Monday, August 29, 2005
haha a pic of me playing the elec during rage x :D hahaha just an hour before the actual concert lol. tho i dint perform la hahaha. funny aura around it lol. courtesy of choonhiang hahaha.
aura around me. lets worship nirvana. i was playing smells like teen spirit at that point in time.
aura around me. lets worship nirvana. i was playing smells like teen spirit at that point in time.
Sunday, August 28, 2005
ok. changed song to fade to black by metallica. too bad to those who dint get to enjoy the prev song much hahaha. this song is nice too. but a bit the metal so yah haha.
lalala this is more of a test post hahaha.
tmr got math test. fuck. oh well. i'm still doing eng reflections now lol.
shud concentrate more so ok byebye hahaha :D
lalala this is more of a test post hahaha.
tmr got math test. fuck. oh well. i'm still doing eng reflections now lol.
shud concentrate more so ok byebye hahaha :D
fade to black
metallica
life it seems, will fade away
drifting further every day
getting lost within myself
nothing matters no one else
i have lost the will to live
simply nothing more to give
there is nothing more for me
need the end to set me free
things are not what they used to be
missing one inside of me
deathly lost, this cant be real
cannot stand this hell i feel
emptiness is filling me
to the point of agony
growing darkness taking dawn
i was me, but now hes gone
no one but me can save myself, but its too late
now i cant think, think why i should even try
yesterday seems as though it never existed
death greets me warm, now i will just say goodbye
worth dying for.
worth killing for.
worth going to hell for.
amen.
metallica
life it seems, will fade away
drifting further every day
getting lost within myself
nothing matters no one else
i have lost the will to live
simply nothing more to give
there is nothing more for me
need the end to set me free
things are not what they used to be
missing one inside of me
deathly lost, this cant be real
cannot stand this hell i feel
emptiness is filling me
to the point of agony
growing darkness taking dawn
i was me, but now hes gone
no one but me can save myself, but its too late
now i cant think, think why i should even try
yesterday seems as though it never existed
death greets me warm, now i will just say goodbye
worth dying for.
worth killing for.
worth going to hell for.
amen.
i wish that i could make her see
shes just the flavour of the week
shes just the flavour of the week
Saturday, August 27, 2005
cool haha know wat i did?
i told myself to stop straining and resisting the pain hahaha. i just totally relaxed and let the pain take over. it was freaking pain when i dint resist it hahaha. i was like suffering and staring at comp hahahahaha. but now its gone before i know it yay. so maybe pain and sufferign is good. lol. i'm not making sense. oh well.
i told myself to stop straining and resisting the pain hahaha. i just totally relaxed and let the pain take over. it was freaking pain when i dint resist it hahaha. i was like suffering and staring at comp hahahahaha. but now its gone before i know it yay. so maybe pain and sufferign is good. lol. i'm not making sense. oh well.
fuck. mad weird sudden stomach pain. dunno why. fuck. oh fuck. its damn pain.
haha decided on 4ever by the veronicas. if i'm not wrong its quite unknown. so tune up speakers and enjoy :D haha
and then now i'm thinking shit shudda used fade to black by metallica instead -.- oh well. one day when i'm feeling shit again i'll use that as my blog song la haha. yay. that means it'd be soon lol -.-
and then now i'm thinking shit shudda used fade to black by metallica instead -.- oh well. one day when i'm feeling shit again i'll use that as my blog song la haha. yay. that means it'd be soon lol -.-
haha i'm at sort of a dilemma. which blog song to change to! hmm. shud it be
4ever - the veronicas..
cmon baby we aint gonna live for ever!
or
lithium - nirvana
i'm so happy. cos today i've found my friends. they're in my head.
or
come as you are - nirvana
come. as you are. as you were. as i want you to be.
or
she's got issues - the offsprings
i say you-ooo, you-ooo. oh she's got issues that i've gotta pay.
or
pretty fly for a white guy - the offsprings
give it to me baby.
uh huh uh huh.
give it to me baby.
uh huh uh huh.
give it to me baby.
uh huh uh huh.
and all the girlies say i'm pretty fly
for a white guy.
so dont deflate. play it straight. you know he really doesnt get it anyway.
lalala. really poof. i dunno which haha. shall think abt it yay. most pro 4ever by the veronicas! its quite an onknown song but its nice :D hahaha ok so yah listen back later (:
4ever - the veronicas..
cmon baby we aint gonna live for ever!
or
lithium - nirvana
i'm so happy. cos today i've found my friends. they're in my head.
or
come as you are - nirvana
come. as you are. as you were. as i want you to be.
or
she's got issues - the offsprings
i say you-ooo, you-ooo. oh she's got issues that i've gotta pay.
or
pretty fly for a white guy - the offsprings
give it to me baby.
uh huh uh huh.
give it to me baby.
uh huh uh huh.
give it to me baby.
uh huh uh huh.
and all the girlies say i'm pretty fly
for a white guy.
so dont deflate. play it straight. you know he really doesnt get it anyway.
lalala. really poof. i dunno which haha. shall think abt it yay. most pro 4ever by the veronicas! its quite an onknown song but its nice :D hahaha ok so yah listen back later (:
Thursday, August 25, 2005
cos i value it so much i dont want it to die with me
i'm really tired. really. like. what the fuck. oh what the fuck.
wtf am i saying. i dunno either. this is gay. gay. gay. gay.
i'm really tired.
today marks the start of garbage and citylights my last shot at writing i guess. my last shot at documenting memories. i'm really afraid i'll lose it all. when i lose it i'll probably lose it all. i dun mind losing my sanity but i dun want to lose it. really. cos. yah. lol. wtf am i saying. oh well. last shot last shot. pls i hope i can do a good job.
fuck.
with the lights out
wtf am i saying. i dunno either. this is gay. gay. gay. gay.
i'm really tired.
today marks the start of garbage and citylights my last shot at writing i guess. my last shot at documenting memories. i'm really afraid i'll lose it all. when i lose it i'll probably lose it all. i dun mind losing my sanity but i dun want to lose it. really. cos. yah. lol. wtf am i saying. oh well. last shot last shot. pls i hope i can do a good job.
fuck.
with the lights out
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
hello
haha i'm sick so i stayed home.
throat infection. as usual. fuck my throat its always giving me shit.
haha well when i cough my mucus out thru the mouth rite. it passes thru the pain/infected part of the throat la. then theres blood -.- no blood when out the nose. wow my throat is bleeding wtf. oh well. hahaha. lol hope i recover soon.
anyways
CHEER UP BUDDY! :D
haha yea cheer up ok buddy sorry i couldnt help more haha but yea cheer up ok (:
haha i'm sick so i stayed home.
throat infection. as usual. fuck my throat its always giving me shit.
haha well when i cough my mucus out thru the mouth rite. it passes thru the pain/infected part of the throat la. then theres blood -.- no blood when out the nose. wow my throat is bleeding wtf. oh well. hahaha. lol hope i recover soon.
anyways
CHEER UP BUDDY! :D
haha yea cheer up ok buddy sorry i couldnt help more haha but yea cheer up ok (:
Monday, August 22, 2005
with the lights out.
its less dangerous.
its less dangerous.
Sunday, August 21, 2005
"then he poured a fuckload of kerosene on the stack of shit and set the thing FUCKING ALIGHT WOOHOOO.
and everybody lived happily ever after.
the end."
and everybody lived happily ever after.
the end."
"a typical schoolboy that led the cursed love life.
he was bored one day.
one lonely day may we add.
took a stack of foolscap and sat there right in front of that mirror.
looking into the mirror, he pointed. 'you stupid loser. you suck ahahahaha.'
after some maniacal laughter he looked down at his palm. in the centre of it was a cut-out heart.
he looked at the stack of foolscap in his other hand.
not looking, he started to flip the pad from top to bottom.
still not looking he thrust that cut-out heartshaped paper randomly into between a page.
he looked at himself squarely in the eye.
'if you have the good fortune. may the day you find this love, be the day you find your love.'"
-.- lollages.
he was bored one day.
one lonely day may we add.
took a stack of foolscap and sat there right in front of that mirror.
looking into the mirror, he pointed. 'you stupid loser. you suck ahahahaha.'
after some maniacal laughter he looked down at his palm. in the centre of it was a cut-out heart.
he looked at the stack of foolscap in his other hand.
not looking, he started to flip the pad from top to bottom.
still not looking he thrust that cut-out heartshaped paper randomly into between a page.
he looked at himself squarely in the eye.
'if you have the good fortune. may the day you find this love, be the day you find your love.'"
-.- lollages.
Saturday, August 20, 2005
come as you are
nirvana
come
as you are
as you were
as i want you to be
as a friend
as a friend
as an old enemy
take your time
hurry up
the choice is yours
dun be late
take a rest
as a friend
as a known memory yea
memory yea
memory yea
memory yea
come doused in mud
cept in bleach
as i want you to be
as a trend
as a friend
as a known memory yea
memory yea
memory yea
memory yea
and i swear that i dun have a gun
no i dun have a gun
no i dun have a gun
memory yea
memory yea
memory yea
memory yea
and i swear that i dun have a gun
no i dun have a gun
no i dun have a gun
no i dun have a gun
no i dun have a gun
nirvana
come
as you are
as you were
as i want you to be
as a friend
as a friend
as an old enemy
take your time
hurry up
the choice is yours
dun be late
take a rest
as a friend
as a known memory yea
memory yea
memory yea
memory yea
come doused in mud
cept in bleach
as i want you to be
as a trend
as a friend
as a known memory yea
memory yea
memory yea
memory yea
and i swear that i dun have a gun
no i dun have a gun
no i dun have a gun
memory yea
memory yea
memory yea
memory yea
and i swear that i dun have a gun
no i dun have a gun
no i dun have a gun
no i dun have a gun
no i dun have a gun
is anybody home?
