Thursday, August 31, 2006
how do you smile at others when you've seen what they've done?
nbcb la i'm damn tired..
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
you know it feels just like. that p2 classmate of yours who looks like ne never bathes and wears the same dirty clothes everyday, his pencil case and bag are all black and dirty. he never hands in muchof his work, or otherwise has his worksheets in a mess, complete with messy handwriting. his hair looks like it has never been washed and his specs have water/sweat stains on the glass, for eternity.
yah. my life feels like that right now. thats the best, and it is a very accurate, way i can describe it. it feels like that poor unkempt slightly obese p2 classmate of ours. he didnt care much. and right now i cant be bothered to care much either. i'll let things continually be like him liddat. haha. sticky and slightly sweaty. many things, not just having a loose end to it, just have that feel to it right now. haha dont care. wrapping up that feeling is the tiredness i feel now.
spent the whole day at choon's house xboxing with the guys. been almost a year since i played xbox lan haha, much less halo 2. still no good at most battle weapons. had to recover form for sniping. swords was ok, had peaks and downs. sniping was great haha. still bu cuo, like the crazy 7 plus headshot spree hahahahaha. nick is jealous :D he jealous until he keep hunting me la lol.
ah. a day with the guys. haha. and these guys rock. i dont think we sms girls much or anyth haha. esp not when we play and we spend time having fun with each other lol. no one whips out their phone to sms. mainly to call parents haha. was a great day, back to the days where we spent hours at xsquare dhobyghaut having me and choon vs the rest slayer shit haha. long time since i played man omg. great spending time with guys hahahaha, esp these guys.like how random ajay is and how we all talk a whole lot of bullshit and cant stop laughing.. like the family tree and the chest with the thick book that floated down the river (yes we dunno why it dint sink..).
haha. but when i come home eyes all tired and exhausted and in need of a shower haha.. the tired part. its crazy.. lol. i also dunno how to describe what i'm feeling now.. haha. wow. today was one day without you.
yah. my life feels like that right now. thats the best, and it is a very accurate, way i can describe it. it feels like that poor unkempt slightly obese p2 classmate of ours. he didnt care much. and right now i cant be bothered to care much either. i'll let things continually be like him liddat. haha. sticky and slightly sweaty. many things, not just having a loose end to it, just have that feel to it right now. haha dont care. wrapping up that feeling is the tiredness i feel now.
spent the whole day at choon's house xboxing with the guys. been almost a year since i played xbox lan haha, much less halo 2. still no good at most battle weapons. had to recover form for sniping. swords was ok, had peaks and downs. sniping was great haha. still bu cuo, like the crazy 7 plus headshot spree hahahahaha. nick is jealous :D he jealous until he keep hunting me la lol.
ah. a day with the guys. haha. and these guys rock. i dont think we sms girls much or anyth haha. esp not when we play and we spend time having fun with each other lol. no one whips out their phone to sms. mainly to call parents haha. was a great day, back to the days where we spent hours at xsquare dhobyghaut having me and choon vs the rest slayer shit haha. long time since i played man omg. great spending time with guys hahahaha, esp these guys.like how random ajay is and how we all talk a whole lot of bullshit and cant stop laughing.. like the family tree and the chest with the thick book that floated down the river (yes we dunno why it dint sink..).
haha. but when i come home eyes all tired and exhausted and in need of a shower haha.. the tired part. its crazy.. lol. i also dunno how to describe what i'm feeling now.. haha. wow. today was one day without you.
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
HEIRS TO THIS FUCKING WORLD FAIL. FUCK HUMANITY.
Monday, August 28, 2006
flowers dont last! what do?
yea. the flowers all dying alr. ku1 wei3. zz.
tmr i only have cle. but i shall go anw cos i am a NICE GUAI LITTLE BOY WHO WONT PON ANYTH.
i think i wont be ponning.. :/
anw. zz. bi4 sheng4! i must do my part of the chem asss by today! >: (
yea. the flowers all dying alr. ku1 wei3. zz.
tmr i only have cle. but i shall go anw cos i am a NICE GUAI LITTLE BOY WHO WONT PON ANYTH.
i think i wont be ponning.. :/
anw. zz. bi4 sheng4! i must do my part of the chem asss by today! >: (
Sunday, August 27, 2006
haha i watched one hour photo ytd after my name is earl! its a super nice thriller haha..and robin williams is brilliant as that old man.. proness, he evoke hate, irritation, and a lot more emotions in ppl. most of all he evokes pity. plays his role uber well ><.
well its a story with a typical ending but with such a nice and weird, yet subtle twist to the end ofthe show.. you guys should watch this thriller man. its nice haha..
anw the show, as you can tell from the title, is about photographs. haha rly reminds me of the poem snapshot land haha.
i think photographs are intricate stuff. srsly. haha. photographs stop time. ppl who take the photographs 'are trying to make a statement to the people in the future. they want to say "hey i was here, i existed. and someone cared enough for me to take a photograph of me".'
everyone is happy in snapshot land. no one wants to take a photo of their sad moments. they take photos of their happy times and when ppl see your photos, they think wow what a joyous life we've led.
everyone is happy in snapshot land. you must cherish the photos you like. no one takes photos abt stuff they hate. abt stuff they want to forget. you take photos because you want to remember. and you want to be remembered.
and everyone is happy in snapshot land.
well its a story with a typical ending but with such a nice and weird, yet subtle twist to the end ofthe show.. you guys should watch this thriller man. its nice haha..
anw the show, as you can tell from the title, is about photographs. haha rly reminds me of the poem snapshot land haha.
i think photographs are intricate stuff. srsly. haha. photographs stop time. ppl who take the photographs 'are trying to make a statement to the people in the future. they want to say "hey i was here, i existed. and someone cared enough for me to take a photograph of me".'
everyone is happy in snapshot land. no one wants to take a photo of their sad moments. they take photos of their happy times and when ppl see your photos, they think wow what a joyous life we've led.
everyone is happy in snapshot land. you must cherish the photos you like. no one takes photos abt stuff they hate. abt stuff they want to forget. you take photos because you want to remember. and you want to be remembered.
and everyone is happy in snapshot land.
Saturday, August 26, 2006
today i woke up frownie haha.
and i woke up damn late too. 1.35. well. i reached home v late ytd. bythe time i finished bathing abt 2 alr.ate cup noodles, tried to watch south park yes i reaking waited it to load. some how the next thing i knew my dad woke me up from my bed to take off specs.
and i was like. shit shit i havent pack bag for tmr!
oh wait theres no sch tmr.
i shut down the compwithout watching south park (on second thoughts it might have made me laugh..) and i went to sleep. till now.
i dun need to pract piano alr. i eating lunch now. music is at 3. (Y). nbcbfk. the ikan bilis quite nice haha.
i just suddenly rmred talking to the sad sunflower ytd while walking from pac to ri. -.-
shit la. lol. this week quite nice la. my life now also quite nice la.
and i woke up damn late too. 1.35. well. i reached home v late ytd. bythe time i finished bathing abt 2 alr.ate cup noodles, tried to watch south park yes i reaking waited it to load. some how the next thing i knew my dad woke me up from my bed to take off specs.
and i was like. shit shit i havent pack bag for tmr!
oh wait theres no sch tmr.
i shut down the compwithout watching south park (on second thoughts it might have made me laugh..) and i went to sleep. till now.
i dun need to pract piano alr. i eating lunch now. music is at 3. (Y). nbcbfk. the ikan bilis quite nice haha.
i just suddenly rmred talking to the sad sunflower ytd while walking from pac to ri. -.-
shit la. lol. this week quite nice la. my life now also quite nice la.
concert was ok la. in fact it was quite good, despite so many diff slip ups here and there. i not very happy with myself for hc elec solo.. i nervous then screw up. i could have been confident then i do better haha.
band was ok la haha. except slither rushed! but it was ok lol. i guess? o.O
i wonder if ppl got take vids/pics of the concert. because i confirm want. esp vid. i need to see >< hahahaha pls pls anyone have anyth at all PLS send me!
i have a lot of reason to be happy today one la. srsly. i have a damn lot of reason to be happy today one. haha but i come back all the way is chui tou and knitted brows. i look like the sun flower vinna gave la. no sun, then the headdroop like mad dowan to tai qi tou lai. i wish got sunshine.
i donno, maybe i dint tend too much to the reasons to be happy, but more trying to make the sad things right/think abt the sad things? i dunno haha. i guess i shud have concentrated more on the reasons to be happy. i srsly donno why i feel that strongly abt something rather small lol. the uncertainty of it is killing me haha.
some days are good, some days are bad. so izzit good or bad? are we good or bad?
i think sometimes i really just need someone there for me to hug.
and let it hang there forever. i wished it was still the concert and we are all panicking now. good things never fucking last.
anw. i hope you guys rly enjoyed the concert! and pls tell me honestly how you found it! (via tag?)
band was ok la haha. except slither rushed! but it was ok lol. i guess? o.O
i wonder if ppl got take vids/pics of the concert. because i confirm want. esp vid. i need to see >< hahahaha pls pls anyone have anyth at all PLS send me!
i have a lot of reason to be happy today one la. srsly. i have a damn lot of reason to be happy today one. haha but i come back all the way is chui tou and knitted brows. i look like the sun flower vinna gave la. no sun, then the headdroop like mad dowan to tai qi tou lai. i wish got sunshine.
i donno, maybe i dint tend too much to the reasons to be happy, but more trying to make the sad things right/think abt the sad things? i dunno haha. i guess i shud have concentrated more on the reasons to be happy. i srsly donno why i feel that strongly abt something rather small lol. the uncertainty of it is killing me haha.
some days are good, some days are bad. so izzit good or bad? are we good or bad?
i think sometimes i really just need someone there for me to hug.
and let it hang there forever. i wished it was still the concert and we are all panicking now. good things never fucking last.
anw. i hope you guys rly enjoyed the concert! and pls tell me honestly how you found it! (via tag?)
