nice! beatles!


maxwell's silver hammer
the beatles

Joan was quizzical; studied metaphysical
Science in the home.
Late nights all alone with a test tube.
Oh, oh, oh, oh.

Maxwell Edison, majoring in medicine,
Calls her on the phone.
"Can I take you out to the pictures,
Joa, oa, oa, oan?"

But as she's getting ready to go,
A knock comes on the door.

Bang! Bang! Maxwell's silver hammer
Came down upon her head.
Clang! Clang! Maxwell's silver hammer
Made sure that she was dead.

Back in school again Maxwell plays the fool again.
Teacher gets annoyed.
Wishing to avoid an unpleasant
Sce, e, e, ene,

She tells Max to stay when the class has gone away,
So he waits behind
Writing fifty times "I must not be
So, o, o, o.."

But when she turns her back on the boy,
He creeps up from behind.

Bang! Bang! Maxwell's silver hammer
Came down upon her head.
Clang! Clang! Maxwell's silver hammer
Made sure that she was dead.

P. C. Thirty-one said, "We caught a dirty one."
Maxwell stands alone
Painting testimonial pictures.
Oh, oh, oh, oh.

Rose and Valerie, screaming from the gallery
Say he must go free
(Maxwell must go free)
The judge does not agree and he tells them
So, o, o, o.

But as the words are leaving his lips,
A noise comes from behind.

Bang! Bang! Maxwell's silver hammer
Came down upon his head.
Clang! Clang! Maxwell's silver hammer
Made sure that he was dead.
at 8:57 PM
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
haha today did door did lift did one small bit of floor roaming.. quite fun haha. i like doing lift now -.- prev i don like -.-

there was a lady who was in the lift. then another guest came while the door was closing. but it was in his face -.- so i wanted to stop the door with my hand cos got sensor. so i put my hand there. thenthe door close -.- and both the guest and the lady were horrified -.- while i was trying to explain haha..

"sorry sir.. as you can see the sensor is spoilt.. i apologise for the wait"
another lift opens.
"this way sir-"
prying my left hand out of the door while my right hand motions in the opp direction.
"this way sir.. yes i'm fine i'm fine (: sorry for the wait"

the door a bit hardcore only la -.- clamp down on my hand dowan let go wtf hahahaha. rly v tight clamp but i got out lol. -.- but damn funny cos both sides were a bit horrified -.-

haha then when do lift bored. i sing songs.. lol.. i go thru my ipod play list la haha. then sing all the 90s chi music, sing chen lei -.- sing jay chou (by order of songs in my ipod somemore) then sing ming yue ji shi you. then one night in beijing -.- but i dunno why and i dunno half the lyrics -.- haha but i sang a damn lot lol. when no one hear la -.-

lol did door this morning i saw ur face in my head and i smiled when i greeted and guests got smile back haha.. 60 pez to last 10 days.. :/ wear more how are you..
at 6:40 PM
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
failure ): very nan kan ): dunno what you'll think T_T but i think not nice ): sorry! haha but wahlao.. i spent like all the hours i had today doing it pls T_T i nv did anyth which so much care before. i measured and stenciled and traced and cut many many times get very very good cut outs lor.. but then the folding and tying were very killer T_T very difficult T_T originally supp to use ribbons (flexible) and wire (stay in place) but i DONT HAVE. i have paper (not flexible -.-) and rubber band (which wont stay in place) -.- but zz. i rly nv did smth with so much effort and so much care la i'm half dying i conc a bit the alot on doing T_T but still so nan kan T_T nvm u can see soon.. ^^

work tmr! i'm missing a lot of guitar T_T my sevilla die. T_T
at 11:53 PM
i'm really sorry for being angry yesterday. now that the sadness hit me i feel bad abt it.. whatever it was even if there was reason.. perhaps i shouldnt have gotten angry.. nvm. now i'm not angry i'm sad haha. yea. sad..its not that a long wait actually but its long enough for me.. punishment lo. don angry me k >.< lol sorry.. i really feel bad.. but more than that i feel sad now. 等着放晴的那天.. no shakepeare can do YOU justice, my dear..


haha today i walk to marina square then i realise. eh. wtf am i doing here >_> like suddenly mind blank.. i rly seem v lost without. yea then at city hall. i saw a butch with her gf -.- then i stopped and said, out loud but to myself -.- omg thats a girl. haha. -.- a bit random but sorry la spontaneous..