'in his mind. memories swam around like fish in the sea. and some happened to be flying fish. one memory leapt out at him.
he took a peek. then a peek. they yet another peek. and all that went thru his mind was. beautiful. gorgeous. perfect. and nothing but question burned at his throat. how did i..? how did i ever..? and all that he felt in his heart was unbelievability.. yet such happiness, for such a wonderful event happened to him. how could it have ever happened to HIM? happiness. yet shrouded with wonderment..
and snapping out of his mental pensieve. he realised something. perhaps it was fate being senile again, making her mistakes. when ever does mother nature let roses thrive on waste? when ever does mother nature let cherry blosoms bloom in a swamp?
perhaps it was a moment of chance. and now that 'tis undone, balance restored.
but it must have been a beautiful moment of chance. and it must have been a beautiful imperfection.
now it is no more. beautiful or not.
and of all the fish swimming in his sea, of all the flying fish that leapt out at him. that fish had to leap out. to tell him that it must have been nothing more than chance. beautiful or not. it must only have been chance, for who would..? and how could it..?
how could it ever..?
now he can only take consolation in the fact that nothing is lost, but merely reduced to what he deserves by nature. perhaps it is fate undoing her own mistake.
how could it ever..?
yes how could. but it did. yet it doesnt; perhaps for the reason that it shouldnt have. that it doesnt cos it shouldnt be. yet, to hope it will. again.
such a blessing for a cursed being could not have lasted, much less come twice. but he awaits the nonexistent second miracle. he awaits.'
wat the fuck. wat the fuck was that lol. justification? consolation? explanation? perhaps explanation. abt why. why the fuck. yes explanation abt why the fuck. explanation abt why the fuck. yah. explanation abt why the fuck. yes explanation abt why the fuck. why the fuck.
lol no one understood i see. -.- not meant for u all to understand anyway. lol.
when everything's made to be broken. i just want you to know who i am.
he took a peek. then a peek. they yet another peek. and all that went thru his mind was. beautiful. gorgeous. perfect. and nothing but question burned at his throat. how did i..? how did i ever..? and all that he felt in his heart was unbelievability.. yet such happiness, for such a wonderful event happened to him. how could it have ever happened to HIM? happiness. yet shrouded with wonderment..
and snapping out of his mental pensieve. he realised something. perhaps it was fate being senile again, making her mistakes. when ever does mother nature let roses thrive on waste? when ever does mother nature let cherry blosoms bloom in a swamp?
perhaps it was a moment of chance. and now that 'tis undone, balance restored.
but it must have been a beautiful moment of chance. and it must have been a beautiful imperfection.
now it is no more. beautiful or not.
and of all the fish swimming in his sea, of all the flying fish that leapt out at him. that fish had to leap out. to tell him that it must have been nothing more than chance. beautiful or not. it must only have been chance, for who would..? and how could it..?
how could it ever..?
now he can only take consolation in the fact that nothing is lost, but merely reduced to what he deserves by nature. perhaps it is fate undoing her own mistake.
how could it ever..?
yes how could. but it did. yet it doesnt; perhaps for the reason that it shouldnt have. that it doesnt cos it shouldnt be. yet, to hope it will. again.
such a blessing for a cursed being could not have lasted, much less come twice. but he awaits the nonexistent second miracle. he awaits.'
wat the fuck. wat the fuck was that lol. justification? consolation? explanation? perhaps explanation. abt why. why the fuck. yes explanation abt why the fuck. explanation abt why the fuck. yah. explanation abt why the fuck. yes explanation abt why the fuck. why the fuck.
lol no one understood i see. -.- not meant for u all to understand anyway. lol.
when everything's made to be broken. i just want you to know who i am.
Friday, August 19, 2005
today sucked. yay. as i said everyday will suck. cos nails arent realyl nice to lie one u know.
nvm.
anyway guitar rehearsal today! and was notified that for RE we can actualyl make a band! as in for re we produce an album??? like WUTUFU WHO THE HELL WONT WANT TO DO THAT IN PLCE OF RE LIKE HWGFIKJFBDFHSHJFDS.
ok so i m doing that next year yay i dun care.
so.
VOCALIST SEARCH FOR SEC 2 RI BOYS IF U THINK U CAN SING COME TO ME YAY AND IF UR SEC 2
nvm.
anyway guitar rehearsal today! and was notified that for RE we can actualyl make a band! as in for re we produce an album??? like WUTUFU WHO THE HELL WONT WANT TO DO THAT IN PLCE OF RE LIKE HWGFIKJFBDFHSHJFDS.
ok so i m doing that next year yay i dun care.
so.
VOCALIST SEARCH FOR SEC 2 RI BOYS IF U THINK U CAN SING COME TO ME YAY AND IF UR SEC 2
Thursday, August 18, 2005
haha. today sucks. tmr's gonna suck. in fact everyday's prob gonna suck.
trying contacts today haha. weird and not used to it but nvm lol. pretty ok la. just eyes a bit tiring. oh well. i havent mugged for physics -.- oh shit. ahhh. i better go soon.
tmr full dress rehearsal! and physics pract. fuck la so many things on.
trying contacts today haha. weird and not used to it but nvm lol. pretty ok la. just eyes a bit tiring. oh well. i havent mugged for physics -.- oh shit. ahhh. i better go soon.
tmr full dress rehearsal! and physics pract. fuck la so many things on.
sat/sun = home work -.- thats like chao shit. but i cant help it lol -.- I WANT TO WATCH CHARLIE AND THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY!!!!!! )x poof. haha this weekend would be great yay. hahaha oh well. so much work anyway -.-
monday - some shit on i cant rmr
tues - controle. fuck la
oh well i better go off to mug physics liao. up date tmr lol (hopefully)
VOCALIST SEARCH COME TO ME IF U CAN SIIIIIIIDNG.
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
after this post i shall start serious on work.
just went to collect and try out contacts. very ok for me but damn scary. will tell u all why hahaha
i went then followed instructions. so all going well. tryouts without the lens went pretty well as well. then at the last try out. dunno wat the hell happened. i think i almost blacked out -.- i think its cos no dinner + nervous + stress + life pwning me become liddat la hahaha. cos i went out on an empty stomach. mistake one. then i was nervous. and i think while practicing i strained my muscles too hard and there wasnt enuf blood circulation. u know when u sit down for too long and u stand up to stretch, and blood rushes to ur head so ur vision become pink for a moment? haha i experienced something liddat. but my vision went gray and the clouding of the vision was way too long. then i felt damn freaking giddy. like going to realyl pass out liddat. then waited for damn long. and when i yawned my throat muscles CRAMPED. like. wtf. i must really be damn tired and stressed lol. then now my headache come back cos of the thing -.- head ache from sat till ytd lor like wtf. sigh i shud really pay more attention to my body haha dint realise i was really so stressed and tired. fuck la. hahaha. but otherwise after i recovered from that scary experience. i put on and took out the lenses pretty quickly. haha for me anyway i expected it to be more than an hour -.- but turned out to be less than half an hour for me to learn and try yay. haha. but i not wearing to sch for tmr as well as friday. cos first days not suppsoed to wear too long so i just wear at hometo get used to it yay.
back to reality for me. actually that means school work so nvm -.- theres a test tmr, a test on fri. fuck. and theres the oral comm speech. which i dunno how the fuck to do. so i really dunno alr. i shall finish math last qn, do the speech. then mug. then sleep :D everything else can die tmr yay.
actually i m pretty tired and stressed at the moment lol. fuck it la. hope i make it thru this week yay.
VOCALIST SEARCH. anyone interested to be vocalists??? come approach me hahaha YAY.
haha so i'm off to do work alr see you all :D
opens door -taptaptap foot- :D faster faster yay.
just went to collect and try out contacts. very ok for me but damn scary. will tell u all why hahaha
i went then followed instructions. so all going well. tryouts without the lens went pretty well as well. then at the last try out. dunno wat the hell happened. i think i almost blacked out -.- i think its cos no dinner + nervous + stress + life pwning me become liddat la hahaha. cos i went out on an empty stomach. mistake one. then i was nervous. and i think while practicing i strained my muscles too hard and there wasnt enuf blood circulation. u know when u sit down for too long and u stand up to stretch, and blood rushes to ur head so ur vision become pink for a moment? haha i experienced something liddat. but my vision went gray and the clouding of the vision was way too long. then i felt damn freaking giddy. like going to realyl pass out liddat. then waited for damn long. and when i yawned my throat muscles CRAMPED. like. wtf. i must really be damn tired and stressed lol. then now my headache come back cos of the thing -.- head ache from sat till ytd lor like wtf. sigh i shud really pay more attention to my body haha dint realise i was really so stressed and tired. fuck la. hahaha. but otherwise after i recovered from that scary experience. i put on and took out the lenses pretty quickly. haha for me anyway i expected it to be more than an hour -.- but turned out to be less than half an hour for me to learn and try yay. haha. but i not wearing to sch for tmr as well as friday. cos first days not suppsoed to wear too long so i just wear at hometo get used to it yay.
back to reality for me. actually that means school work so nvm -.- theres a test tmr, a test on fri. fuck. and theres the oral comm speech. which i dunno how the fuck to do. so i really dunno alr. i shall finish math last qn, do the speech. then mug. then sleep :D everything else can die tmr yay.
actually i m pretty tired and stressed at the moment lol. fuck it la. hope i make it thru this week yay.