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
fuck la.
Monday, August 21, 2006
be happy haha i'm taking time out to blog can..
i'm rly happy and excited for someone now hahahaha :D
today someone make me smile! :D
other than that it was a shit day. zz. i have re to chiong and math to chiong. (Y).
haha the rest goes into drafts. (Y).
i'm rly happy and excited for someone now hahahaha :D
today someone make me smile! :D
other than that it was a shit day. zz. i have re to chiong and math to chiong. (Y).
haha the rest goes into drafts. (Y).
Sunday, August 20, 2006
lol. shit i realise i forgot to blog last night nor this morn. zz.
so i slept at 3.30 last night lol. re presentation. haha. woke up at 11 this morn cos my mum wanted me to eat breakfast...
lol but hey. my parents bought macs for us k.. nice of them :D haha.
zz i'm very tired..... what did i want to blog abt. lol oh shit i cant rly rmr.
anw um. today, the most THE most tmr, must finish my part of math pt.. mon is pract tues is band prep wed is tts + pract.
omg. wed is tts... wtf. omg. i have NO LESSONS that day other than math in the afternoon. which means woot no lessons for me that day! but i go sch slightly earlier than usual la. oh well.
thurs is. omg -.- make up for physics then music. somemore the make up is at 4 la. wtf. i can go home come back pls.
fri is concert itself. zz.
i just recalled smth lol. everything u do is lame stupid illogical and uneccessary. and i decided i will no longer have pity for you. haha.
oh yea. ms wong told me stuff ytd for music. if i post here quite ego, but i think she's trying to encourage me. and i decided i will work hard for music now. sure, sch is something i'm studying for.
but so is music. so fuck sch.
yea. i'll do my best to play everyday.
so i slept at 3.30 last night lol. re presentation. haha. woke up at 11 this morn cos my mum wanted me to eat breakfast...
lol but hey. my parents bought macs for us k.. nice of them :D haha.
zz i'm very tired..... what did i want to blog abt. lol oh shit i cant rly rmr.
anw um. today, the most THE most tmr, must finish my part of math pt.. mon is pract tues is band prep wed is tts + pract.
omg. wed is tts... wtf. omg. i have NO LESSONS that day other than math in the afternoon. which means woot no lessons for me that day! but i go sch slightly earlier than usual la. oh well.
thurs is. omg -.- make up for physics then music. somemore the make up is at 4 la. wtf. i can go home come back pls.
fri is concert itself. zz.
i just recalled smth lol. everything u do is lame stupid illogical and uneccessary. and i decided i will no longer have pity for you. haha.
oh yea. ms wong told me stuff ytd for music. if i post here quite ego, but i think she's trying to encourage me. and i decided i will work hard for music now. sure, sch is something i'm studying for.
but so is music. so fuck sch.
yea. i'll do my best to play everyday.
Saturday, August 19, 2006
today i woke up frownie haha.
since my internet is down and will probably down for the next few days, i shall blog on word doc and post it all at once when my internet is finally up haha.
16th aug
lol. today was a fully packed day. first lesson was math but i was super tired haha.. when the teacher went out the room i immediately slept haha and bong pong song wake me up when she come in i win.. and me and himwere being weird la. we created weird paradoxes and i stealthily ate m&m s from chem a week ago. haha..
then was chi. lol some quite cool ppl came over to teach singing but we were a largely non responsive crowd. they are pro tho haha.. realise tmr in class have to make a song (Y) i dunno and i dun care alr la leave it to tmr.
i wish to sleep in abt 2 hours time zz -.- lol.
anw. was chem!!! chem rocked haha.. quote paul leng 'this is like my most fun module la.' haha my ong ROCKS. lol other than the fact he is uber cool haha like using gg unexpectedly -.- haha and chem is fun lor. haha i love clay. i dunno why i like playing with clay. mould it wash my hands with it. -.- write in it -.- oh i think i accidentally brought some spoilt ones back.. oh shit its in my pencil case =.= i hope nth's wrong..
yea anw soonyong is like v efficient today can! he rocks haha (Y). except for not caring abt the precision of the weight of the transition metals, he did a lot of work! haha he pro yay.
then was guitar. where every one slacked.. i realised we have one full dress and one practice to the real thing itself. (Y). i wonder how haha..
and um yes i'm pretty sure we oversold the concert.. (by about 30 to 40 i think..) many of u will be missing out on life i'm sorry.. haha
shit i'm damn pissed my internet is being lame. i'm damn pissed zz.
17aug
dun mind the caps at the start of sentences.. I hate the auto correct also haha.. actly its useful when I type work but otherwise no lol.
haha today was ok. Went to sch.. I realise yanzhi got braces hahaha I haven't seen him up close too recently so sry I nv notice! Haha. But I told him I dint crush him. -.- I bet he is out to seduce me one la. Cos right after I said that, tom came to us and was like shit he dint bring his tie and yanzhi offered him his tie -.- since he was a pref and cant don't bring tie, yanzhi dint mind sacrifice one demerit point for him. Awww. That melted my heart <3! Ok that was gay. anw I hugged him and told him I love him.
-.-
anw yea. That small act I carried in my mind all the way to after flag raising. It was just in my head haha. I dunno if yanzhi will read this but I really really appreciated his that act to tom haha. (Y).
then was. Chinese song writing. Ok ok la. Calvin goh did the lyrics and I wanted to join his group then I feel guilty -.- cos I nv do anyth. So I hear the chords out for him and borrow Douglas guitar and strum for him while he sing haha yay.
Then came a 2 hour period of nth till assembly -.- I went to class and slept on the ground, the bag my pillow my bag damn nice :D haha.. anw I dint want to go assembly I v v v v v v tired >: ( anw I woke with bed hair -.- yah v (Y) and I went assembly.
Then was lit asian horror module. Ok la. A lot of nice clips :D shit I cannot get scared la tmd -.- cos of slau he sit next top me and keep screaming then I want to get scared also cannot cos I laff at him haha. He v funny! Lol a lot of clips from shutter I want to watch BUT WE WATCH THE SPOILER PART ALR >: ( boo.
My last lit module leh.. cos.. tmr full dress rehearsal! Yay. But I'll be lugging my guitar and my amp to sch -.- zz.. thru philo, a recess, and eng I think. Haha. I hope eng is fun. Philo is ending yay.. I dunch like the forum worx. Cos uber laggy and the posts all damn screwed andwhy cant we go comp lab at jr block thenwe each have a comp instead of 3 to a comp.. grr. Cheat money..
Shit. Class concert later -.- I hope dun screw up for music haha..zz
Dunno if will 'blog' (yes this feels weird..) when I get back tho haha..parents all going! Dunno if I have much slacking time with jevvie or not hahaha.. cannot watch him jack today ): haha ok la jk I v bad to him.. (: but cannot browse mags tog also lol..
Kk I go alr whee. Zz my head still quite airy from the nap leh. Cos I rly v tired then I sleep then I wake up head airy zzzzzz.
Haha ok I'm home and showered and I wonder how long will I have to type in word doc!
Concert was ok la haha.. jevvie is UBER funny as book 2 mc hahaha he ended with 'so I hope you enjoyed ourselves' and 'hope to see you at our book 3 and 4 concert next year' (the thing is our course ends next month, more abt that later..) :D hahaha jevvie is damn funny haha he rocks..
Ok la I v bad to him! (: haha I'll rly miss him lor. I cant believe end of next month is end of course alr leh. I'll miss everyone! I'll miss the lesson and I'll miss mr yeo hahaha.. srsly. It's a month to graduating from 10 years of this stuff..
I cant believe it haha. Like esp when jane's dad came in with a camcorder haha and I see how old our parents actually are.. how in their eyes we'll forever be those little 5 year olds way back in jmc, singing 'sunny day, we are dancing! Sunny day we are playing! You and I we can hold hands..' and I forgot the lyrics. Haha. 'salad mum!' and 'vigolin vigolin vigovigo lin! Vigolin vigolin vigovigolin!' :D omg.. those were. 10 years ago.. omg haha.. it seemed like just ytd I stepped into studio 6 (6 right!) at the tampines mall yamaha, into teacher merie's class.. Sunday noons spent liddat haha! Omg. Innocent shits we were back then. Shit its damn fast leh.. >< >< >< >< sigh.
