Friday, February 29, 2008
so many things has happened again, before i can blog haha, wonderful class camp, wonderful class, wonderful times with class, fabulous times with class and fabulous, class!! haha (: fabulous haha. class camp was very very fun haha, even tho the storm at night and extreme freezing and tiredness that follows, it was damn fun shoveling water out and being wet w everyone, lol damn fun!! haha 3G!! (:
spell check tells me, shoveling is single l, like hydrophilic, which i must also rmr is single l! ): < haha, our tent for class camp was partially permeable, and i'm trying to denature my bio lect notes!! ): lol ok i'm not dg that now, that was from qte long ago la haha.
not so fabulous tests, chem and math today (which ppl couldnt believe i said was difficult, cos apparently they thought it was ok..??! it prob was -.- nb), and econs next tues -.- lol. fail fail fail, as in rly fail like do 1.5 qns out of 5, max marks 5 out of 25 kinda fail. lol. which i know is not counted, but i'm qte being owned -.- that made me think abt stuff today hahaha
yea thinking back abt wat david lu said abt no. 1 priorities, i realised to my horror, that i am very appalled with myself. theres so many things now in my life that shud be 1st priorit(ies), much more are coming, and instead. they are all just 2nd priorities. 2nd to nothing. that actually pretty much sums it up, my same 24 hours everyone else has, has been dissolved off into bits and pieces here and there that are rly srsly wasted away, and my life ticks away 1 day at a time. theres rly so many things that should be 1st priorities, and instead i've put them all 2nd priorities, 2nd to nothing, i've thought about it, this must change.
i've also thought abt leonardo da vinci and argentinean tangos,
guitar
studies
theory
sleep
health
people
there's a lot of empty promises i've made myself, and i think this has to stop, plus i cannot waste any second of my life haha. on another note, this is not emo/sad/depressed, its thinking haha. i'm shalls eat and give myself a simpsons episode, then its this!!
spell check tells me, shoveling is single l, like hydrophilic, which i must also rmr is single l! ): < haha, our tent for class camp was partially permeable, and i'm trying to denature my bio lect notes!! ): lol ok i'm not dg that now, that was from qte long ago la haha.
not so fabulous tests, chem and math today (which ppl couldnt believe i said was difficult, cos apparently they thought it was ok..??! it prob was -.- nb), and econs next tues -.- lol. fail fail fail, as in rly fail like do 1.5 qns out of 5, max marks 5 out of 25 kinda fail. lol. which i know is not counted, but i'm qte being owned -.- that made me think abt stuff today hahaha
yea thinking back abt wat david lu said abt no. 1 priorities, i realised to my horror, that i am very appalled with myself. theres so many things now in my life that shud be 1st priorit(ies), much more are coming, and instead. they are all just 2nd priorities. 2nd to nothing. that actually pretty much sums it up, my same 24 hours everyone else has, has been dissolved off into bits and pieces here and there that are rly srsly wasted away, and my life ticks away 1 day at a time. theres rly so many things that should be 1st priorities, and instead i've put them all 2nd priorities, 2nd to nothing, i've thought about it, this must change.
i've also thought abt leonardo da vinci and argentinean tangos,
guitar
studies
theory
sleep
health
people
there's a lot of empty promises i've made myself, and i think this has to stop, plus i cannot waste any second of my life haha. on another note, this is not emo/sad/depressed, its thinking haha. i'm shalls eat and give myself a simpsons episode, then its this!!
Sunday, February 17, 2008
haha been so long since i wanted to blog, and yea, everytime i think abt blogging, i don feel like, cos it'll be the usual stuff, like my prev few posts. but oh well here goes,
guitar valentine's day balloon sales! omg some mad and scary planning can, haha but so glad we pulled it off! and the amt we make to donate to charity is not bad for a one day thing! many ppl to thank for this, batch j1 for all ur efforts coming down to help sales, val, reynard, jon ho, KEVIN for ur personal sacrifices haha, tao tao and wang tong too, and liying, esp cos ur not j1!! haha the other thing abt valentine's day was how i bought the last helium balloon from the stall, so that we could close shop, and as i tied it to my bag.. well god made someone else's balloon fly to 4 stories, and i realise. as tedric's nick says, 'make happiness' is '^_^', yeap, a fitting end to my last balloon (: decided to let it go and give it to him. haha, and the only reason makoto is my wallpaper is because its the closest pic of you that i can put.