VOCALIST SEARCH. anyone interested to be vocalists??? come approach me hahaha YAY.
haha so i'm off to do work alr see you all :D
opens door -taptaptap foot- :D faster faster yay.
Sunday, August 14, 2005
hahaha i changed blog song. now its somewhere out there. by our lady peace. dun think it'll change till i get out of my bed of nails haha. and i'll get out of my bed of nails when sunshine comes back. and when sunshine comes back. when i have sunny days again. i'll make sure i dun waste them. i'll make the most out of every fucking sunny day. and i'll give my best again. i'll make sure i make the most out of everyday when sunshine comes back.
ok so anyways haha. this is to the girl that had a lot of shit on her side hahaha. hope this spurs you on (: go girl :D haha and i mean every single word in those lyrics lol.
a story about a girl
our lady peace
(story about a girl)
(story about the world)
Suddenly something I’m not
You’re something that you bought
Was it something I said, my friend
A little girl are you tripping on this
Are you tripping all over it
You better come up for air
Story about a girl
My
Story about the world
My
And are you waking up slowly
You’re nothing but lonely
Are you waking up holding
Holding your breath
And are you looking for something
I promised you one thing
I promise I’ll always
Always be
There
Baby girl, stand up and fight
This is not some paradise
Oh it’s just where we live
And finally you think you’re alright
And that it eats you up alive
You better get used to it
Story about a girl
My
Story about the world
My
And are you waking up slowly
You’re nothing but lonely
Are you waking up holding
Holding your breath
And are you looking for something
I promised you one thing
I promise I’ll always
Always be there
With all my faith
And all my heart
And all those simple things you are
I know
It’s stuck inside your head
You’re alone
You better get used to it
And I know
The feeling has to end
You’re strong
It sucks you in again
And you’re lost
You can’t make any sense
This world
It tears you limb from limb
And hold on
You’re nothing but the best
And are you waking up slowly
You’re nothing but lonely
Are you waking up holding
Holding your breath
Are you looking for something
I promised you one thing
I promise I’ll always
Always be there
With all my faith
And all my heart
And all those simple things you are
With all my faith
And all my heart
And all those simple things you are
ok so anyways haha. this is to the girl that had a lot of shit on her side hahaha. hope this spurs you on (: go girl :D haha and i mean every single word in those lyrics lol.
a story about a girl
our lady peace
(story about a girl)
(story about the world)
Suddenly something I’m not
You’re something that you bought
Was it something I said, my friend
A little girl are you tripping on this
Are you tripping all over it
You better come up for air
Story about a girl
My
Story about the world
My
And are you waking up slowly
You’re nothing but lonely
Are you waking up holding
Holding your breath
And are you looking for something
I promised you one thing
I promise I’ll always
Always be
There
Baby girl, stand up and fight
This is not some paradise
Oh it’s just where we live
And finally you think you’re alright
And that it eats you up alive
You better get used to it
Story about a girl
My
Story about the world
My
And are you waking up slowly
You’re nothing but lonely
Are you waking up holding
Holding your breath
And are you looking for something
I promised you one thing
I promise I’ll always
Always be there
With all my faith
And all my heart
And all those simple things you are
I know
It’s stuck inside your head
You’re alone
You better get used to it
And I know
The feeling has to end
You’re strong
It sucks you in again
And you’re lost
You can’t make any sense
This world
It tears you limb from limb
And hold on
You’re nothing but the best
And are you waking up slowly
You’re nothing but lonely
Are you waking up holding
Holding your breath
Are you looking for something
I promised you one thing
I promise I’ll always
Always be there
With all my faith
And all my heart
And all those simple things you are
With all my faith
And all my heart
And all those simple things you are
Saturday, August 13, 2005
hope you remember me
when youre homesick and need a change
i miss your purple hair
i miss the way you taste
know you'll come back someday
on a bed of nails i wait
im praying that you dont burn out
or fade away
when youre homesick and need a change
i miss your purple hair
i miss the way you taste
know you'll come back someday
on a bed of nails i wait
im praying that you dont burn out
or fade away
Friday, August 12, 2005
haha cool i went to sch today. yay. i went to sch -.-
lol. hahaha. i just reached home lol.
was just thinking abt stuff on the train today haha. when such a huge wave of regret hit me all of a sudden. haha sigh. reminded myself again wat a stupid loser i m.
poof. why dint i enjoy my sunny days! hahaha like the the song why was i so dumb and jaded and ignore sunny days. hahaha stupid me lol. sigh. wished i had enjoyed my sunny days more.
why dint i go play on the beach. go swimming. go fly kites. go lie in meadows. go out just fuckign strolling on those sunny days. why did i waste them away.
sure i did some stuffs. in fact quite a bit of stuff on sunny days. but i just wished i had done more. said more. showed more.
and now that there no longer are sunny days. i think back. and i really just want to have sunny days again. i really just want do so much say so much and show so much now.
i really should have done it during the sunny days dammit. wat was wif me why dint i enjoy my sunny days! why must we always let things go past us and then regret it later?
i'm not saying i totally ignored sunny days. i did quite a lot during sunny days! i really fucking hell wished i done more.
now i really want to do stuff. and its all too late. i aint gonna be able to do it again. fuck i just wish i could do wat i really want to do now.
during those sunny days i had i did quite some stuff haha. yes fun lol. hahaha but its like i could do something and yet not aprpeciate it more. not making watever i m doing flourish. it was as if i made this dellicious cake and i dint add the icing. now the cake is gone theres nothign to put icing on. damn it i hate to regret stuff. sigh.
i really wish i had done more and said more and showed more. i really do. now i really want to do it i cant. fucking hell. wasted. regret. thats all i m feeling now. i'm damn stupid why dint i do those things. when i had so much yet so little time, and all the time wasted. i should have done more. sigh i really want to do it now i dunno why also but i cant.
but anytime. anyfuckingtime. i'll welcome my sunny days back again. anyfuckingtime.
we bid goodbye but u know i'll always be here. for you.
lol. hahaha. i just reached home lol.
was just thinking abt stuff on the train today haha. when such a huge wave of regret hit me all of a sudden. haha sigh. reminded myself again wat a stupid loser i m.
poof. why dint i enjoy my sunny days! hahaha like the the song why was i so dumb and jaded and ignore sunny days. hahaha stupid me lol. sigh. wished i had enjoyed my sunny days more.
why dint i go play on the beach. go swimming. go fly kites. go lie in meadows. go out just fuckign strolling on those sunny days. why did i waste them away.
sure i did some stuffs. in fact quite a bit of stuff on sunny days. but i just wished i had done more. said more. showed more.
and now that there no longer are sunny days. i think back. and i really just want to have sunny days again. i really just want do so much say so much and show so much now.
i really should have done it during the sunny days dammit. wat was wif me why dint i enjoy my sunny days! why must we always let things go past us and then regret it later?
i'm not saying i totally ignored sunny days. i did quite a lot during sunny days! i really fucking hell wished i done more.
now i really want to do stuff. and its all too late. i aint gonna be able to do it again. fuck i just wish i could do wat i really want to do now.
during those sunny days i had i did quite some stuff haha. yes fun lol. hahaha but its like i could do something and yet not aprpeciate it more. not making watever i m doing flourish. it was as if i made this dellicious cake and i dint add the icing. now the cake is gone theres nothign to put icing on. damn it i hate to regret stuff. sigh.
i really wish i had done more and said more and showed more. i really do. now i really want to do it i cant. fucking hell. wasted. regret. thats all i m feeling now. i'm damn stupid why dint i do those things. when i had so much yet so little time, and all the time wasted. i should have done more. sigh i really want to do it now i dunno why also but i cant.
but anytime. anyfuckingtime. i'll welcome my sunny days back again. anyfuckingtime.
we bid goodbye but u know i'll always be here. for you.
Thursday, August 11, 2005
4 am
our lady peace
I walked around my good intentions
And found that there were none
I blame my father for the wasted years
We hardly talked
I never thought I would forget this hate
Then a phone call made me realize I'm wrong
And If I don't make it known that
I've loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to God I figure out
what's wrong
I walked around my room
Not thinking
Just sinking in this box
I blame myself for being too much
Like somebody else
I never thought I would just
Bend this way
Then a phone call made me realize I'm wrong
And If I don't make it known that
I've loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to God I figure out
what's wrong
And I hope to God I figure out
what's wrong
Hope to God I figure out
I hope to God I figure out
what's wrong
If I don't make it known that
I've loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to God I figure out
what's wrong
And If I don't make it known that
I've loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to God I figure out
hello.
its a nice song.
uh huh.
i've got some stuffs to say today. yay.
dad. why are u coughing so much nowadays. and stop skipping meals its fucking bad. and stop sleeping so late. force us to take public transport la u. always put urself before us one. sigh. shud pamper and takecare of urself more ok. and ur that cough. make sure its well taken care of.
hi mum. hahaha ah bu ar. wah si lin eh kia. ai kah li kong way. hahaha. pls dun always get urself so stressed by leng and xuan. u know young children damn unruly one. dont get urself worked up. dad always said theres a choice. pls mum dun stress too much ok. and u must take care of urself also haha dun let the stress get to you ok!