Haha when my internet screws up and i blog in word, theres no end! Cos I no need worry abt blogger crashing thnx.
Sigh. Wow. I rly will miss this class and I rly cant believe how much we've all grown physically, yet in that class, back in that studio, we all go back to being primary sch kids (: hahaha. My mum was like wow u all grow so big alr ar, same with the other parents abt me and jev and everyone.. haha.. sign. Fast lehhhhhhhhh one more month!!!!!!!! Die. DIE…….. why so fast one yes I'm feeling very zzzzz and delirious abt this whole matter cos I'm amazed that we have one more month together. How we've all grown, how its been so long, how all that has been so damn long ago. Haha and how child like we all become backing that studio, back in our parents eyes.. sry la, but jane's dad carrying a camcorder to record our class concert just rly brought me to realise all of these. Dammit.
Yea. We're all growing. fast. My dad gave me a 'certs matters' talk in the car, talk a lot abt scholarship, bonded to govt, overseas. How I'm gonna go to uniin abt 5 years time haha.. zz. That's quite fast.. in fact I'm going to jc in less than 1.5 years zz.
I don't believe in certs.. but everyone else does and that makes me have to? Does this make certs matter? because everyone else believes in it, views it highly? This is lame.
But v fast haha we all growing up alr.
I cant wait for fulldress tmr haha.. zz I guess I cant wait to plug that shit into the amp and just let myself go on the frets..
18 Aug
this is me here at 1134 havent bathed and blogging haha. My internet is abck up, but I'm using work.
I'm extremely tired, and as hyqel and cheng shud know, I fell asleep propped one arm on an arm rest and almost missed one part where we had to come in for the concert -.-
Fulldress was screwed up. If we did this for concert I dowan anyone to come.. zz sigh. Damn screwed can. Make me headache and neck v suan cos I v zz abt everything. And dint even get to pract band much la.. sigh. I dunno how. Die.
And my workload.. re by mon, math by wed.tue still pract till late. Zzzzzz ): how.
I think I lost a lot of weight and gained a lot of muscles today.. I carried one guitar one amp and black shoes around the sch.go guitar room, damn stuffy and hot and I sweat out a lot of oil yay (Y). then. I have to carry my elec, my guitar, and my amp there -.-
So mr tan yay offered to fetch my amp via car. Which still elaves me with two guitars but oh well. Then go there. I had to unload stuff haha (Y). one hand one big bass amp the other also one amp. Then went to carry like mr tan's vox amp one hand and another thing zz. Can die. My veins good day today.. then the guitar on my back damn suan on my back also zz..
Haha I 'blessed' a lot of things today.. haha like previously in class I bless moses' guitar, tuning fork, Kevin lim's bottle, and many other whatnots hahaha (Y). well. For those who witness my blessing rites must know how I bless things! :D haha. Hmm.
So today, I blessed my pedal at mos burger! Haha. (Y). I also blessed my guitar on the ground in the pac haha. That was srsly good blessing.it was on the ground and I decided hmm I shud bless it..and I went there and I went down. And mr tan was like. 'er HELLOOOOO?!?!' with er o.O look on his face haha. Then I was like. Hi sir (: nth nth sir (:
-.-
then back in guitar room, I decided to kop linky's bass from his grasp using body mass and of course, hips and legs, in the process, blessing it.. mr tan saw -.-
he was like 'hiok hong…! You like to do funny stuff with the guitar hur!' with a >: ) face there -.- omg hahahahaha shit I'm damn screwed.. but hey. I'm blessing those items k. esp my guitar shit I need to get a pic of that..
ok la. I go bathe alr. zz. Wow. Near 2000 word, a few days of blog posts.. if u made it here. (Y).
16th aug
lol. today was a fully packed day. first lesson was math but i was super tired haha.. when the teacher went out the room i immediately slept haha and bong pong song wake me up when she come in i win.. and me and himwere being weird la. we created weird paradoxes and i stealthily ate m&m s from chem a week ago. haha..
then was chi. lol some quite cool ppl came over to teach singing but we were a largely non responsive crowd. they are pro tho haha.. realise tmr in class have to make a song (Y) i dunno and i dun care alr la leave it to tmr.
i wish to sleep in abt 2 hours time zz -.- lol.
anw. was chem!!! chem rocked haha.. quote paul leng 'this is like my most fun module la.' haha my ong ROCKS. lol other than the fact he is uber cool haha like using gg unexpectedly -.- haha and chem is fun lor. haha i love clay. i dunno why i like playing with clay. mould it wash my hands with it. -.- write in it -.- oh i think i accidentally brought some spoilt ones back.. oh shit its in my pencil case =.= i hope nth's wrong..
yea anw soonyong is like v efficient today can! he rocks haha (Y). except for not caring abt the precision of the weight of the transition metals, he did a lot of work! haha he pro yay.
then was guitar. where every one slacked.. i realised we have one full dress and one practice to the real thing itself. (Y). i wonder how haha..
and um yes i'm pretty sure we oversold the concert.. (by about 30 to 40 i think..) many of u will be missing out on life i'm sorry.. haha
shit i'm damn pissed my internet is being lame. i'm damn pissed zz.
17aug
dun mind the caps at the start of sentences.. I hate the auto correct also haha.. actly its useful when I type work but otherwise no lol.
haha today was ok. Went to sch.. I realise yanzhi got braces hahaha I haven't seen him up close too recently so sry I nv notice! Haha. But I told him I dint crush him. -.- I bet he is out to seduce me one la. Cos right after I said that, tom came to us and was like shit he dint bring his tie and yanzhi offered him his tie -.- since he was a pref and cant don't bring tie, yanzhi dint mind sacrifice one demerit point for him. Awww. That melted my heart <3! Ok that was gay. anw I hugged him and told him I love him.
-.-
anw yea. That small act I carried in my mind all the way to after flag raising. It was just in my head haha. I dunno if yanzhi will read this but I really really appreciated his that act to tom haha. (Y).
then was. Chinese song writing. Ok ok la. Calvin goh did the lyrics and I wanted to join his group then I feel guilty -.- cos I nv do anyth. So I hear the chords out for him and borrow Douglas guitar and strum for him while he sing haha yay.
Then came a 2 hour period of nth till assembly -.- I went to class and slept on the ground, the bag my pillow my bag damn nice :D haha.. anw I dint want to go assembly I v v v v v v tired >: ( anw I woke with bed hair -.- yah v (Y) and I went assembly.
Then was lit asian horror module. Ok la. A lot of nice clips :D shit I cannot get scared la tmd -.- cos of slau he sit next top me and keep screaming then I want to get scared also cannot cos I laff at him haha. He v funny! Lol a lot of clips from shutter I want to watch BUT WE WATCH THE SPOILER PART ALR >: ( boo.
My last lit module leh.. cos.. tmr full dress rehearsal! Yay. But I'll be lugging my guitar and my amp to sch -.- zz.. thru philo, a recess, and eng I think. Haha. I hope eng is fun. Philo is ending yay.. I dunch like the forum worx. Cos uber laggy and the posts all damn screwed andwhy cant we go comp lab at jr block thenwe each have a comp instead of 3 to a comp.. grr. Cheat money..
Shit. Class concert later -.- I hope dun screw up for music haha..zz
Dunno if will 'blog' (yes this feels weird..) when I get back tho haha..parents all going! Dunno if I have much slacking time with jevvie or not hahaha.. cannot watch him jack today ): haha ok la jk I v bad to him.. (: but cannot browse mags tog also lol..
Kk I go alr whee. Zz my head still quite airy from the nap leh. Cos I rly v tired then I sleep then I wake up head airy zzzzzz.
Haha ok I'm home and showered and I wonder how long will I have to type in word doc!
Concert was ok la haha.. jevvie is UBER funny as book 2 mc hahaha he ended with 'so I hope you enjoyed ourselves' and 'hope to see you at our book 3 and 4 concert next year' (the thing is our course ends next month, more abt that later..) :D hahaha jevvie is damn funny haha he rocks..
Ok la I v bad to him! (: haha I'll rly miss him lor. I cant believe end of next month is end of course alr leh. I'll miss everyone! I'll miss the lesson and I'll miss mr yeo hahaha.. srsly. It's a month to graduating from 10 years of this stuff..