hmm. i think sometimes i buy (not with money >_>) my way into societies that will never accept me. cos at the end of the day, i'm still me, i still do fucked up stuff. guai lan stuff. random stuff. and however hard i try i'll never be part of those societies because i wasnt born part of them. i'm half jealous half detestful of them. because i cant be them? why cant i just be me? izzit because i'm too lousy? lol. i'm half jealous. yea. i'm half jealous i'm not and will never be part of them. haha.
at 4:10 PM
fuck i hate being poor. money isnt everyth is plain bullshit. seriously u gotta admit it. when i grow up i'm gonna earn a lot of teh moneys. and its everytime i try to care abt smth that i will screw it up. maybe i shud learn not to care and leave things be lol. it makes me not want to care the next time lol.

very tired shall sleep. work resumes tmr.
at 12:31 AM
Sunday, November 19, 2006
lol. havent blogged the past few days, esp not after i start hotel work lol.

first few days worked 13 hours plus cos morgan stanley came over. super fun (walkie talkie cock -.-, slacking, other incidents, and work) but super super tiring (13 hours of standing, going home late coming out early).

haha continuing in the concierge.. working as door man or lift guy ): its ok la.. but its like do before alr exp alr a bit sian alr la.. -.- then no pay. wl. wl wlwl ): ): ): how come senghenk not on msn i wanna ask to work at his family restaurant muahaha. -.-

lol. wanted to go work starbucks with desmond but starbucks want above 18 one BOO.


ok la. actly past few days have been hell. work fun la, but damn tiring. then parent problems. too sian and tired to elab la. lol. z. i'm v sad abt smth haha. and i only ranted to one person and i dont feel like blogging abt it either so it'll probably just forever live within one person -.-

nvm. try to stay a bit happier.. v hard plus i v tired haha.. nvm la. walk one step see one step la.



anw ur right.. we shudnt we wont and we dint let those minor things get in our way. which is great u know! as u said.. go thru stuff tog.. (:

i now have hokkien songs in my ipod YAY. plus a few nice 90s chinese songs. like all the andy lau jackie cheung, zhou hua jian etc one. v nice kk. ^^

lol.. hearts aparts soons. ): boo. ): oh well! ):
at 12:58 AM
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
lol. i was watching LA BI XIAO XING on youtube just now i'm feeling so much better ^^ actly rly.. if this fucking headache is gone i'll be totally fine alr leh >_>

anw. just wanted to say.

TUTORING
PIANO
GUITAR

lessons available! rates are VERY negotiable.. pls anyone got any job pls gimme.. plsplspls. ^^
at 8:48 PM
Monday, November 13, 2006
and all the roads we have to walk are winding
and all the lights that lead you there were blinding
there are many things that i would like to say to you
but i dunno how.

goodnight world and hello tmr.. (:
at 10:29 PM
dumb
nirvana

I'm not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone
But I have a light
The day is done
But I'm having fun

I think I'm dumb
or maybe just happy
Think I'm just happy
my heart is broke
But I have some glue
help me inhale
And mend it with you
We'll float around]
And hang out on clouds
Then we'll come down
And I have a hangover...Have a hangover

Skin the sun
Fall asleep
Wish away
The soul is cheap
Lesson learned
Wish me luck
Soothe the burn
Wake me up

I'm not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone
But I have a light
The day is done
But I'm having fun


The Meaning of names by MemeGen Surveys
Given (first) Name:
In ArabicMeans "servant of God"
In Germanic LanguagesMeans "kind, friendly"
In Olde EnglishMeans "most holy"
In ItalianMeans "of song"
In Ancient MythologyMeans "shining over heaven"


riiiight..
at 8:19 PM
chopin and kurt cobain are my two most favourite song writers haha.
at 6:32 PM
i seriously dunno how i can still diarrhoear so many times a day when i havent been eating anyth the past few days. wtf am i shitting out?

ytd night was fucked up. i think it was the orgasm of my sickness and i think it'll be the one time in my life i wish an orgasm dint last so long. ytd was torturous. i was shivering like mad in my bed and at abt 1 plus my temp was like 37 plus only but my head is damn pain.

damn fucked up damn fucked up my head still a bit zz nao i think i gonna rest.. hope all is well when i wake.
at 9:35 AM
Sunday, November 12, 2006
i must be pregnant.. nauseous and giddy and giddy and nauseous and giddy. very giddy.. woke with terrible shoulder and back ache today and its not sleeping position couldnt move rly couldnt move. fk.