leng. u never gonna read this cos u dunno my blog :P haha yes. when i grow out of harrypotter books it'll all be urs and xuan's alr. i know u very extra at times and i very bad to u at times also la haha. but u must learn not to be so ba dao also you. not just be nice to frens and not to family ok. must treat ur family better. time cannot go back one. enjoy ur p sch years haha and take care yay.
xuan. ur eng sucks u cant read this but u must work hard. dont always get mad at mum cos of some small shit. and dont always think abt playing. yes shud enjoy p sch years but for the long run u must work up too. brush up on ur studies ok. and u can have all my gameboy stuffs la haha. must grow up to be guai ok. dont throw tantrum at everything. must be good to dad and mum hahaha.
my cousins! on my aunts side lol. hello. always there to listen haha. tho i dun confide much >< sorry. but i know u ppl always there haha being adults and all. u helped bridge the gap between me and my parents a lot of times. thnx ok
GU MA! hahaha omg i love you. took care of me so long ur like my second mother. i love you a lot ok. i'm sooo sorry i couldnt have called more. hope u did know i tried to converse as much as possible when we're together. i know u miss ah ma a lot. so do i. i just wished i showed appreciation earlier.. yet i m only showing appreciation now. fuck. haha gu ma thnx a damn lot for bringing me up like ur own child during younger years i'll never forget you ok. i love you and i will call more in the future ok.
gu zhang. haha ur never ever gonna read this but oh well. its pretty sad all thats happened. think u shudda been more considerate and caring to the family u know. not always just splurging money at once sigh. maybe if ppl helped to guide u/educate u u would have done planning and things would have turned out fine.. but things turned out this wayt and its all happened before i know it. i'm sorry for it too. i know u love me, leng and xuan, even chee im too. i know that. how many times we stayed over and u'd buy us supper (against gu ma ;)) i know i know u love us too. in ur own way ok. just dun be to omaterialistic and short tempered at times ok! i still remember u bought me this statuette of a young boy in a jacket. told me i'm gonna be like him. go over seas and all. haha i'll try my best to do that la. but cannot also boh bian la ok. i know u love us in ur own special way just hope ur fine on watever u are on now ok.
ah ma. u no longer here alr. we all miss u a damn freaking lot ok. i regret being so young then i dint show appreciation to u now i realised its too fuckign late. i'm sorry for any disrespect and rudeness and anger ok i'm really sorry and i love you too hope ur well up there.
maternal ah ma. i love you too. u always care so much for me! last time everytime i went over u made ginseng for me to drink! dunno for how many fuckign times ok. its sad i dunno how to speak teochew or i'll tell u how much i love you and ah gong ok. really thanks for caring so much for us even though we rarely saw u (esp now we're so fucking bz) i hope u know i cared and pls take care of urself and ah gong ok. love you.
WILL ZHANG CHEN. haha phone call jsut ended yay. dunno if u'd expect me to be here. dunno why the fuck the last thing i'll be doing tonight is my stupid math ws. great grand ending hur. fuck it. damn ji bai. oh well. hahaha u nice prefect. shit today shud have let u book me for playing soccer in sch u. i shudda let u book me man. why dint i. oh well. anyways u were always the one that cared ok u were always fucking there.i'm not gay (like you :D) but i love you ok and thnx for every single thing. according to u u dint do much. but u cared. thats all the shit in the world. thnx a fuckload i wonder if i could find better frens. thanks for every fucking thing u ever did.
tom. yay hahaha monitor u guai kia. wish u luck on wdv ur doing ;) hahaha thnx for being there also. always when i needed a sensible and mature voice to fuck me awake u could be counted on. thnx a shit load ok.
chelsia! hahaha buddy thnx a shit load for always being there as well ok. its really great to have someone there ready to hear u out on all the stupid little matters (: to hear me whine ahahahaha. sigh. hope u um think stuffs first before making decisions! :D hahahaha yea dun ever live fast like me. u end up dying young. lalala. dun always sigh ok there are things in the world to smile abt. yeaps. thnx a damn lot of being there for me ok! esp abt not giving up part :D i'm not giving up on anythign now.. just want to show some appreciation. again. thnx a lot ok buddy (:
cool (interlude) will just smsed me.
you are not useless ok. listening is the first thing a good fren needs to do. and thats somethign u've done very well. to listen. i talk shit. all that ever comes out of my mouth is shit. but u listened. thats all. thnx a lot ok. thnx a lot just for that. and i wonder how much i would have to thank you for everythign else :D hahaha u tree trunk ar. poof i then dun want to sit on u i not gay. hahaha. well a tree trunk is not useless. its wat a traveller will need for resting when his tired on his long journey. and thats a significant role to be played. thnx a fuck load ok.
andy! hahaha at one point we werent talkign much lol. ur fun to talk to haha nice guy and all lol. hope all is well yay :D hahahaha nope i'll still be insisting to u its the truth that i'm a loser hahaha yea i'm a fuckfaced loser ok. its not abt self confidence its abt facts and all that haha. anyways thnx for being there to hear stuff out ok. thnx haha
cool (interlude 2) will the omgwtf bestest guy on earth just smsed again.
he is the best fren i could ever have fucking had ok. u see now thats his always fucking there? his phonelines always open to a call from me. hsi fingers unrestricted on the messages of encouragement he sends to me. i dunnno wat to fucking say. it ended wif please hiok. damnit dun plead wif me. -.- why would anyone plead me. thats a lowly thing to do ur pleading someone like me. thats like wtf. dun plead me will. i'll be on the road dun worry. as i've said i'll be in sch tmr ok dun worry. i'm probably just talking cock again but right now i couldnt care less. thnx a fuckload for all the encouragement and being there ok
(interlude3)
yay will smsed again. his mad la. hsi a fucking nice guy. i shud let him book me more often. lol. he tells me i'm not alone hahaha he says ppl go thru diff shits haha but i'm not alone. truetrue. we all bleed the same way as you do. it hurts it hurts no matter wat kinda shit we all go thru. to all the ppl out there heyowatsup hahaha. i know i'm not alone cos i've got will. fuck u will why are u so nice to me i'm probably not worth it i'm one guy full of shit. thnx thnx thnx a damn lot ok.
to merrill. ahahahahaha. um..? (: thnx for adding fun in my life lol. it was fun being freaky :D ah but u know me. go get ur lina lol -.-
kevinlim. lol. lamparzi. hahahaha. closest frens from p sch. and still quite clsoe till now :D hahahaha. sigh ur someone to talk to as well lol. thnx for everything ok.
had all the fun crapping times together :D
gabriel ng. someone to talk to as well. not to mention serious talks as well as horny and joke around :DDD thnx a lot gabriel ng haha. i rmr last year i asked u wat would u do if i died. u said u'd cry and put flowers on my grave and the world would be a less betetr place? hahaha. it will be a better place. and dont cry haha tears are precious to keep ur eyeballsssss rolling lol. flowers hmmm. i dun want real ones if u could draw some that'd be nice :D thnx a lot for being there ok (:
to all my other frens. sorry i cant name all of u here it'll take up too much a space haha. sorry sorry >< but i want u to know as well thnx for everythign ok. being there for me time to time. thnx a lot (: wish all of u well and take care as well :D thnx!
to you (: ur not online ur not gonna read this i dunno if ur even gonna last all the way here to read this ok. tonight u had a bad night too. do cheer up ok. thnx as well cos i know at times u wanna hear me out too (: thnx a lot for that ok (: but tonight u had a long night. i'm really sorry i cant always be there for u most of the fucking time i'm here mumbling cheer up dun be sad etcetc i'm really sorry most of the time its beyond my limit to do anythign more i'm really fucking sorry. i'm sorry that so much abt family is happening on u now and i cant offer any real help other than all the stupid cheer ups. fuck it. i'm really sorry ok but i want you to know if u ever need me i'll always be here for you. and it wont be better for me to go find someone else. for me its you. dont be upset i love ur chio smile (: pls cheer up ok. sigh i'm such a fucked up loser. i cant even help u. believe me i really wish i could. i really fucking wish i could. but i guess u dun need me to help you? i dunno haha. but if u need me i'm here and i love you. (:
coool its 11.36 now and i'm abt to finish this entry and start a MATH WS. great way to sign off. math-the-fucking-ws. oh well. i'll go do.
haha i dunno wats this entry abt as well it made me feel much better to show my appreciation a bit more prominently. i used to emphasise appreciation so much. ironically it turns out i havent been showing much of it to a lot of ppl. just want to do it now.
and if i dun make it. know that. i loved you all along.
just like sunny days thats. we ignore because
we're all dumb and jaded.
i just want to be able to say wif pride for once the fucking hell once that i loved all of u all along. its just a pity perhaps i worried the sunny days away. ignored them. maybe i shud have enjoyed the sunny days more while it lasted. yes i m dumb and jaded (jaded means tired or something btw) very dumb. and very fucking jaded. hell. this sucks. its just regret now that i know i ignored a lot of sunny days. i just wished i appreciated more.
want you all to know i love all of you. mum dad leng xuan cheeim gu ma gu zhang cousins. i dun show my family enough love i guess. they'll never fucking read this and if they do i m dead (: but if i do i'll probably alr be ahahahaha. sigh. i love you all ok i dun show it i dun dare to cos i m liddat by nature i m shy i dunno if its the society but i found it embarassing to display exagerrated affection and concern for u all. i really dunno how the else to fucking express it. i dun think this entry is enuf to make up for the loss times. but i hope u all know i loved you all along.