I cant believe it haha. Like esp when jane's dad came in with a camcorder haha and I see how old our parents actually are.. how in their eyes we'll forever be those little 5 year olds way back in jmc, singing 'sunny day, we are dancing! Sunny day we are playing! You and I we can hold hands..' and I forgot the lyrics. Haha. 'salad mum!' and 'vigolin vigolin vigovigo lin! Vigolin vigolin vigovigolin!' :D omg.. those were. 10 years ago.. omg haha.. it seemed like just ytd I stepped into studio 6 (6 right!) at the tampines mall yamaha, into teacher merie's class.. Sunday noons spent liddat haha! Omg. Innocent shits we were back then. Shit its damn fast leh.. >< >< >< >< sigh.
Haha when my internet screws up and i blog in word, theres no end! Cos I no need worry abt blogger crashing thnx.
Sigh. Wow. I rly will miss this class and I rly cant believe how much we've all grown physically, yet in that class, back in that studio, we all go back to being primary sch kids (: hahaha. My mum was like wow u all grow so big alr ar, same with the other parents abt me and jev and everyone.. haha.. sign. Fast lehhhhhhhhh one more month!!!!!!!! Die. DIE…….. why so fast one yes I'm feeling very zzzzz and delirious abt this whole matter cos I'm amazed that we have one more month together. How we've all grown, how its been so long, how all that has been so damn long ago. Haha and how child like we all become backing that studio, back in our parents eyes.. sry la, but jane's dad carrying a camcorder to record our class concert just rly brought me to realise all of these. Dammit.
Yea. We're all growing. fast. My dad gave me a 'certs matters' talk in the car, talk a lot abt scholarship, bonded to govt, overseas. How I'm gonna go to uniin abt 5 years time haha.. zz. That's quite fast.. in fact I'm going to jc in less than 1.5 years zz.
I don't believe in certs.. but everyone else does and that makes me have to? Does this make certs matter? because everyone else believes in it, views it highly? This is lame.
But v fast haha we all growing up alr.
I cant wait for fulldress tmr haha.. zz I guess I cant wait to plug that shit into the amp and just let myself go on the frets..
18 Aug
this is me here at 1134 havent bathed and blogging haha. My internet is abck up, but I'm using work.
I'm extremely tired, and as hyqel and cheng shud know, I fell asleep propped one arm on an arm rest and almost missed one part where we had to come in for the concert -.-
Fulldress was screwed up. If we did this for concert I dowan anyone to come.. zz sigh. Damn screwed can. Make me headache and neck v suan cos I v zz abt everything. And dint even get to pract band much la.. sigh. I dunno how. Die.
And my workload.. re by mon, math by wed.tue still pract till late. Zzzzzz ): how.
I think I lost a lot of weight and gained a lot of muscles today.. I carried one guitar one amp and black shoes around the sch.go guitar room, damn stuffy and hot and I sweat out a lot of oil yay (Y). then. I have to carry my elec, my guitar, and my amp there -.-
So mr tan yay offered to fetch my amp via car. Which still elaves me with two guitars but oh well. Then go there. I had to unload stuff haha (Y). one hand one big bass amp the other also one amp. Then went to carry like mr tan's vox amp one hand and another thing zz. Can die. My veins good day today.. then the guitar on my back damn suan on my back also zz..
Haha I 'blessed' a lot of things today.. haha like previously in class I bless moses' guitar, tuning fork, Kevin lim's bottle, and many other whatnots hahaha (Y). well. For those who witness my blessing rites must know how I bless things! :D haha. Hmm.
So today, I blessed my pedal at mos burger! Haha. (Y). I also blessed my guitar on the ground in the pac haha. That was srsly good blessing.it was on the ground and I decided hmm I shud bless it..and I went there and I went down. And mr tan was like. 'er HELLOOOOO?!?!' with er o.O look on his face haha. Then I was like. Hi sir (: nth nth sir (:
-.-
then back in guitar room, I decided to kop linky's bass from his grasp using body mass and of course, hips and legs, in the process, blessing it.. mr tan saw -.-
he was like 'hiok hong…! You like to do funny stuff with the guitar hur!' with a >: ) face there -.- omg hahahahaha shit I'm damn screwed.. but hey. I'm blessing those items k. esp my guitar shit I need to get a pic of that..
ok la. I go bathe alr. zz. Wow. Near 2000 word, a few days of blog posts.. if u made it here. (Y).
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
shit! i'm sick of humans! omg!
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
this never happened before
paul maccartney
lakehouse ost
i'm very sure
this never happened to me before
i met you and now i'm sure
this never happened before
now i see
this is the way it's supposed to be
i met you and now i see
this is the way it should be
this is the way it should be for lovers
they shouldn't go it alone
it's not so good when you're on your own
so come to me
now we can be what we wanna be
i love you and now i see
this is the way it should be
this is the way it should be
this is the way it should be for lovers
they shouldn't go it alone
it's not so good when you're on your own
i'm very sure
this never happened to me before
i met you and now i'm sure
this never happened before (this never happened before)
this never happened before (this never happened)
this never happened before (this never happened before)
paul maccartney
lakehouse ost
i'm very sure
this never happened to me before
i met you and now i'm sure
this never happened before
now i see
this is the way it's supposed to be
i met you and now i see
this is the way it should be
this is the way it should be for lovers
they shouldn't go it alone
it's not so good when you're on your own
so come to me
now we can be what we wanna be
i love you and now i see
this is the way it should be
this is the way it should be
this is the way it should be for lovers
they shouldn't go it alone
it's not so good when you're on your own
i'm very sure
this never happened to me before
i met you and now i'm sure
this never happened before (this never happened before)
this never happened before (this never happened)
this never happened before (this never happened before)
Monday, August 14, 2006
haha today was weird haha.
ok la. so after music. jevvie was damn pro hahahahaha. damn funny.. we came out of toilet right. then he suddenly said. eh then he pointed to sarah then he waved. then SHE DINT SEE. -.- and he kinda like got daoed. HAHA.OMG HE IS DAMN RANDOM. he suddenly take initiative want to go wave to sarah!??!?!? then some more she nv respond HAHA i jumped on the escalator laffing canthe scenedamn funny. he is damn pro hahahaha. he 'eh'. point. wave. got daoed. feel jacked. lol. shit that scene is damn funny hahahahaha.
lol. then after he went home it kinda sucked -.- lol dunno. i felt super lonely haha. esp when i went to first floor and i look at the books clearance sale. -.- i dunno why also.
today is a lonely day lor. haha for lonely ppl! yay.
which isnt many. but oh well haha.
zz i'm super SUPER addicted to the lakehouse song haha. the one by paul mccartney WILL upload as blog song. :D its uber uber uber nice but uber sad too.. >: (
ok la. so after music. jevvie was damn pro hahahahaha. damn funny.. we came out of toilet right. then he suddenly said. eh then he pointed to sarah then he waved. then SHE DINT SEE. -.- and he kinda like got daoed. HAHA.OMG HE IS DAMN RANDOM. he suddenly take initiative want to go wave to sarah!??!?!? then some more she nv respond HAHA i jumped on the escalator laffing canthe scenedamn funny. he is damn pro hahahaha. he 'eh'. point. wave. got daoed. feel jacked. lol. shit that scene is damn funny hahahahaha.
lol. then after he went home it kinda sucked -.- lol dunno. i felt super lonely haha. esp when i went to first floor and i look at the books clearance sale. -.- i dunno why also.
today is a lonely day lor. haha for lonely ppl! yay.
which isnt many. but oh well haha.
zz i'm super SUPER addicted to the lakehouse song haha. the one by paul mccartney WILL upload as blog song. :D its uber uber uber nice but uber sad too.. >: (
haha. today rocks and sucks.
today i have no lessons until re. :D
and while i was nicely sleeping. mr raymond fong called. re cancelled! :D
then he told me actually my re presentation supp to be today.
WTH!??!?!!?!??!?!?!?!? HOW COME MY RE PRESENTATION IS TODAY AND I DUNNO AND I HAVENT DONE ANY PRESENTATION AT ALL.
so i'm quite ?!?!?!??!!? but luckily its postponed to next week cos today is cancelled.
ok lor. i get a week to prepare. nvm i wake 1 h later now that i only need to go guitar. (:
then. as i woke one. AND A HALF hours later (-.-) i realised.
TODAY EVENING GOT PIANO!? OH SHIT I FORGOT WTH DIE.
hmm. then i contemplate.
hmm. go home immediately after guitar (BOO.) then rush from home?
or slack with jon ho till like 7 then go?
haha i smsed jon ho and he said.
go mos. (Y). unfaithful shit hahaha.
ok la. then maybe go plaza earlier leh? look at guitar stuff.. eh oh yah i need a guitar bag. hmm
contemplates more now. but its abt 30 plus dollars leh. tho its fking nice.
hmm. contemplates. shall ask mama later.
note to bring extra cash.. -.-
now that i have piano, i obv cannot slack -.-
ok so i have to leave home abt 2 plus.
now is one plus. hmm. ok.
wow this post is uber weird its like one line one line. o.O
zz. ok i shall eat a bit if random stuff and play a bit of games now. while creating a ppt on the desktop to remind myself got re presentation. i go out and i play piano, and if i still have time i come back do some shit. doubt i have time. zz.
today i have no lessons until re. :D
and while i was nicely sleeping. mr raymond fong called. re cancelled! :D
then he told me actually my re presentation supp to be today.