i was loading will's chopin cds into comp, wl, chopin is like. very. yah. i also loaded PARA PARA PARADISE techno songs into my comp, for WIN damn nice. night of fire!! knvm, miss playing it, like at 4P chalet haha.
went out ytd w will haha, after that ate at nyny, and it was damn gd food, met rowena and her family haha. came back and i fell asleep, without doing anywork, and that is why i am very screwed now as each second passes. zz.
oh fri went watch jumper with the class. all of us fell asleep at one point or another D: its that boring! before that was take 5, then we ate at pizza hut hahaha, damn funny and sharona kept laughing like nth, at nth lol. haha love my class la, must have more outings!! haha speaking of class, i'm rly dying at work, at first it was like, i was on track and ppl are 3 chapters ahead and its like i'm lagging. now its like i am rly behind time, and ppl are 3 chapters ahead, so i'm in v bad shit.
and i think this is how the next few parts of my life is going to be..? i hope not, i dont want it to be, i really dont, but i think many of the coming days will be just me mundanely and v monotonously, doing things and getting things done, just getting past the next min, next hr, next day. even if i was watching simpsons, reading abt psp games, or just like now, blogging. i'll be like, wearing specs with frames obscuring my vision, or covered in a blanket on my bed while i've just come back from school, sweaty and sticky. its that feeling again, its that dry lips, tiny open scratch on my back of neck, the feeling that i havent bathe. i cant project to you my mental feeling, and thats the best i can describe of it, so ya. i dont want it to be, but the coming days might just be like that, just to live thru just to go through, and wat am i trying to get at with my time? i must be trying to get at smth.
was thinking abt it as i was walking home, i think ytd, i have cousins who are single at 30 plus, 40, my uncle is a mechanic at age 50. my parents are nearing 50..!??! jc life has less than 2 more years for me. to spend 1 minute, switch on your computer and wait for it to start up while sitting there. to spend 10 minutes, count the number of silver and black cars going by down stairs, to spend 1 hour turn on the tv now and watch the show on it. to spend 3 days. well i've just did, from the last time i was in school. i guess thats how time is passing for us, and i'm at quite a loss, wondering what i'm getting at, as each day passes just like that. its as if theres nothing substantial here and there and we're all just walking around on thin air, getting to no where as 1 half months have much passed since 2008.
imagine you just came home, you are in sch u and u are sweaty and sticky, and then you go to your bed, cover with blanket and nap. or you are just wearing specs and looking around, but not quite because of the existence of frames. lol, k nobody's gna understand what i'm trying to express but yea i'm just saying. mmhmm, and then each day passes just like that, what have i done? what am i getting at at all?
on a separate and very emo sounding note, i think abt 2 weeks back i was thinking abt this la haha. davinci once said, "once you have tasted flight, you will forever walk the earth with your eyes turned skyward, for there you have been, and there you will always long to return." i saw it in aus in sec 3 but i lost the pic (along with 2 days worth of pics) but i rmr it, and i alw rmr it, because how true it is. and i bet da vinci knows because honestly, there he had been, and there he will alw long to return.
there i have been and there i will alw long to return. i think i need to adapt to life well. misfortune seems to have taken root in my new life, but no, actually it hasnt, its the way i've alw taken my great flight for granted. but now that theres non of that thermal updraft, i have to flap hard. i know i keep saying godly and satanic things but u must know, deep down i know its none of that, its an american dream, i just have to work harder, work hard for wat i want. there i have been and i i will alw long to return. i'll work hard to taste my flight once again. watch.
guitar valentine's day balloon sales! omg some mad and scary planning can, haha but so glad we pulled it off! and the amt we make to donate to charity is not bad for a one day thing! many ppl to thank for this, batch j1 for all ur efforts coming down to help sales, val, reynard, jon ho, KEVIN for ur personal sacrifices haha, tao tao and wang tong too, and liying, esp cos ur not j1!! haha the other thing abt valentine's day was how i bought the last helium balloon from the stall, so that we could close shop, and as i tied it to my bag.. well god made someone else's balloon fly to 4 stories, and i realise. as tedric's nick says, 'make happiness' is '^_^', yeap, a fitting end to my last balloon (: decided to let it go and give it to him. haha, and the only reason makoto is my wallpaper is because its the closest pic of you that i can put.
i was loading will's chopin cds into comp, wl, chopin is like. very. yah. i also loaded PARA PARA PARADISE techno songs into my comp, for WIN damn nice. night of fire!! knvm, miss playing it, like at 4P chalet haha.