to my frens hahahaha. where the fucking hell on alderom would i be without you all. thnx for al lthe encouragement i love u all too. esp will. where the hell would i be without him omg. thank you will. thank you so much. thank you ALL so much.
just thot i shud show appreciation a bit more.
its been a long entry i shud get on wif my work yay. everything's fine hahaha.
yep. i shall fuck off now.
goodnightgoodbyeppl
our lady peace
I walked around my good intentions
And found that there were none
I blame my father for the wasted years
We hardly talked
I never thought I would forget this hate
Then a phone call made me realize I'm wrong
And If I don't make it known that
I've loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to God I figure out
what's wrong
I walked around my room
Not thinking
Just sinking in this box
I blame myself for being too much
Like somebody else
I never thought I would just
Bend this way
Then a phone call made me realize I'm wrong
And If I don't make it known that
I've loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to God I figure out
what's wrong
And I hope to God I figure out
what's wrong
Hope to God I figure out
I hope to God I figure out
what's wrong
If I don't make it known that
I've loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to God I figure out
what's wrong
And If I don't make it known that
I've loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to God I figure out
hello.
its a nice song.
uh huh.
i've got some stuffs to say today. yay.
dad. why are u coughing so much nowadays. and stop skipping meals its fucking bad. and stop sleeping so late. force us to take public transport la u. always put urself before us one. sigh. shud pamper and takecare of urself more ok. and ur that cough. make sure its well taken care of.
hi mum. hahaha ah bu ar. wah si lin eh kia. ai kah li kong way. hahaha. pls dun always get urself so stressed by leng and xuan. u know young children damn unruly one. dont get urself worked up. dad always said theres a choice. pls mum dun stress too much ok. and u must take care of urself also haha dun let the stress get to you ok!
leng. u never gonna read this cos u dunno my blog :P haha yes. when i grow out of harrypotter books it'll all be urs and xuan's alr. i know u very extra at times and i very bad to u at times also la haha. but u must learn not to be so ba dao also you. not just be nice to frens and not to family ok. must treat ur family better. time cannot go back one. enjoy ur p sch years haha and take care yay.
xuan. ur eng sucks u cant read this but u must work hard. dont always get mad at mum cos of some small shit. and dont always think abt playing. yes shud enjoy p sch years but for the long run u must work up too. brush up on ur studies ok. and u can have all my gameboy stuffs la haha. must grow up to be guai ok. dont throw tantrum at everything. must be good to dad and mum hahaha.
my cousins! on my aunts side lol. hello. always there to listen haha. tho i dun confide much >< sorry. but i know u ppl always there haha being adults and all. u helped bridge the gap between me and my parents a lot of times. thnx ok
GU MA! hahaha omg i love you. took care of me so long ur like my second mother. i love you a lot ok. i'm sooo sorry i couldnt have called more. hope u did know i tried to converse as much as possible when we're together. i know u miss ah ma a lot. so do i. i just wished i showed appreciation earlier.. yet i m only showing appreciation now. fuck. haha gu ma thnx a damn lot for bringing me up like ur own child during younger years i'll never forget you ok. i love you and i will call more in the future ok.
gu zhang. haha ur never ever gonna read this but oh well. its pretty sad all thats happened. think u shudda been more considerate and caring to the family u know. not always just splurging money at once sigh. maybe if ppl helped to guide u/educate u u would have done planning and things would have turned out fine.. but things turned out this wayt and its all happened before i know it. i'm sorry for it too. i know u love me, leng and xuan, even chee im too. i know that. how many times we stayed over and u'd buy us supper (against gu ma ;)) i know i know u love us too. in ur own way ok. just dun be to omaterialistic and short tempered at times ok! i still remember u bought me this statuette of a young boy in a jacket. told me i'm gonna be like him. go over seas and all. haha i'll try my best to do that la. but cannot also boh bian la ok. i know u love us in ur own special way just hope ur fine on watever u are on now ok.
ah ma. u no longer here alr. we all miss u a damn freaking lot ok. i regret being so young then i dint show appreciation to u now i realised its too fuckign late. i'm sorry for any disrespect and rudeness and anger ok i'm really sorry and i love you too hope ur well up there.
maternal ah ma. i love you too. u always care so much for me! last time everytime i went over u made ginseng for me to drink! dunno for how many fuckign times ok. its sad i dunno how to speak teochew or i'll tell u how much i love you and ah gong ok. really thanks for caring so much for us even though we rarely saw u (esp now we're so fucking bz) i hope u know i cared and pls take care of urself and ah gong ok. love you.
WILL ZHANG CHEN. haha phone call jsut ended yay. dunno if u'd expect me to be here. dunno why the fuck the last thing i'll be doing tonight is my stupid math ws. great grand ending hur. fuck it. damn ji bai. oh well. hahaha u nice prefect. shit today shud have let u book me for playing soccer in sch u. i shudda let u book me man. why dint i. oh well. anyways u were always the one that cared ok u were always fucking there.i'm not gay (like you :D) but i love you ok and thnx for every single thing. according to u u dint do much. but u cared. thats all the shit in the world. thnx a fuckload i wonder if i could find better frens. thanks for every fucking thing u ever did.
tom. yay hahaha monitor u guai kia. wish u luck on wdv ur doing ;) hahaha thnx for being there also. always when i needed a sensible and mature voice to fuck me awake u could be counted on. thnx a shit load ok.
chelsia! hahaha buddy thnx a shit load for always being there as well ok. its really great to have someone there ready to hear u out on all the stupid little matters (: to hear me whine ahahahaha. sigh. hope u um think stuffs first before making decisions! :D hahahaha yea dun ever live fast like me. u end up dying young. lalala. dun always sigh ok there are things in the world to smile abt. yeaps. thnx a damn lot of being there for me ok! esp abt not giving up part :D i'm not giving up on anythign now.. just want to show some appreciation. again. thnx a lot ok buddy (:
cool (interlude) will just smsed me.
you are not useless ok. listening is the first thing a good fren needs to do. and thats somethign u've done very well. to listen. i talk shit. all that ever comes out of my mouth is shit. but u listened. thats all. thnx a lot ok. thnx a lot just for that. and i wonder how much i would have to thank you for everythign else :D hahaha u tree trunk ar. poof i then dun want to sit on u i not gay. hahaha. well a tree trunk is not useless. its wat a traveller will need for resting when his tired on his long journey. and thats a significant role to be played. thnx a fuck load ok.
andy! hahaha at one point we werent talkign much lol. ur fun to talk to haha nice guy and all lol. hope all is well yay :D hahahaha nope i'll still be insisting to u its the truth that i'm a loser hahaha yea i'm a fuckfaced loser ok. its not abt self confidence its abt facts and all that haha. anyways thnx for being there to hear stuff out ok. thnx haha
cool (interlude 2) will the omgwtf bestest guy on earth just smsed again.
he is the best fren i could ever have fucking had ok. u see now thats his always fucking there? his phonelines always open to a call from me. hsi fingers unrestricted on the messages of encouragement he sends to me. i dunnno wat to fucking say. it ended wif please hiok. damnit dun plead wif me. -.- why would anyone plead me. thats a lowly thing to do ur pleading someone like me. thats like wtf. dun plead me will. i'll be on the road dun worry. as i've said i'll be in sch tmr ok dun worry. i'm probably just talking cock again but right now i couldnt care less. thnx a fuckload for all the encouragement and being there ok
(interlude3)
yay will smsed again. his mad la. hsi a fucking nice guy. i shud let him book me more often. lol. he tells me i'm not alone hahaha he says ppl go thru diff shits haha but i'm not alone. truetrue. we all bleed the same way as you do. it hurts it hurts no matter wat kinda shit we all go thru. to all the ppl out there heyowatsup hahaha. i know i'm not alone cos i've got will. fuck u will why are u so nice to me i'm probably not worth it i'm one guy full of shit. thnx thnx thnx a damn lot ok.
to merrill. ahahahahaha. um..? (: thnx for adding fun in my life lol. it was fun being freaky :D ah but u know me. go get ur lina lol -.-
kevinlim. lol. lamparzi. hahahaha. closest frens from p sch. and still quite clsoe till now :D hahahaha. sigh ur someone to talk to as well lol. thnx for everything ok.
had all the fun crapping times together :D
gabriel ng. someone to talk to as well. not to mention serious talks as well as horny and joke around :DDD thnx a lot gabriel ng haha. i rmr last year i asked u wat would u do if i died. u said u'd cry and put flowers on my grave and the world would be a less betetr place? hahaha. it will be a better place. and dont cry haha tears are precious to keep ur eyeballsssss rolling lol. flowers hmmm. i dun want real ones if u could draw some that'd be nice :D thnx a lot for being there ok (:
to all my other frens. sorry i cant name all of u here it'll take up too much a space haha. sorry sorry >< but i want u to know as well thnx for everythign ok. being there for me time to time. thnx a lot (: wish all of u well and take care as well :D thnx!
to you (: ur not online ur not gonna read this i dunno if ur even gonna last all the way here to read this ok. tonight u had a bad night too. do cheer up ok. thnx as well cos i know at times u wanna hear me out too (: thnx a lot for that ok (: but tonight u had a long night. i'm really sorry i cant always be there for u most of the fucking time i'm here mumbling cheer up dun be sad etcetc i'm really sorry most of the time its beyond my limit to do anythign more i'm really fucking sorry. i'm sorry that so much abt family is happening on u now and i cant offer any real help other than all the stupid cheer ups. fuck it. i'm really sorry ok but i want you to know if u ever need me i'll always be here for you. and it wont be better for me to go find someone else. for me its you. dont be upset i love ur chio smile (: pls cheer up ok. sigh i'm such a fucked up loser. i cant even help u. believe me i really wish i could. i really fucking wish i could. but i guess u dun need me to help you? i dunno haha. but if u need me i'm here and i love you. (:
coool its 11.36 now and i'm abt to finish this entry and start a MATH WS. great way to sign off. math-the-fucking-ws. oh well. i'll go do.