WTH!??!?!!?!??!?!?!?!? HOW COME MY RE PRESENTATION IS TODAY AND I DUNNO AND I HAVENT DONE ANY PRESENTATION AT ALL.
so i'm quite ?!?!?!??!!? but luckily its postponed to next week cos today is cancelled.
ok lor. i get a week to prepare. nvm i wake 1 h later now that i only need to go guitar. (:
then. as i woke one. AND A HALF hours later (-.-) i realised.
TODAY EVENING GOT PIANO!? OH SHIT I FORGOT WTH DIE.
hmm. then i contemplate.
hmm. go home immediately after guitar (BOO.) then rush from home?
or slack with jon ho till like 7 then go?
haha i smsed jon ho and he said.
go mos. (Y). unfaithful shit hahaha.
ok la. then maybe go plaza earlier leh? look at guitar stuff.. eh oh yah i need a guitar bag. hmm
contemplates more now. but its abt 30 plus dollars leh. tho its fking nice.
hmm. contemplates. shall ask mama later.
note to bring extra cash.. -.-
now that i have piano, i obv cannot slack -.-
ok so i have to leave home abt 2 plus.
now is one plus. hmm. ok.
wow this post is uber weird its like one line one line. o.O
zz. ok i shall eat a bit if random stuff and play a bit of games now. while creating a ppt on the desktop to remind myself got re presentation. i go out and i play piano, and if i still have time i come back do some shit. doubt i have time. zz.
Sunday, August 13, 2006
wow. yesterday, and yesterday one year ago were totally opposite days.
haha i can still rmr the mid morning sun in my eyes making everything look so sparkling and bright as i walked thru the carpark towards the dining hall, phone in hand.
i confess i missed it. i had a faint impression it was the thirteenth but it wasnt cos i checked just now. twelfth, it said.
not that it was anything good to be remembered. i missed it nonetheless. doubt you even knew what date it was in the first place anyway.
haha eddie rocks! eddie looks damn cool :D for those who dont know, eddie is the IRON MAIDEN MASCOT. shame on u for not knowing!
i have yet to worn my number of the beast with the blue glowing eddie head on it!!! cant wait to wear it omgomg haha its uber nice yay.
those who read my nick NEW IRON MAIDEN ALBUM COMING OUT.
yes. 'a matter of life and death' is coming out early september!!!!! omgomgomg i swear i WILL buy it i will hunt it down wherever i have to go even if its that crazy black metal cd import shop at peninsula! i WILLget a matter of life and death!!!
theres the single on it, the reincarnation(or resurrection i forgot) of benjamin breeg. ppl say its an epic and its great haha.. cant wait to hear it!!! must get must get must get must get..
money is the next problem la. but oh well. i see in stores first then i talk :D:D
then got the limited edition single version with that single, and a ver of trooper and another song!! with a logo sticker! hahaha i want!!!! then i can paste on my guitar haha =.=
wait till i see in stores first haha.. get so excited -.- lol.
ok la. i eating dinner nao. i have no partner for chem assg ): i do alone ar. boo.
haha i can still rmr the mid morning sun in my eyes making everything look so sparkling and bright as i walked thru the carpark towards the dining hall, phone in hand.
i confess i missed it. i had a faint impression it was the thirteenth but it wasnt cos i checked just now. twelfth, it said.
not that it was anything good to be remembered. i missed it nonetheless. doubt you even knew what date it was in the first place anyway.
haha eddie rocks! eddie looks damn cool :D for those who dont know, eddie is the IRON MAIDEN MASCOT. shame on u for not knowing!
i have yet to worn my number of the beast with the blue glowing eddie head on it!!! cant wait to wear it omgomg haha its uber nice yay.
those who read my nick NEW IRON MAIDEN ALBUM COMING OUT.
yes. 'a matter of life and death' is coming out early september!!!!! omgomgomg i swear i WILL buy it i will hunt it down wherever i have to go even if its that crazy black metal cd import shop at peninsula! i WILLget a matter of life and death!!!
theres the single on it, the reincarnation(or resurrection i forgot) of benjamin breeg. ppl say its an epic and its great haha.. cant wait to hear it!!! must get must get must get must get..
money is the next problem la. but oh well. i see in stores first then i talk :D:D
then got the limited edition single version with that single, and a ver of trooper and another song!! with a logo sticker! hahaha i want!!!! then i can paste on my guitar haha =.=
wait till i see in stores first haha.. get so excited -.- lol.
ok la. i eating dinner nao. i have no partner for chem assg ): i do alone ar. boo.
haha. its since a long time ago alr la, and this isnt even the correct occasion to mention it. but yea. for a damn long time the default dict word for pressing two '1's on my phone, has been ): and i was just wondering how many more (: will i need to get the default back to (: haha.
haha i shall return evelyn the favour! lol shes damn biantai can!
ll\`eepheeleen/ll-* will you love me in the morning? forever and ever babe. HEHEHE xD says: (12:51:14 AM)
A woman posts an ad in the news paper that looks like this...
'Looking for man with these qualifications; won't beat me up; or run away from me and is great in bed.'
She got lots of phone calls replying to her ad but met someone perfect at her door one day. The man she met said, "Hi, I'm Bob. I have no arms so I won't beat you up and no legs so I won't run away."
So the lady says, "What makes y

ll\`eepheeleen/ll-* will you love me in the morning? forever and ever babe. HEHEHE xD says: (12:51:20 AM)
So the lady says, "What makes you think you are great in bed?"
Bob replies, "I rang the door bell didn't I?"
xD
ll\`eepheeleen/ll-* will you love me in the morning? forever and ever babe. HEHEHE xD says: (12:51:14 AM)
A woman posts an ad in the news paper that looks like this...
'Looking for man with these qualifications; won't beat me up; or run away from me and is great in bed.'
She got lots of phone calls replying to her ad but met someone perfect at her door one day. The man she met said, "Hi, I'm Bob. I have no arms so I won't beat you up and no legs so I won't run away."
So the lady says, "What makes y

ll\`eepheeleen/ll-* will you love me in the morning? forever and ever babe. HEHEHE xD says: (12:51:20 AM)
So the lady says, "What makes you think you are great in bed?"
Bob replies, "I rang the door bell didn't I?"
xD
Saturday, August 12, 2006
haha today. lol. today was. haha :D
um well. i am pro. humbleness to start the post.. ok haha jk. anw i'm pro because i set my alarm at 1130 am! which would have given me a more than enuf 10 hours of sleep. instead the first thing i know is i wake up at 230 pm (Y).
no music today, so i tried to do work.. yah. srsly. i tried v hard. rly. i played neopets (-.-) then i did homework. but er. i did one more than the other. guess which.
well i managed to do timeframe right before i left house. and i was still on time ok haha.
ya watched lake house! uber nice show haha with a nice sound track! but i dint really like the ending.. lol. haha well it was a happy ending, but the show would have been nicer with a sad ending. rly haha. the show was nice on a whole la. i would have prefered a sad ending.
and having a happy ending removes the KATHARSIS in it -.- yea. lol. i was feeling sad then the happy ending come and i'm like. well i rolled my eyes -.- lol.
wahlao then everyone dowan to eat the icecream la. pro (Y). now itsin my freezer trying to achieve a solid state..
zz. have to bathe and finish up ss. i want to play my elec. ): someone very bad leh ultimate bully me today -.- zz. ok la i'm off!
um well. i am pro. humbleness to start the post.. ok haha jk. anw i'm pro because i set my alarm at 1130 am! which would have given me a more than enuf 10 hours of sleep. instead the first thing i know is i wake up at 230 pm (Y).
no music today, so i tried to do work.. yah. srsly. i tried v hard. rly. i played neopets (-.-) then i did homework. but er. i did one more than the other. guess which.
well i managed to do timeframe right before i left house. and i was still on time ok haha.
ya watched lake house! uber nice show haha with a nice sound track! but i dint really like the ending.. lol. haha well it was a happy ending, but the show would have been nicer with a sad ending. rly haha. the show was nice on a whole la. i would have prefered a sad ending.
and having a happy ending removes the KATHARSIS in it -.- yea. lol. i was feeling sad then the happy ending come and i'm like. well i rolled my eyes -.- lol.
wahlao then everyone dowan to eat the icecream la. pro (Y). now itsin my freezer trying to achieve a solid state..
zz. have to bathe and finish up ss. i want to play my elec. ): someone very bad leh ultimate bully me today -.- zz. ok la i'm off!