zz. i think my pi qi not good these few days. damn sick. v bad to my parents leh. sometimes they ask qn i not responsive. either my throat v pain or i rly no strength/too giddy to answer.

and i think the sickness/fever making me go crazy lol. i quite paranoid.. esp cos a lot of bad stuff happen to me..

fuck la. i better recover soon. cos sometimes my kou qi rly v bad. tmd. sorry k >.<

not going work tmr. giddy the whole day today at the oriental. fking torture i was super giddy.
at 8:53 PM
Saturday, November 11, 2006
sick yah i'm sick. lol. maybe zhong gong tao. cos a lot of damn weird things happen recently.. or maybe i over reacting ^.-

anw. yea. down with fever. lol. 39 deg one >_> i havent had fever since. end of sec 1? when i had chicken pox.. lol which means i wasnt sick with fever i was sick with chicken pox.. so er. the last time i had fever was prob like rly abt 3 years ago >_>

zz. lol. when i woke up my head felt like got some anvil strapped to it la move a bit pain. zz. then ytd night i feel v weak ): as leadership challenge says, 'powerless times'

ok nvm. but then right. rly la. havnet been sick since dunno when. then ytd ok ok one lor. then somemore i got go sch and go out leh. then outside right also ok. but then after a wao become like lethargic. tired. then feel warm. then go home then see doc that time is like =.= lol my expression prob like. L from deathnote. the eyes like =.= one. lol.

slept at like 9 or 10 ytd.. woke at 7 just now haha.. now cannot sleep.. feel better cos ate med..? but i feel tired = i shud sleep..

zz i feel damn bad. v dui bu qi.. cos waste ur time then make you frownie. ): eh i hope i recover by sun then can go work haha.
at 9:14 AM
Friday, November 10, 2006
"There’s this one scene in a Simpson’s episode that I’ve always loved. It features Snake, the stereotypical criminal, in the exercise yard at a minimum security prison. Homer drives by in Snake’s old sports-car, which he bought at a police auction, and which he’s now abusing quite badly. Hearing this, Snake decides to escape and rescue his car. He walks to the gate, and opens it and walks out. It’s unlocked. All it has was a sign that says “NO ESCAPING PLEASE” on it. Snake exclaims: “Screw the honor system! My car needs me!” and runs off. Kearney, who is working out nearby in the exercise yard sees this and yells out: “Hey, you’re ruining it for the rest of us!”

It’s one of those things that’s funny because it’s such a scathing commentary on how society functions. Not just in terms of prisons, but in terms of how control systems only have power over us because we essentially allow them to. More often than not though, it doesn’t seem that way at all. It seems like we are in a maximum security prison with guards and angry inmates on all sides. Jeremy wrote a nice piece on what Philip K. Dick called the Black Iron Prison. It’s a gnostic concept that goes something like this:

'you are imprisoned for a crime you did not commit. You have no way to escape. You can decorate your cell in any way you choose; you can rail against the Authorities but will never overturn them; you can enmesh yourself in prison politics and join a gang; you can chart the routines of the guards and the schedules by which it’s determined when you get to go out into the yard for exercise. You can even make friends with the guards and wardens and work for the Authorities, thereby making your physical lot in life more comfortable and bearable. If any of this makes you feel better, well, great– go for it. In the end, however, you’re still in prison;'

Gnosticism generally asserts that the archons (which means literally “authorities”) are the masters and architects of this prison, and that their goal is to control us completely. But in a way, I think we decide to let them. I was talking to my girlfriend recently about something similar. I was talking about a pet peeve of mine which is that tv documentaries on the paranormal, no matter how deep they go into the subject, always seem to come back and at the very end say: “But it’s all bullshit. It’s just a fun theory. Now come back to reality.” I said something about how it was a way to control people’s perceptions, or something equally conspiratorial. But she reminded me of something I always forget: people like to be titillated by far our paranormal shit, but at the end of the day, most people don’t want to have to “believe” it. If they did believe it, they’d have to rearrange their entire life and the underlying system of perceptions.

Instead when most of us see the sign that says “NO ESCAPING PLEASE” we are more than happy to obey it. What the hell would we do once we escaped? We’d have no idea how to survive outside the prison walls. That’s much scarier than the occasional whomping by an inmate or the stern reproval of a prison guard. Have you ever been to a bird house at the zoo? Some of them don’t have windows anymore separating you from the bird habitats. And yet the birds don’t escape. You’d think they would, but they find their prison environment much more interesting than the sterile hallways from which you peer in at them.