haha i dunno wats this entry abt as well it made me feel much better to show my appreciation a bit more prominently. i used to emphasise appreciation so much. ironically it turns out i havent been showing much of it to a lot of ppl. just want to do it now.
and if i dun make it. know that. i loved you all along.
just like sunny days thats. we ignore because
we're all dumb and jaded.
i just want to be able to say wif pride for once the fucking hell once that i loved all of u all along. its just a pity perhaps i worried the sunny days away. ignored them. maybe i shud have enjoyed the sunny days more while it lasted. yes i m dumb and jaded (jaded means tired or something btw) very dumb. and very fucking jaded. hell. this sucks. its just regret now that i know i ignored a lot of sunny days. i just wished i appreciated more.
want you all to know i love all of you. mum dad leng xuan cheeim gu ma gu zhang cousins. i dun show my family enough love i guess. they'll never fucking read this and if they do i m dead (: but if i do i'll probably alr be ahahahaha. sigh. i love you all ok i dun show it i dun dare to cos i m liddat by nature i m shy i dunno if its the society but i found it embarassing to display exagerrated affection and concern for u all. i really dunno how the else to fucking express it. i dun think this entry is enuf to make up for the loss times. but i hope u all know i loved you all along.
to my frens hahahaha. where the fucking hell on alderom would i be without you all. thnx for al lthe encouragement i love u all too. esp will. where the hell would i be without him omg. thank you will. thank you so much. thank you ALL so much.
just thot i shud show appreciation a bit more.
its been a long entry i shud get on wif my work yay. everything's fine hahaha.
yep. i shall fuck off now.
goodnightgoodbyeppl
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
hiokhong
is the stupidest insenstive motherfucking loser ever.
thankyou.
and if i dont make it. know that. i loved you all along.
is the stupidest insenstive motherfucking loser ever.
thankyou.
and if i dont make it. know that. i loved you all along.
'and if i dont make it. know that.
loved you all along
just like sunny days that. we ignore
because we're all dumb and jaded
and i hope to God i'll figure out wat's wrong'
4 am - our lady peace
loved you all along
just like sunny days that. we ignore
because we're all dumb and jaded
and i hope to God i'll figure out wat's wrong'
4 am - our lady peace
Somewhere Out There
Our Lady Peace
Last time I talked to you,
you were lonely and out of place.
You were looking down on me,
lost out in space.
Laid underneath the stars,
strung out and feeling brave.
Watch the red orange glow,
watch them float away.
Down here in the atmosphere,
garbage and city lights,
you gotta save your tired soul,
you gotta save our lives.
Turn on the radio,
to find you on satellite,
I'm waiting for the sky to fall,
I'm waiting for a sign.
All we are is all so far.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
Hope you remember me,
when you're homesick and need a change.
I miss your purple hair,
I miss the way you taste.
I know you'll come back someday,
on a bed of nails I wait.
I'm praying that you don't burn out,
or fade away.
All we are is all so far
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there, oh.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling back to me.
Well I know,
I know.
You're falling out of reach.
Our Lady Peace
Last time I talked to you,
you were lonely and out of place.
You were looking down on me,
lost out in space.
Laid underneath the stars,
strung out and feeling brave.
Watch the red orange glow,
watch them float away.
Down here in the atmosphere,
garbage and city lights,
you gotta save your tired soul,
you gotta save our lives.
Turn on the radio,
to find you on satellite,
I'm waiting for the sky to fall,
I'm waiting for a sign.
All we are is all so far.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
Hope you remember me,
when you're homesick and need a change.
I miss your purple hair,
I miss the way you taste.
I know you'll come back someday,
on a bed of nails I wait.
I'm praying that you don't burn out,
or fade away.
All we are is all so far
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there, oh.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling back to me.
Well I know,
I know.
You're falling out of reach.
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
nope. i'm not pissed. i just have this simple simple question in my (jealousy fillin up a) fucked up mind.
why.
but the world's a subway. subwayy.
why.
but the world's a subway. subwayy.
Monday, August 08, 2005
stop detaching my glucose drop
(this is not a line from any OLP song)
(this is not a line from any OLP song)
today sucked. enough said.
our lady peace rocks. i'm under their influence now man. they're songs are freakin nice. the lead singer raine maida is damn pro can. his voice is freaking influential. i dunno any other voice that can affect ones mind so much. i must admit in recent songs (innocent, etc) his voice has become more mainstream. but the OLP songs from the 90s totally rocked ok. freaking nice. wikipedia described his voice as '"strange" and "paranoid"'.
very appropraite. i have never heard another more crazy and paranoid yet such influential voice. its wonderful.
'i'm not driven by fear i'm just. driven by anger.'
'and if i dont make it. know that. i loved you all along.'
'you're falling back to me. you're a star that i can see. i know you're out there, somewhere out there'
'hey. is anybody home. is anybody wasted tears on loneliness that everyone becomes when they're not alright'
'are you waking up slowly. nothing but lonely. are you waking up holding, holding your breath. and are you looking for something. i promised you one thing. i promised that i'll always, always be there.'
aaiiyyeee aiyeee aiyy.. yea. superman's dead.
T_T
our lady peace rocks. i'm under their influence now man. they're songs are freakin nice. the lead singer raine maida is damn pro can. his voice is freaking influential. i dunno any other voice that can affect ones mind so much. i must admit in recent songs (innocent, etc) his voice has become more mainstream. but the OLP songs from the 90s totally rocked ok. freaking nice. wikipedia described his voice as '"strange" and "paranoid"'.
very appropraite. i have never heard another more crazy and paranoid yet such influential voice. its wonderful.
'i'm not driven by fear i'm just. driven by anger.'
'and if i dont make it. know that. i loved you all along.'
'you're falling back to me. you're a star that i can see. i know you're out there, somewhere out there'
'hey. is anybody home. is anybody wasted tears on loneliness that everyone becomes when they're not alright'
'are you waking up slowly. nothing but lonely. are you waking up holding, holding your breath. and are you looking for something. i promised you one thing. i promised that i'll always, always be there.'
aaiiyyeee aiyeee aiyy.. yea. superman's dead.
T_T
Sunday, August 07, 2005
Is Anybody Home?
Our Lady Peace
Goodbye, the future's sold out
There's no use screaming
Who thought we'd ever get this far
Tonight, your faith has come down
To money & a TV
Psychics who've never been to Mars
And nazis breast feeding
I know you must be upset
I can't find meaning
I'm sorry, we're sorry
We're all scared, all scared
Hey, is anybody home
Has anybody wasted tears on
The loneliness
That everyone becomes
Goodnight, the truth has come out
Everyone's needy
White teeth, a ticket to meet God
Be all that you envy
The shotgun under your bed has
Started breathing
You shot it, you shot it
I'm bare, I'm bare
Hey, is anybody home
Has anybody painted fear
On the bedroom walls that save us from . . .
a damn nice song with nice lyrics. you shud go listen.
Our Lady Peace
Goodbye, the future's sold out
There's no use screaming
Who thought we'd ever get this far
Tonight, your faith has come down
To money & a TV
Psychics who've never been to Mars
And nazis breast feeding
I know you must be upset
I can't find meaning
I'm sorry, we're sorry
We're all scared, all scared
Hey, is anybody home
Has anybody wasted tears on
The loneliness
That everyone becomes
Goodnight, the truth has come out
Everyone's needy
White teeth, a ticket to meet God
Be all that you envy
The shotgun under your bed has
Started breathing
You shot it, you shot it
I'm bare, I'm bare
Hey, is anybody home
Has anybody painted fear
On the bedroom walls that save us from . . .
a damn nice song with nice lyrics. you shud go listen.
omg. the world has gone mad.