went out ytd w will haha, after that ate at nyny, and it was damn gd food, met rowena and her family haha. came back and i fell asleep, without doing anywork, and that is why i am very screwed now as each second passes. zz.
oh fri went watch jumper with the class. all of us fell asleep at one point or another D: its that boring! before that was take 5, then we ate at pizza hut hahaha, damn funny and sharona kept laughing like nth, at nth lol. haha love my class la, must have more outings!! haha speaking of class, i'm rly dying at work, at first it was like, i was on track and ppl are 3 chapters ahead and its like i'm lagging. now its like i am rly behind time, and ppl are 3 chapters ahead, so i'm in v bad shit.
and i think this is how the next few parts of my life is going to be..? i hope not, i dont want it to be, i really dont, but i think many of the coming days will be just me mundanely and v monotonously, doing things and getting things done, just getting past the next min, next hr, next day. even if i was watching simpsons, reading abt psp games, or just like now, blogging. i'll be like, wearing specs with frames obscuring my vision, or covered in a blanket on my bed while i've just come back from school, sweaty and sticky. its that feeling again, its that dry lips, tiny open scratch on my back of neck, the feeling that i havent bathe. i cant project to you my mental feeling, and thats the best i can describe of it, so ya. i dont want it to be, but the coming days might just be like that, just to live thru just to go through, and wat am i trying to get at with my time? i must be trying to get at smth.
was thinking abt it as i was walking home, i think ytd, i have cousins who are single at 30 plus, 40, my uncle is a mechanic at age 50. my parents are nearing 50..!??! jc life has less than 2 more years for me. to spend 1 minute, switch on your computer and wait for it to start up while sitting there. to spend 10 minutes, count the number of silver and black cars going by down stairs, to spend 1 hour turn on the tv now and watch the show on it. to spend 3 days. well i've just did, from the last time i was in school. i guess thats how time is passing for us, and i'm at quite a loss, wondering what i'm getting at, as each day passes just like that. its as if theres nothing substantial here and there and we're all just walking around on thin air, getting to no where as 1 half months have much passed since 2008.
imagine you just came home, you are in sch u and u are sweaty and sticky, and then you go to your bed, cover with blanket and nap. or you are just wearing specs and looking around, but not quite because of the existence of frames. lol, k nobody's gna understand what i'm trying to express but yea i'm just saying. mmhmm, and then each day passes just like that, what have i done? what am i getting at at all?
on a separate and very emo sounding note, i think abt 2 weeks back i was thinking abt this la haha. davinci once said, "once you have tasted flight, you will forever walk the earth with your eyes turned skyward, for there you have been, and there you will always long to return." i saw it in aus in sec 3 but i lost the pic (along with 2 days worth of pics) but i rmr it, and i alw rmr it, because how true it is. and i bet da vinci knows because honestly, there he had been, and there he will alw long to return.
there i have been and there i will alw long to return. i think i need to adapt to life well. misfortune seems to have taken root in my new life, but no, actually it hasnt, its the way i've alw taken my great flight for granted. but now that theres non of that thermal updraft, i have to flap hard. i know i keep saying godly and satanic things but u must know, deep down i know its none of that, its an american dream, i just have to work harder, work hard for wat i want. there i have been and i i will alw long to return. i'll work hard to taste my flight once again. watch.
Saturday, February 02, 2008
today must be another most bastard day to wake up to. waking up at 8 and knowing theres no point in that, so i waited for myself to fall back to sleep. then 9 plus, then 10 plus, and now 11, i have no excuses. is estranged the word? i wondered as i walked to the bathroom, yea i think so. yea i just checked it, it is. i'm either really tired to move, or i just cant seem to move, and i think what i really need, is for someone to reach out and pull me out of this. but i dont think anyone is going to. so i shall stop reaching around because its so dumb and fruitless.. on the other hand, i feel like i just enlisted into the army, an entered monkhood haha. ok very inappropriate but that was how i feel it. yesterday, i took the last self nomination form for council i think, and signed up at around 6.20. i've been thinking about it a lot but i never really tell many ppl. and i actually eventually settled on no, but then i still thought about it and i guess i decided just to give it a try and go for interviews at least la. yea, i dont know how anyth will go. but i rly hope i'm given the chance to go in. if i get in i'm gonna pon everyone and everything that ponned me before, and just hardcore council, guitar, and homework haha. yea. monkhood and enlistment, maybe it begins today sigh. i dont mean to sound so emo -.- but there's not much left for me here and there haha.