Friday, August 11, 2006
oh my fg. i just lost my whole damn blog post.
anw to summarise. today was an ok day. good infact.
mr ong is a brilliant chem teacher. his not like uber funny or anyth, but i learnt a lot under him today (Y). i finally understood spdf k. i know i stupid but i finally understood spdf lor. actly not understood la i understand long ago. but i finally know how to work out alr haha. then got learn redox and everyth la haha.
then was philo. the forum system is sucks. so many bugs, so many ppl sharing one comp. rushed and failed replied killing our quality just to fill in for our quantity. messiness. but mr yip rocks haha. he is damn nice to us. and he damn wth also haha he keep using 'i am gay' and 'yes you are homo' msgs toshow us how to post on the forum for discussion -.-
stoned the 2 hours of lunch away. (: haha except for er stoning in the dark in class with kev, josh, ben lee, shi heng, cake (haha i smell food). lol. obtaining relics.. might scan in later haha -.-
er. watched click with jon ho after guitar! uber uber uber uber uber nice show! ><. i am gonna start neglecting work soon man. srsly. work is lame.
ok la. so i shall do work now. but eh eh eh! its cos i want to start early do fast finish fast then hump it to hell. (Y).
anw to summarise. today was an ok day. good infact.
mr ong is a brilliant chem teacher. his not like uber funny or anyth, but i learnt a lot under him today (Y). i finally understood spdf k. i know i stupid but i finally understood spdf lor. actly not understood la i understand long ago. but i finally know how to work out alr haha. then got learn redox and everyth la haha.
then was philo. the forum system is sucks. so many bugs, so many ppl sharing one comp. rushed and failed replied killing our quality just to fill in for our quantity. messiness. but mr yip rocks haha. he is damn nice to us. and he damn wth also haha he keep using 'i am gay' and 'yes you are homo' msgs toshow us how to post on the forum for discussion -.-
stoned the 2 hours of lunch away. (: haha except for er stoning in the dark in class with kev, josh, ben lee, shi heng, cake (haha i smell food). lol. obtaining relics.. might scan in later haha -.-
er. watched click with jon ho after guitar! uber uber uber uber uber nice show! ><. i am gonna start neglecting work soon man. srsly. work is lame.
ok la. so i shall do work now. but eh eh eh! its cos i want to start early do fast finish fast then hump it to hell. (Y).
Thursday, August 10, 2006
haha. i'm hurt.
literally actly. i woke with ultimate winnage sore throat pain. nth also pain. move tongue abit pain. move mouth pain. can die. srsly the pain from last night till just now was killing me. i just came back from music. since morning better alr. actly no i think its just cos used to the pain alr so not as bad now. but still pain.
and i'm hurt cos mr yeo TOTALLY forgot abt me in music can.. i got prep the impro #20 one la then right. he call everyone go out play by order of coming in. i was last (as usual..) and after the second last he was like. anybody else havent play? and i was like gonna go out and he said oh ok nobody. then i'm like wtf!??!?! and everyone look at me i look at everyone and we wtf!??!?!
zz -.- boo. i think everyone think i purposely dont go out one la. i dint can. i swear i dint. i prep la i hide for wat.. zz nao everyone gonna hate me more la i rock. thnx mr yeo for forgetting me.......... ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.
ate subway with jevvie after that!foudn out the storyline of click! since i prob not gonnaget chance to watch it or smth ):
yea. my life sucks. my social life sucks more than my life. which is PATHETIC. (Y). i win.
yes ss proj. but i not that bad cos i got ext. yes for the wrong reasons. phxxor la. theres no such word -.- i just made it haha (Y).
sat no music haha.. i shud rly pract leh. ok. clear ss andi start practing. (Y). buttsecks and i'm off!
ohyah i forgot to mention. i deleted 50 home numbers off my phone sim card. cos i added my cousins mah. then i no space add their number so i started deleting numbers esphome numbers that i wont need. delete delete. i deleted a grand total of 50 numbers la. just nice right haha. very kexi leh. ikept only a few home numbers.. zzaiyah but its done. cant call back the numbers. dont plan to do anyth abt it till i can. (Y).
literally actly. i woke with ultimate winnage sore throat pain. nth also pain. move tongue abit pain. move mouth pain. can die. srsly the pain from last night till just now was killing me. i just came back from music. since morning better alr. actly no i think its just cos used to the pain alr so not as bad now. but still pain.
and i'm hurt cos mr yeo TOTALLY forgot abt me in music can.. i got prep the impro #20 one la then right. he call everyone go out play by order of coming in. i was last (as usual..) and after the second last he was like. anybody else havent play? and i was like gonna go out and he said oh ok nobody. then i'm like wtf!??!?! and everyone look at me i look at everyone and we wtf!??!?!
zz -.- boo. i think everyone think i purposely dont go out one la. i dint can. i swear i dint. i prep la i hide for wat.. zz nao everyone gonna hate me more la i rock. thnx mr yeo for forgetting me.......... ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.
ate subway with jevvie after that!foudn out the storyline of click! since i prob not gonnaget chance to watch it or smth ):
yea. my life sucks. my social life sucks more than my life. which is PATHETIC. (Y). i win.
yes ss proj. but i not that bad cos i got ext. yes for the wrong reasons. phxxor la. theres no such word -.- i just made it haha (Y).
sat no music haha.. i shud rly pract leh. ok. clear ss andi start practing. (Y). buttsecks and i'm off!
ohyah i forgot to mention. i deleted 50 home numbers off my phone sim card. cos i added my cousins mah. then i no space add their number so i started deleting numbers esphome numbers that i wont need. delete delete. i deleted a grand total of 50 numbers la. just nice right haha. very kexi leh. ikept only a few home numbers.. zzaiyah but its done. cant call back the numbers. dont plan to do anyth abt it till i can. (Y).
i fail as a human.
yea. in many aspects. one includes how long it took me to take the initiative to tell a joke just now there. and how unnatural and quietly i had asked for my cousins emails there. my body is losing and so is my mind. turns out what the lord gives the lord takes away, and its the same with people. what they have given they tend to take away with them. much skills and quality i have lost, especially confidence and courage.
i have a hell lot of things to blog abt that i thought abt just now. shall blog before i add my cousins (Y).
um. yah i got save keywords as draft msg. now i need to decipher them -.- i lose the game once again.
oh yea. haha. well they say that every man was made equal. i dun believe so. because it isnt so. but one thing that makes us all in the end is death. all the great heroes in history and all the great villains in history have one thing in common. they are dead. death is truly one thing that makes all men equal.
i think i'm an atheist, rather than a free thinker.. yea. i'm an atheist. that adds on to another a-ist word i am. anarchist.
i think the deus ex machina is bullshit and its lame. i mean if its used as a device to illustrate lameness, thats ok. but the concept itself is lame and laziness. its cowardly. ppl use it as a means to avoid explaining things. ppl use it when they cannot explain things. ppl give false hope with it. its as if investing in a lucky charm. you are told to pour in all that you've got and you are promised all the good. but we never know if the good comes or not. i think deus ex machina is bullshit.
oh yah and i wonder who really times the 1 min of silence we observe always.
i was doing work there, and got guest pass by see the foolscap 'wah from this sch one ar' then i'm like '...' and she kept telling the other guests 'i only give tuition to students from these schools you know! not this school i dun give tuition one! ur son from wat sch? not this sch i dont teach ok! oh no if i sit down here i'll be giving tuition!' said with a viciously fake, unless haughty cabaret jest.
i think thats lame. i think a lot of things are lame nowadays. not lame as in diao lame. lame as in. your a mtfk bastard. that is lame. kind of lame. yea. i think that is lame. whats her problem? first this is not the occasion, second is tone, thirdis repetition and there are so many more things i can burn the house for. 'oh i only give tuition to these schs = i win the game because i am a high and mighty tuition-teacher-of-these-schs'. bastard.
haha yes well that is almost all i have to say abt my thoughts today. theres some more, but i think its better that i dont mention, you dont know, we all forget about it and live the life without the f in it like we always did.
wow. i came up with that on the spot. live the life without the fuck in it like we always did. fuck. feels fucking good typing it.
yea. live the lie like we always did. its all false hope.
oh take me back to the start. yea. back to the start of this post. i have new cousins today can. we seldom meet even though we are like same age same meta same jokes and all that can. we seldom meet, much less talk. more like just me la. and last time i too young to take the initiative ask for contacts.. the first i got was ruth's haha, at dreamix earlier this year. i actually went to them with pen and paper in hand and asked them for their msn (Y). that had to be so hard man. i'm shocked by myself.
what things have i lost? haha so many can. confidence especially. its surprisingly just so hard now to do things that i used to be able to do in a few seconds. now i dont dare. i cant do it. i ponder abt it for eons. i'm gonna be left with nothing at the very end. srsly.
cremation is tmr morning.
my throat is super pain. suddenly. yes. headache gone and all that, but my throat just now from there come back till now is uber uber uber uber pain. omg. damn pain. lozenges nth is helping. tmd.
ok la i shud bathe. tonight the moon is full. and someone must cheer up. nao.
yea. in many aspects. one includes how long it took me to take the initiative to tell a joke just now there. and how unnatural and quietly i had asked for my cousins emails there. my body is losing and so is my mind. turns out what the lord gives the lord takes away, and its the same with people. what they have given they tend to take away with them. much skills and quality i have lost, especially confidence and courage.