Saturday, August 06, 2005
if we u give enough
ifwe i learn to trust
if
sway - michael buble
When marimba rhythms start to play
Dance with me, make me sway
Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore
Hold me close, sway me more
Like a flower bending in the breeze
Bend with me, sway with ease
When we dance you have a way with me
Stay with me, sway with me
Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have that magic technique
When we sway I go weak
I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now
Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have that magic technique
When we sway I go weak
I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now
You know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now
nicenice song :D
baby make me sway xD
When marimba rhythms start to play
Dance with me, make me sway
Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore
Hold me close, sway me more
Like a flower bending in the breeze
Bend with me, sway with ease
When we dance you have a way with me
Stay with me, sway with me
Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have that magic technique
When we sway I go weak
I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now
Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have that magic technique
When we sway I go weak
I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now
You know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now
nicenice song :D
baby make me sway xD
Friday, August 05, 2005
haha eh sorry if ppl start thinking i'm depressed or feeling down or anythign ahahaha
cos i m not yay.
i'm just (very apparently) pissed at our fren here.
who seems to like to pick out ppl
whether in public
or in private
his not a dick
he's a DIIIIIIIIIICK.
hope its clear now yay
cos i m not yay.
i'm just (very apparently) pissed at our fren here.
who seems to like to pick out ppl
whether in public
or in private
his not a dick
he's a DIIIIIIIIIICK.
hope its clear now yay
lit lesson today! mov class production argh.
its damn knnbccb. at first some one was director. wif um apparently no approval from class. so YAY he was promtly removed woots. dint look that happy he did. esp not when he was reprimanded for falsely accusing seetow of wetting the teacher's console. pretty not smart of him. see tow was out of class the whole time during recess -.- so he got jacked la then he dint seem happy. then jape fell asleep and was to be woken up. and our director-not-to-be promptly walked over wif a menacing look in his eye and was abt to shook him when again. YAY he was jacked for 'crossing the boundaries'. woots.
i believe the reprimanding was not to its optimum but i think it was good. a sort of 'vibration alarm' to him.
to tell him if he's to fuck around wif us more this time he's gonna die.
after all, during hdc we knew of is and now we shall prevent it.
wats better is matthew is cast ic woots. this means if he fucks around more this time matthew can take charge yay.
anyways i volunteered for cast lol. but i know i most prob cant make it one haha i know myself i m lazy and i wont memorise my lines one :D wont mind being shylock xD was imitating in a darthvader voice today ahahahaha
anyways. this mov class production is gonna be damnn tedious man. and our class will be incharge of itself once again just like in hdc. but now that we have power in deciding whos to over look us. now that we know who should not be made to over look us. now that HE knows if he overlooks us he's gonna get more hell than hdc.
now that he's not in charge.
i believe this mov thing should go pretty well la. except if he decides not to cooperate.
sorry if this post sounds weird. i have enuf of his shit and i wont take it anymore.
all the cruel stuff he does. we choose not to feel it. but i can see it. see his every fucking move.
dont ask me wat i'm gonna do! i'll face it when it comes.
but i'm not gonna take his shit anymore.
YAY. (fuck you.)
its damn knnbccb. at first some one was director. wif um apparently no approval from class. so YAY he was promtly removed woots. dint look that happy he did. esp not when he was reprimanded for falsely accusing seetow of wetting the teacher's console. pretty not smart of him. see tow was out of class the whole time during recess -.- so he got jacked la then he dint seem happy. then jape fell asleep and was to be woken up. and our director-not-to-be promptly walked over wif a menacing look in his eye and was abt to shook him when again. YAY he was jacked for 'crossing the boundaries'. woots.
i believe the reprimanding was not to its optimum but i think it was good. a sort of 'vibration alarm' to him.
to tell him if he's to fuck around wif us more this time he's gonna die.
after all, during hdc we knew of is and now we shall prevent it.
wats better is matthew is cast ic woots. this means if he fucks around more this time matthew can take charge yay.
anyways i volunteered for cast lol. but i know i most prob cant make it one haha i know myself i m lazy and i wont memorise my lines one :D wont mind being shylock xD was imitating in a darthvader voice today ahahahaha
anyways. this mov class production is gonna be damnn tedious man. and our class will be incharge of itself once again just like in hdc. but now that we have power in deciding whos to over look us. now that we know who should not be made to over look us. now that HE knows if he overlooks us he's gonna get more hell than hdc.
now that he's not in charge.
i believe this mov thing should go pretty well la. except if he decides not to cooperate.
sorry if this post sounds weird. i have enuf of his shit and i wont take it anymore.
all the cruel stuff he does. we choose not to feel it. but i can see it. see his every fucking move.
dont ask me wat i'm gonna do! i'll face it when it comes.
but i'm not gonna take his shit anymore.
YAY. (fuck you.)
heyyyy buddy (: cheer up!
'hahaha yea so its like on my part, the guy shud never ever give up and always trust and give benefit of doubt. and on ur part the girl shud always remember that the guy is human too and always need love. they get pissed too and upset when they get jealous or when you ppl reply late for no apparent reason. and that they need love too. yep. if this two can go alongside and both can keep these in mind. its there alr (:'
hope u feel better :D cheeer up buddy (:
'hahaha yea so its like on my part, the guy shud never ever give up and always trust and give benefit of doubt. and on ur part the girl shud always remember that the guy is human too and always need love. they get pissed too and upset when they get jealous or when you ppl reply late for no apparent reason. and that they need love too. yep. if this two can go alongside and both can keep these in mind. its there alr (:'
hope u feel better :D cheeer up buddy (:
Monday, August 01, 2005
dr william tan's run. haha i stayed 24 hours lol
it was a great experience and i dint regret sacrificing so much time and energy for it.
btw i would like to say something haha on the first day i was running, then there were two girls who were also running. one of them said 'eh i think we're the only girls running' then the other said 'who cares!' ahaha think thats the spirit man. not being afraid to do something different. good job :D
so i came at 5 and met up wif will and tom and slau. slau slacked la never run much. then qian wei came so we all ran. ran wif qian wei for quite a bit. i ran too much at the start la then after abt 4 hours i started to cramp. served me right lor. i too lazy to stretch and i dint drink until after 2 hours of running hahahaha. saw loads of ppl. chairboy and chair girl came! haha everytime i see jon lim running i go to him oi. wheres ur chair girl. caught up wif her or not. (i shall kindly omit the last sentence.)
so yea. night came. went for dinner at macs and then zong and seetow came. at macs they were gay la. they were like. shouting at each other. ZHI. SEETOW. ZHI. SEETOW. lols. ate then walked back. passed guitar tix to andrea and co. then went back to run again. thru out the night it was fun la. night soccer, russell peters, tiankia prank calling evelyn till 2 or 3 am. everyone laffing like shit hahahahaha. then more night soccer and more running. and then 7 eleven ate again haha at 4 am.
night soccer is damn fun hahaha. i spoilt my shoes >< but hey i rainbowed the ball into hoop woots xD
then morning came. we were all at the stadium steps. tom, wang, will, paul tern, thomas heng, qian wei, carvin all got some sleep. i only slept for half an hour hahaha. i fell asleep after using tom's phone to sms (x (yes andrea that was me.)
came morning. ate breakfast. met up wif japheth at j8 and we walked back. from then pretty boring alr cos hot and tired then no one wants to run. so slack around for damn long. till around 9 liddat he gonna break record alr so we ran wif him hahaha. then slack again till 1230 when we need to assemble. damn hot the weather. slack and slack until we got to run. that was abt 2 alr i think haha.
was feeling pretty down like wtf. but the run from around 2 gave me something to think abt and something to learn from.
dr tan he dared to stand out form the crowd and be different. and he never gave up on wat he wanted. if he wanted to do something (the marathons and this 24 hour thing) he went for it all the way, not giving up, and not deterred by the hot weather, the lack of sleep or the lethargy. he went on and on.
i dunno if it was the hot weather or my lack of sleep but at around 1 pm liddat i was feeling pretty shitty abt stuffs. tired and all that i dint really want to run alr.
but down at the track i forced myself on. i was feeling hot and cold at the same time and i thought i was really gonna just collapse. my throat was dry from the panting. couldnt even swallow my saliva. exhausted and near cramping again. feet had two huge blisters. i dint want to run alr i wanted to walk. or just sit down and slack.
then i decided nah. i'll push myself a little bit more. and little did i know from this period of the run i gained something.
well. if i really wanted something i should never give up on it. never ever. i should dare to stand out from the crowd. dare to be different. and i should never ever give up. the sun maybe blistering hot. i may alr have been exhausted from the runs yesterday and the lack of sleep. my body may feel cold all over. my throat may be dry like shit. but these are just bumps on the road.
sometimes these bumps are really really bad. very deterring. sure because thigns point the other way you can feel upset. i sure felt like shit at around 1 pm yesterday. i sure felt very shitty. but if wat u believe in is true, u shud never give up. not even the thought of that. and the run made me think this way.
as i ran and ran, with all my frens alongside me. some ran along wif me. this told me that in life, you will always have frens and they will be there for you. sometimes they are tired too in their run, and you should stop and slow down wif them, be there for them too. that happened in my run too. then when you urself are tired, tired of pushing urself on, some frens are there to give u the push. (HEY BRANDON. thnx this is for u. for pushing me on when i had the flag wif me. thnx) yeap. when u cant push ur self anymore ur frens are there to do it for you. then when ur frens really lag behind and just want a rest. its ok. u can still run on. sometimes ppl need to be alone when they are all tired. leaving them behind doesnt mean ur abandoning them. just means sometimes just let things go and let ur fren and urself chill abit. during some bits of my run i did slow to a walk. sounds very not-fighting-spirit hur. hahaha but no. tells u that in life, u cant just keep running. ur still human too. u need rests too. just like ur frens are sometimes tired and they need a break too. needing a rest is not neccesarily a bad thing. it just means ur saving energy for later on :D of course when i stopped a while wif the flag, some groups of fuckers were behind making snide remarks like. enthu. carry flag cannot walk. but i heck them hahaha. shows that there are jerks in life too and u just have to ignore them. my sweat was blinding and blurring my eyesight by clouding my glasses. just shows that ur sweat and tears in life are inevitable, and sometimes they blind you up, making u unable to see wats ahead of you. u've gotta wipe them away and continue on to run. small instances of upset should not prevent you from continueing and not giving up. :D and oh yea i carried the flag to run hahaha. got it from sarun. wanted to do it since the day before alr hahaha. when u want to do something u must dare to be different in order to make it happen! if u just keep thinking abt it and not making any action. dreams will never ever come true.
my last round for that period i decided not to stop at all. practically sprinted the whole of that round. decided that if i'm determined i should carry on, no matter how tired. if i m convinced and determine to want somethign to happen. i cannot give up.