It’s kind of funny to look at what Kearney says in that Simpson’s episode mentioned above. It makes me wonder if occultists, conspiracy theorists and other counter-culturalists really are “ruining it for the rest of us”, so to speak. If you asked the common man on the street, I’m sure that’s not far from his opinion. Why do we feel like we can “screw the honor system” and run outside the prison walls? And what do we do once we get out there and find that the world is much more complex, scary and exciting than we could have ever possibly imagined? I know many people get a little ways outside the prison, and then run screaming home to Mommy’s waiting arms. Others of us have gone a little ways outside the wall and set up camp of our own - feeling greatly superior in our personally-designed and assembled mini prison. But there are others of us still who push beyond that, into the great unknown. How? Why? What drives us? What do we find? And how do we keep going? These are questions I’m always grappling with."

By Tim Boucher
Sunday, May 29th, 2005 at 6:16 pm

http://www.timboucher.com/journal/2005/05/29/the-minimum-security-black-iron-prison/


read this a while back but today refreshed my memory on it haha.. nth bad rly i think its really a brilliant concept.. smth worth thinking abt!
at 1:09 AM
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
just back from pl camp.. quite a great experience.. v tiring yes.. >.<

met new ppl! haha yay poseidon rocks haha and jlim haxxed our flag >_>

played soccer just now a bit? lol been a long time since i dare play soccer haha i suck so horribly at it i'm disgusted at my own jackedness..

lol compare the prev statement to those last year >_> see how much i totally suck now..

zz i'm quite a failure actly. bai4 lei4!

music exam was suck too haha i cnfirm fail everythin except maybe motif and MAYBE haydn. the rest ultimate flop. my inability + super nervous = lose.

but nvm haha. u know i keep telling myself to be happy! dont be worried dont feel down dont be pissed. life's too short to be pissed off all the time anyway.. must stay happy ^^

yay. haha ravi one of our gi gave us a word of advice just now..

"time flies like crazy
fruit flies like bananas."

-________-" along those lines la i only caught the 2nd line >_> but i know the gist of the first la. yeap. time flies and hey sec 3 batch of '07. we have one last year in ri. and its like a tent. lets do it right the first time and save all the trouble. (:
at 6:04 PM
Sunday, November 05, 2006
my sleeve smells! of YOU! ^^


just back from watching the grudge 2! quite freaky haha but nice nice! msut watch haha.. reminder! i ahve to watch shutter! havent watch yet
):

anw! haha carrot tour the world today! lets have a look! ^^

carrot visting icecream land!

i also want to live in ice cream land ):

carrot shopping for groceries!

wats carrot doing in a cardboard carton >_>

carrot shui jiao! :D

carrot being emo at the end of the day. ):

well he shud be! tmr pract piano monday camp tues exam wed camp thurs cca. the earliest earliest would be fri that i'm free again alr ): unless hardcore tues after exam before go back camp got a few hours. >_>

shall bathe! (:




at 1:50 AM
Saturday, November 04, 2006
haha yeap! been busy enjoying myself (again!) haha and havent been blogging out also! trying hard to hardcore piano but however much i pract its still bullshit and i'm still gonna fail even my teacher thinks so.

but the piano today was rly bullshit. -.- its fking screwed i srsly couldnt play at all on it. once i touched the piano i knew i was gonna get scolded. wtf.

which i did. but then i come home play it sounds fine. so i dunno. i'll prob fail anw. and today was last lesson. fk. its on tues la. tmd damn screwed. cb.

zz. monday is camp.. i'm wondering if i get sent home for hair then i could pract more piano...

lol. cb. my piano rly dead la.. zz.

lol. last day of sch was like. ok ok la. dint have time to um. spend time with the classroom too much cos the two hours of lunch i had was er. spent on lunch.

anw. here are some photos of our electrifying gravity-defying class deco!


there is a prefect shoe in our class. A prefect shoe. one. no one claims it..


as daniel lee explains the 'mysterious moving drawers' at the front of our class: "maam the spirits make the drawers move and we have to keep them in bottles covered by the ceiling. once we take them down they escape alr" lol i prefer to think the ceiling is thirsty.


spiderman chair.. O.O its climbing a wall argh!


now its on the ceiling!

zz. back to piano and lunch ( i v full ): ) then going to watch the grudge 2! ^^
at 3:58 PM