i have a hell lot of things to blog abt that i thought abt just now. shall blog before i add my cousins (Y).
um. yah i got save keywords as draft msg. now i need to decipher them -.- i lose the game once again.
oh yea. haha. well they say that every man was made equal. i dun believe so. because it isnt so. but one thing that makes us all in the end is death. all the great heroes in history and all the great villains in history have one thing in common. they are dead. death is truly one thing that makes all men equal.
i think i'm an atheist, rather than a free thinker.. yea. i'm an atheist. that adds on to another a-ist word i am. anarchist.
i think the deus ex machina is bullshit and its lame. i mean if its used as a device to illustrate lameness, thats ok. but the concept itself is lame and laziness. its cowardly. ppl use it as a means to avoid explaining things. ppl use it when they cannot explain things. ppl give false hope with it. its as if investing in a lucky charm. you are told to pour in all that you've got and you are promised all the good. but we never know if the good comes or not. i think deus ex machina is bullshit.
oh yah and i wonder who really times the 1 min of silence we observe always.
i was doing work there, and got guest pass by see the foolscap 'wah from this sch one ar' then i'm like '...' and she kept telling the other guests 'i only give tuition to students from these schools you know! not this school i dun give tuition one! ur son from wat sch? not this sch i dont teach ok! oh no if i sit down here i'll be giving tuition!' said with a viciously fake, unless haughty cabaret jest.
i think thats lame. i think a lot of things are lame nowadays. not lame as in diao lame. lame as in. your a mtfk bastard. that is lame. kind of lame. yea. i think that is lame. whats her problem? first this is not the occasion, second is tone, thirdis repetition and there are so many more things i can burn the house for. 'oh i only give tuition to these schs = i win the game because i am a high and mighty tuition-teacher-of-these-schs'. bastard.
haha yes well that is almost all i have to say abt my thoughts today. theres some more, but i think its better that i dont mention, you dont know, we all forget about it and live the life without the f in it like we always did.
wow. i came up with that on the spot. live the life without the fuck in it like we always did. fuck. feels fucking good typing it.
yea. live the lie like we always did. its all false hope.
oh take me back to the start. yea. back to the start of this post. i have new cousins today can. we seldom meet even though we are like same age same meta same jokes and all that can. we seldom meet, much less talk. more like just me la. and last time i too young to take the initiative ask for contacts.. the first i got was ruth's haha, at dreamix earlier this year. i actually went to them with pen and paper in hand and asked them for their msn (Y). that had to be so hard man. i'm shocked by myself.
what things have i lost? haha so many can. confidence especially. its surprisingly just so hard now to do things that i used to be able to do in a few seconds. now i dont dare. i cant do it. i ponder abt it for eons. i'm gonna be left with nothing at the very end. srsly.
cremation is tmr morning.
my throat is super pain. suddenly. yes. headache gone and all that, but my throat just now from there come back till now is uber uber uber uber pain. omg. damn pain. lozenges nth is helping. tmd.
ok la i shud bathe. tonight the moon is full. and someone must cheer up. nao.
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
lol. just back from there.. a lot of thoughts while there haha..
i realise why i shud take care of myself and why i shud be afraid of death and all that. why i shud worry abt dying. its because ppl around me are the ones most affected, not me. those who care, will be sad, even if its only for a few days. you might think oh ur life is urs, u shud be able to control it, do what you want with it. and ur death will only be bad to you. no. those affected most are those around you. and that is why suicide is selfish, you only care abt what you want, even if its at the expense of others. that is why i shud worry abt dying. because there may be ppl around me who might be affected.
yea. i dun want my funeral to be a sad one. i mean dun go shout vulgarities and be disrespectful or anything, but when i go on, i dun want ppl to be sad for me. simply for the reason i dont want them to be sad. in fact i want ppl playing in a band there haha. (Y). srsly. get a band to play there. band as in hardrock/metal band.
today i saw this old man sobbing like siao. i just wondered, whats it like to lose a loved one, or lose a fren, especially one that you have known for so many years. he couldnt stop sobbing, and he was the loudest there, being a man some more. i am afraid of ppl who cry cos they are sad. not rly afraid.. its this weird feeling i cant describe. feel sorry for them? feel sad as well cos they are sad? i wonder if anyone will sob liddat for me, and whether i will sob for anyone liddat. there probably will for both.. but wat i saw today i cannot forgot. i felt very sad seeing that old guy sob.
my mum cried. i cannot imagine wat will happen when its my turn. i dun want to imagine. my grandma is so thin and frail as i can see it. i hate language barrier dammit i wish i knew teochew.
i was super introvert today. i barely said much there, only helping to do stuff etc. i prob would have talked normally if aproached.. but i wasnt rly. so i was uber quiet. i dun even know how to start a convo with my cousins.. thats how much i suck thats how bad it is.. i rly just cant bring myself to. i cant even ask them their msn and all that la wth.. i cant believe how bad it is >_> haha i'm a pro introvert.. nvm i shall ask ruth if she knows any of the other cousin's msns and all that.. or i ask tmr la.
ss proj got extension.. an extension i rather wish i did not have to ask for.
ok la i need to bathe alr. i'm ano. i ate one yellow pear today which covers my breakfast and lunch. (Y) no appetite though stomach rumbling. headache came back cos i forgot to eat panadol. throat as bad as ever, still blood in my hard coagulated mucus. i rmr i fell asleep in car there today, and when i woke up i took a breath which sucked in a lot of mucus into my throat so i choke and coughed it out and it jumped onto my hand. and there was a cake/jelly of red and green shit. so much for christmas decoration.
not desecrating or trying to be insulting, but i think even the matrix is far far more believable than that.. but i think its good to have created something to hold on to/pull ppl thru hard times. i think the effort to do smth liddat is good. but its hard to believe.. if one looks at it skeptically, its not even much different from selling ur soul to the devil (?). matrix is more believable. no offense meant and sorry..
lol no one would/should know what i'm talking abt. i pro. but oh well. its a blog. if i cant say what i want to say then this blog fails.
before i leave, i shall leave you with song lyrics to this briiiiiiliant song by the beatles which is just so damn nice and has been stuck in my head. the music is great, and the song consists of two parts, this rock and roll like part, then this soft part that 'billy shears' sings.. damn nice.. i also like the lyrics,esp the back part one. damn nice omg its ringing in my head.. maybe i put as blog song soon.. here's sgt pepper's lonely hearts club band for you:
It was twenty years ago today,
Sgt. Pepper taught the band to play
They've been going in and out of style
But they're guaranteed to raise a smile
So may I introduce to you
The act you've known for all these years
Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band
We're Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band
We hope you will enjoy the show
Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band
Sit back and let the evening go
Sgt. Pepper's lonely, Sgt. Pepper's lonely
Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band
It's wonderful to be here
It's certainly a thrill
You're such a lovely audience
We'd like to take you home with us
We'd love to take you home
I don't really want to stop the show
But I thought that you might like to know
That the singer's going to sing a song
And he wants you all to sing along
So let me introduce to you
The one and only Billy Shears
And Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band
Billy Shears
What would you think if I sang out of tune
Would you stand up and walk out on me
Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song
And I'll try not to sing out of key
Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends
Mmm, I get high with a little help from my friends
Mmm, gonna try with a little help from my friends
What do I do when my love is awake
Is it worried to be alone
How do I feel by the end of the day
Are you sad because you're on your own
No, I get by with a little help from my friends
Mmm, get high with a little help from my friends
Mmm, gonna try with a little help from my friends
Do you need anybody
I need somebody to love
Could it be anybody
I want somebody to love
Would you believe in a love at first sight
Yes, I'm certain that it happens all the time
What do you see when you turn out the light
I can't tell you but I know it's mine
Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends
Mmm, get high with a little help from my friends
Oh, I'm gonna try with a little help from my friends
Do you need anybody
I just need someone to love
Could it be anybody
I want somebody to love
Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends
Mmm, gonna try with a little help from my friends
Oh, I get high with a little help from my friends
Yes, I get by with a little help from my friends
With a little help from my friends
ok i rly go chong liang liao la. someone (Y) rly sleep on time today. (Y). i shud sleep early too.
i realise why i shud take care of myself and why i shud be afraid of death and all that. why i shud worry abt dying. its because ppl around me are the ones most affected, not me. those who care, will be sad, even if its only for a few days. you might think oh ur life is urs, u shud be able to control it, do what you want with it. and ur death will only be bad to you. no. those affected most are those around you. and that is why suicide is selfish, you only care abt what you want, even if its at the expense of others. that is why i shud worry abt dying. because there may be ppl around me who might be affected.
yea. i dun want my funeral to be a sad one. i mean dun go shout vulgarities and be disrespectful or anything, but when i go on, i dun want ppl to be sad for me. simply for the reason i dont want them to be sad. in fact i want ppl playing in a band there haha. (Y). srsly. get a band to play there. band as in hardrock/metal band.