of course after i ran i was shagged like shit la hahaha. after my that round i sat the mr lim's booth there hahaha. was just looking at the track. at ppl running. and i kept thinking. running. last time i kept associating running wif running away. in fact sometimes i myself ran away. running in this sense was bad. running away is bad. but what abt running itself? izzit bad? NO. running is just the way ur gonna get to wat u want to get to. u run and run, and ur not there yet. but u must continue on and on till u get to wat u want to get to. not give up. running is good. its the way ur gonna get to wat u wanna get to.
and yah after my run i saw my baby also la xD
haha ok. mmhmm. i did not waste precious homework time there that day. i learnt something abt life there at the run.
thnx to my special buddy xD hahaha was really feeling upset and u helped me thru it loads ok (: that sms abt not giving up if i believe in it :D thnx a lot a lot. kept thinking abt that and during the run i kept thinking and i finally thought it thru. i believe in that i have hope in that and i want it to be all well and i want it to be great. i want it to be the way it was again. and i aint gonna be able to make it that way by grumbling and being upset abt it. i can make it back to the way it was if i just gave more understanding and if i never ever ever gave up on it (: this run and ur sms hahaha helped me a damn lot ok buddy (: THNX YAH :D
wanna say thank you to dr tan. very inspiring 24 hour marathon. and u never giving up inspired me. sure u took rests. but rests are essential in having energy for later on :D so yea thnx dr tan. and thnx to all my frens for always being there for me, pushing me on wif encouragement and listening ears. thnx to THAT SPECIAL BUDDY xD helped me thru a lot you! always wanting to listen and trying to help (: thnx! and thnx baby for being there wif me always and <333ing me (x
yupyups. thought it damn thru. if i want something.i will have to work towards it. i may encounter lots of deterrance a long the way. lots of bumps. lots of sweat and tears. but if i really want it. i will have to go all the way and never ever ever give up.
and i want something. no actually i want something to stay the way it is :D and i shall never ever. NEVER EVER give up! (x yea baby. we're gonna stay the way we are. no we're gonna stay BETTER than we are now wif each coming day. and i'm gonna make it happen by not giving up :D
gonna start on my homework now )))x but i want to finish it today and i aint giving up :D
see y'all later :D
it was a great experience and i dint regret sacrificing so much time and energy for it.
btw i would like to say something haha on the first day i was running, then there were two girls who were also running. one of them said 'eh i think we're the only girls running' then the other said 'who cares!' ahaha think thats the spirit man. not being afraid to do something different. good job :D
so i came at 5 and met up wif will and tom and slau. slau slacked la never run much. then qian wei came so we all ran. ran wif qian wei for quite a bit. i ran too much at the start la then after abt 4 hours i started to cramp. served me right lor. i too lazy to stretch and i dint drink until after 2 hours of running hahahaha. saw loads of ppl. chairboy and chair girl came! haha everytime i see jon lim running i go to him oi. wheres ur chair girl. caught up wif her or not. (i shall kindly omit the last sentence.)
so yea. night came. went for dinner at macs and then zong and seetow came. at macs they were gay la. they were like. shouting at each other. ZHI. SEETOW. ZHI. SEETOW. lols. ate then walked back. passed guitar tix to andrea and co. then went back to run again. thru out the night it was fun la. night soccer, russell peters, tiankia prank calling evelyn till 2 or 3 am. everyone laffing like shit hahahahaha. then more night soccer and more running. and then 7 eleven ate again haha at 4 am.
night soccer is damn fun hahaha. i spoilt my shoes >< but hey i rainbowed the ball into hoop woots xD
then morning came. we were all at the stadium steps. tom, wang, will, paul tern, thomas heng, qian wei, carvin all got some sleep. i only slept for half an hour hahaha. i fell asleep after using tom's phone to sms (x (yes andrea that was me.)
came morning. ate breakfast. met up wif japheth at j8 and we walked back. from then pretty boring alr cos hot and tired then no one wants to run. so slack around for damn long. till around 9 liddat he gonna break record alr so we ran wif him hahaha. then slack again till 1230 when we need to assemble. damn hot the weather. slack and slack until we got to run. that was abt 2 alr i think haha.
was feeling pretty down like wtf. but the run from around 2 gave me something to think abt and something to learn from.
dr tan he dared to stand out form the crowd and be different. and he never gave up on wat he wanted. if he wanted to do something (the marathons and this 24 hour thing) he went for it all the way, not giving up, and not deterred by the hot weather, the lack of sleep or the lethargy. he went on and on.
i dunno if it was the hot weather or my lack of sleep but at around 1 pm liddat i was feeling pretty shitty abt stuffs. tired and all that i dint really want to run alr.
but down at the track i forced myself on. i was feeling hot and cold at the same time and i thought i was really gonna just collapse. my throat was dry from the panting. couldnt even swallow my saliva. exhausted and near cramping again. feet had two huge blisters. i dint want to run alr i wanted to walk. or just sit down and slack.
then i decided nah. i'll push myself a little bit more. and little did i know from this period of the run i gained something.
well. if i really wanted something i should never give up on it. never ever. i should dare to stand out from the crowd. dare to be different. and i should never ever give up. the sun maybe blistering hot. i may alr have been exhausted from the runs yesterday and the lack of sleep. my body may feel cold all over. my throat may be dry like shit. but these are just bumps on the road.
sometimes these bumps are really really bad. very deterring. sure because thigns point the other way you can feel upset. i sure felt like shit at around 1 pm yesterday. i sure felt very shitty. but if wat u believe in is true, u shud never give up. not even the thought of that. and the run made me think this way.
as i ran and ran, with all my frens alongside me. some ran along wif me. this told me that in life, you will always have frens and they will be there for you. sometimes they are tired too in their run, and you should stop and slow down wif them, be there for them too. that happened in my run too. then when you urself are tired, tired of pushing urself on, some frens are there to give u the push. (HEY BRANDON. thnx this is for u. for pushing me on when i had the flag wif me. thnx) yeap. when u cant push ur self anymore ur frens are there to do it for you. then when ur frens really lag behind and just want a rest. its ok. u can still run on. sometimes ppl need to be alone when they are all tired. leaving them behind doesnt mean ur abandoning them. just means sometimes just let things go and let ur fren and urself chill abit. during some bits of my run i did slow to a walk. sounds very not-fighting-spirit hur. hahaha but no. tells u that in life, u cant just keep running. ur still human too. u need rests too. just like ur frens are sometimes tired and they need a break too. needing a rest is not neccesarily a bad thing. it just means ur saving energy for later on :D of course when i stopped a while wif the flag, some groups of fuckers were behind making snide remarks like. enthu. carry flag cannot walk. but i heck them hahaha. shows that there are jerks in life too and u just have to ignore them. my sweat was blinding and blurring my eyesight by clouding my glasses. just shows that ur sweat and tears in life are inevitable, and sometimes they blind you up, making u unable to see wats ahead of you. u've gotta wipe them away and continue on to run. small instances of upset should not prevent you from continueing and not giving up. :D and oh yea i carried the flag to run hahaha. got it from sarun. wanted to do it since the day before alr hahaha. when u want to do something u must dare to be different in order to make it happen! if u just keep thinking abt it and not making any action. dreams will never ever come true.
my last round for that period i decided not to stop at all. practically sprinted the whole of that round. decided that if i'm determined i should carry on, no matter how tired. if i m convinced and determine to want somethign to happen. i cannot give up.
of course after i ran i was shagged like shit la hahaha. after my that round i sat the mr lim's booth there hahaha. was just looking at the track. at ppl running. and i kept thinking. running. last time i kept associating running wif running away. in fact sometimes i myself ran away. running in this sense was bad. running away is bad. but what abt running itself? izzit bad? NO. running is just the way ur gonna get to wat u want to get to. u run and run, and ur not there yet. but u must continue on and on till u get to wat u want to get to. not give up. running is good. its the way ur gonna get to wat u wanna get to.
and yah after my run i saw my baby also la xD
haha ok. mmhmm. i did not waste precious homework time there that day. i learnt something abt life there at the run.
thnx to my special buddy xD hahaha was really feeling upset and u helped me thru it loads ok (: that sms abt not giving up if i believe in it :D thnx a lot a lot. kept thinking abt that and during the run i kept thinking and i finally thought it thru. i believe in that i have hope in that and i want it to be all well and i want it to be great. i want it to be the way it was again. and i aint gonna be able to make it that way by grumbling and being upset abt it. i can make it back to the way it was if i just gave more understanding and if i never ever ever gave up on it (: this run and ur sms hahaha helped me a damn lot ok buddy (: THNX YAH :D
wanna say thank you to dr tan. very inspiring 24 hour marathon. and u never giving up inspired me. sure u took rests. but rests are essential in having energy for later on :D so yea thnx dr tan. and thnx to all my frens for always being there for me, pushing me on wif encouragement and listening ears. thnx to THAT SPECIAL BUDDY xD helped me thru a lot you! always wanting to listen and trying to help (: thnx! and thnx baby for being there wif me always and <333ing me (x
yupyups. thought it damn thru. if i want something.i will have to work towards it. i may encounter lots of deterrance a long the way. lots of bumps. lots of sweat and tears. but if i really want it. i will have to go all the way and never ever ever give up.
and i want something. no actually i want something to stay the way it is :D and i shall never ever. NEVER EVER give up! (x yea baby. we're gonna stay the way we are. no we're gonna stay BETTER than we are now wif each coming day. and i'm gonna make it happen by not giving up :D
gonna start on my homework now )))x but i want to finish it today and i aint giving up :D
see y'all later :D