Monday, October 31, 2011

can you imagine..?








no no, i can imagine. can YOU imagine? haha

i feel tortured everyday. how do i live? 每一天在你的梦里等待..

Sunday, October 30, 2011

omG i just found something mindblowing to do to waste time haha. it has to do with pressing ctrl-alt-cmd-8, and staring at a nose for > 10 seconds. wtheck..

everyday its just getting harder to live, every moment is getting harder to pass.

today's just one day. but how many more times am i going to say that?

i don't know

Saturday, October 29, 2011

i really want to figure out why the frown, at 3.07pm today. cos all i want to do is to put a smile on that face of yours, every moment, everyday.

if only i could tell you all that haha

Friday, October 28, 2011

you are confident for all the wrong reasons, and i am confident for all the right reasons. there is no way i can't do it. i'm going to up my game, and you'll see. because this bloody hell matters to me. let's go man

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

:( everyday, i'm just dreaming of having a nice wife and kids next time :(

Sunday, October 23, 2011

ahh life sucks..

wah, who can make red eyeshadow matched with green contacts look good? only kim hyuna!! D: but who's the one that can make black mascara look good? only

Saturday, October 22, 2011

wahlao, life freaking sucks! but its ok cos, i guess, if the happiness isnt here, its elsewhere..

拜托不要现在告诉我,

Friday, October 21, 2011

because i know that when the song finishes, i am supposed to forget you.

Saturday, October 15, 2011

不懂你的黑色幽默...

not one day will i forget that we are the more fortunate.

tears fill my eyes as i run away. like in the song running away haha, i'm not running away to escape something, but to leave behind things. out run them. i can't bear to leave these things behind but i have to. and its a pain. i like driving the way i like to keep walking, i guess because, i keep on moving. walking's only sad though, when i'm walking in the rain, alone. arj tells me that there are many guys out there, walking in the rain alone. but still, i want it to be like the stretch i walk from east point to my house - where i eventually have a place called home that i walk to.

i'm running away, i'm leaving things behind. i think i'm actually outrunning this, but its so sad. on the other hand i cant seem to ever outrun that.. and so i realised it may be something. and so i'm not doing it any other way lor.

maybe i'm just screwed intrinsically from the start la. but i wouldnt have it any other way. i dont know how to.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

your hair will split, and your skin will age. skin-deep beauty and skin-deep youth.. will fade. smth else lives forever. yes, that's how i know.

that being said.. its tough.. me and arj are both waiting for the mums to appear. til then, a story is being told.. good luck !

Monday, October 10, 2011

is it me, or my imagination, i smell incense paper burning in the distance..

carried by the air that is blown from another block or smth..

i can't help but feel nostalgic, taking myself back to younger days of carefree, memories of heartland events where i'm at my old aunt's place, heartland heartland heartland. where back at my house on the night of cny eve my parents set up a table, make offerings to chinese deities, and i chill, in a child's sense, the night away just enjoying the fact that its a holiday.

not just that i miss those days. but i am so looking forward to them..

the keyword was the first word of the sentence, not the highlighted one..

i feel sad because i know that face as the person who's gonna be someone next time. but i bind my tongue and leave out so much more i want to type in this post because i know that's the only right thing to do if i

because it tied both of us down and we couldnt breathe. and you look so alive struggling right now.

go forth and be alive

Sunday, October 09, 2011

very tired and irritable. probably cos i feel bu zi zai cos i'm falling sick. but in addition to my feeling pissed off, ok i feel more pissed off, at, how, backboneless ppl are well, backboneless, whilst ppl whom i can converse with and can take care of themselves.. are just being dicks. of course, there are backboneless ppl who are dicks, which is the reason for the first feeling pissed off that i mentioned anyway. btw took place past few days. pretty sure it'll take place more next time anyway.

Friday, October 07, 2011

it is suddenly 2.30am.. remind me how why i cannot ever get into the soc? do i? is it? maybe got no soc/new soc its random i dont get it??? hahahahahaha

i love it when you look vulnerable, when you look shagged and tired and weak. cos you no longer look like the ice princess you are, but a little girl. or a mother who just gave birth. the latter two of which you are more than the first, but i'm not gonna tell you.

Thursday, October 06, 2011

i'm fucking pissed off at ALL of you

omG you dont fucking know music, all of you dont. repeatedly being a tard. shows me i'm gonna waste my fucking time tomorrow. and what i hate more than anything else in the world is fucking bringing my fucking electric guitar around cos its heavy.

YOU fucking shallowly readably retarded. its SO obvious, that its disgusting sometimes. cos its awkwardly not playing out smoothly like it can/should like a well played out movie. all because of how HUMAN you are, and how lame humans are in the first place. shut up and stop doing stuff. you dont fucking deserve to for the next idk 10 mins/years or smth. can you kind of, not be a fucker?

YOU wahlao eh can dont kill me?? dont do this shit to me, giving me nice youtube links with just about the most ever. whole day every day you on comp then you give me this shit. when NTH will EVER happen. drink drink drink

YOU OMG for once you're the one i'm feeling least for here. because you didnt do shit and i didnt do shit and we've just not been talking until tmr, and wtheck!! what's with LUCK, and the one normal next stride i'm about to take?? tell me you're not shitting me la..

YOU even you, i think you (seemingly) didnt do shit actually la. but wtheck on your timing alone bro, can i just get pissed off at you. and any other shit you pulled la. somewhere along there.

-.- fuck everyone... -.-

Wednesday, October 05, 2011

i love it when you laugh like that. if forever was a thing.. it would be you haha.

Monday, October 03, 2011

can get ami la.. omg. sympathetic response = danger haha.

not every golden hair girl

Sunday, October 02, 2011

每顆心上某一個地方
總有個記憶揮不散
每個深夜某一個地方
總有著最深的思量

世間萬千的變幻
愛把有情的人分兩端
心若知道靈犀的方向
哪怕不能夠朝夕相伴

城裡的月光把夢照亮
請溫暖她心房　看透了人間聚散
能不能多點快樂片段

城裡的月光把夢照亮
請守候她身旁　若有一天能重逢
讓幸福撒滿整個夜晚

若有一天能重逢
讓幸福撒滿整個夜晚

the suits and the ties can suck my cock. i will serve the people..

Saturday, October 01, 2011

if i die, i wish to be ripped apart, and every part of me salvaged to be used for some good cause. any viable part of me should be donated to patients who need them, and any non viable part of me (absolutely so, cos i'd rather be used for transplant than study if it can be helped) should be used for study. and then any scraps left of me can be collected and dumped into a hole in the ground like rags, where my grave can be haha.