today i saw this old man sobbing like siao. i just wondered, whats it like to lose a loved one, or lose a fren, especially one that you have known for so many years. he couldnt stop sobbing, and he was the loudest there, being a man some more. i am afraid of ppl who cry cos they are sad. not rly afraid.. its this weird feeling i cant describe. feel sorry for them? feel sad as well cos they are sad? i wonder if anyone will sob liddat for me, and whether i will sob for anyone liddat. there probably will for both.. but wat i saw today i cannot forgot. i felt very sad seeing that old guy sob.
my mum cried. i cannot imagine wat will happen when its my turn. i dun want to imagine. my grandma is so thin and frail as i can see it. i hate language barrier dammit i wish i knew teochew.
i was super introvert today. i barely said much there, only helping to do stuff etc. i prob would have talked normally if aproached.. but i wasnt rly. so i was uber quiet. i dun even know how to start a convo with my cousins.. thats how much i suck thats how bad it is.. i rly just cant bring myself to. i cant even ask them their msn and all that la wth.. i cant believe how bad it is >_> haha i'm a pro introvert.. nvm i shall ask ruth if she knows any of the other cousin's msns and all that.. or i ask tmr la.
ss proj got extension.. an extension i rather wish i did not have to ask for.
ok la i need to bathe alr. i'm ano. i ate one yellow pear today which covers my breakfast and lunch. (Y) no appetite though stomach rumbling. headache came back cos i forgot to eat panadol. throat as bad as ever, still blood in my hard coagulated mucus. i rmr i fell asleep in car there today, and when i woke up i took a breath which sucked in a lot of mucus into my throat so i choke and coughed it out and it jumped onto my hand. and there was a cake/jelly of red and green shit. so much for christmas decoration.
not desecrating or trying to be insulting, but i think even the matrix is far far more believable than that.. but i think its good to have created something to hold on to/pull ppl thru hard times. i think the effort to do smth liddat is good. but its hard to believe.. if one looks at it skeptically, its not even much different from selling ur soul to the devil (?). matrix is more believable. no offense meant and sorry..
lol no one would/should know what i'm talking abt. i pro. but oh well. its a blog. if i cant say what i want to say then this blog fails.
before i leave, i shall leave you with song lyrics to this briiiiiiliant song by the beatles which is just so damn nice and has been stuck in my head. the music is great, and the song consists of two parts, this rock and roll like part, then this soft part that 'billy shears' sings.. damn nice.. i also like the lyrics,esp the back part one. damn nice omg its ringing in my head.. maybe i put as blog song soon.. here's sgt pepper's lonely hearts club band for you:
It was twenty years ago today,
Sgt. Pepper taught the band to play
They've been going in and out of style
But they're guaranteed to raise a smile
So may I introduce to you
The act you've known for all these years
Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band
We're Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band
We hope you will enjoy the show
Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band
Sit back and let the evening go
Sgt. Pepper's lonely, Sgt. Pepper's lonely
Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band
It's wonderful to be here
It's certainly a thrill
You're such a lovely audience
We'd like to take you home with us
We'd love to take you home
I don't really want to stop the show
But I thought that you might like to know
That the singer's going to sing a song
And he wants you all to sing along
So let me introduce to you
The one and only Billy Shears
And Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band
Billy Shears
What would you think if I sang out of tune
Would you stand up and walk out on me
Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song
And I'll try not to sing out of key
Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends
Mmm, I get high with a little help from my friends
Mmm, gonna try with a little help from my friends
What do I do when my love is awake
Is it worried to be alone
How do I feel by the end of the day
Are you sad because you're on your own
No, I get by with a little help from my friends
Mmm, get high with a little help from my friends
Mmm, gonna try with a little help from my friends
Do you need anybody
I need somebody to love
Could it be anybody
I want somebody to love
Would you believe in a love at first sight
Yes, I'm certain that it happens all the time
What do you see when you turn out the light
I can't tell you but I know it's mine
Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends
Mmm, get high with a little help from my friends
Oh, I'm gonna try with a little help from my friends
Do you need anybody
I just need someone to love
Could it be anybody
I want somebody to love
Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends
Mmm, gonna try with a little help from my friends
Oh, I get high with a little help from my friends
Yes, I get by with a little help from my friends
With a little help from my friends
ok i rly go chong liang liao la. someone (Y) rly sleep on time today. (Y). i shud sleep early too.
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
today sucks.
i realised its a long time since i had a great day. lol.
and i realised i fall prey to peer pressure damn easily. shit la. fzh and jon ho la thnx a lot nao i come home late i dun get to sleep and my father also not happy tmd.
wont have much comp these few days? cos yea need to go there haha
i changed it, and even the music has good timing lol lol. i'm very tired leh haha zz.. need sleep more boo. ok gtg nao.
i realised its a long time since i had a great day. lol.
and i realised i fall prey to peer pressure damn easily. shit la. fzh and jon ho la thnx a lot nao i come home late i dun get to sleep and my father also not happy tmd.
wont have much comp these few days? cos yea need to go there haha
i changed it, and even the music has good timing lol lol. i'm very tired leh haha zz.. need sleep more boo. ok gtg nao.
Monday, August 07, 2006
my grandpa's seen far better days before. like in that picture, and the one at my table there. omg. my grandma looked healthy and def a lot more weight than she is nao. she is super thin and like frail liddat. i wish i knew teochew. my mothers side. then i can talk to her. freak.
today sucked. woke up with sore throat and headache and fever and sex and dunno what kind of evil shit in my head la. go sch. first dmp = environmental physics. ms eunice tay is damn nice she let me sleep in her full view leh. >< if i dint sleep i prob spend time staring at bastards which i want to whack so thats like zz anyway. yea. kan bu shun yan ppl.
went nus. gave card to prof, but smartly dint bring books we owe him -.- diao.
came back, chi song writing thing. quite nice and interesting haha.. headache present all the wao. phx.
guitar was ok except i kept falling asleep anw. sigh. headache. headache morning headache afternoon headache guitar headache nao. phx the headache. i'm very pissed. i'm gonna burn the headache's house. kill its mother.
left the place earlier than my mother and siblings to go see doctor. queue uber uber long. zz. doc got to me haha.
according to him, its some sinusitis thingy, which is supp to be gradual build up, and he is surprised at my sudden and 'dramatic' (-.-) appearance of the sickness. lol. wth la. i think my body ggxx can i'm damn sure so suden build up la. i tell u i'm dying la tmd.
then the jeffery (the doc) was like diagnosing me la, say wat, iam the type to bottle things up (-.-) and i seldom complain until the thing gets v serious, and basically more crap abt me bottling stuff and not complaining or expressing myself when i'm sick or smth. like he was like 'ppl usually sneeze or cough then they make a lot of noise, eat medicine and recover. for him, he only seems to come when theres something serious.' lol.. abt my personality? o.O
ok. zhang ek time. thats hokkien for bathing if u donno. nub. tmr got lit test i gonna sleep and fail it (Y).
today sucked. woke up with sore throat and headache and fever and sex and dunno what kind of evil shit in my head la. go sch. first dmp = environmental physics. ms eunice tay is damn nice she let me sleep in her full view leh. >< if i dint sleep i prob spend time staring at bastards which i want to whack so thats like zz anyway. yea. kan bu shun yan ppl.
went nus. gave card to prof, but smartly dint bring books we owe him -.- diao.
came back, chi song writing thing. quite nice and interesting haha.. headache present all the wao. phx.
guitar was ok except i kept falling asleep anw. sigh. headache. headache morning headache afternoon headache guitar headache nao. phx the headache. i'm very pissed. i'm gonna burn the headache's house. kill its mother.
left the place earlier than my mother and siblings to go see doctor. queue uber uber long. zz. doc got to me haha.
according to him, its some sinusitis thingy, which is supp to be gradual build up, and he is surprised at my sudden and 'dramatic' (-.-) appearance of the sickness. lol. wth la. i think my body ggxx can i'm damn sure so suden build up la. i tell u i'm dying la tmd.
then the jeffery (the doc) was like diagnosing me la, say wat, iam the type to bottle things up (-.-) and i seldom complain until the thing gets v serious, and basically more crap abt me bottling stuff and not complaining or expressing myself when i'm sick or smth. like he was like 'ppl usually sneeze or cough then they make a lot of noise, eat medicine and recover. for him, he only seems to come when theres something serious.' lol.. abt my personality? o.O
ok. zhang ek time. thats hokkien for bathing if u donno. nub. tmr got lit test i gonna sleep and fail it (Y).
he is a good guy.
*tap* "wake up."
he is a good guy.
"hiok, if you need any talcum powder i have here."
he is a good guy.
blood brothers. lol i'm sorry if i'm bz at times la zz.
he is a good guy.
'you dont ex ex ex here and there la you got girlfriend say got girlfriend' in a da3 bao4 bu4 ping2 tone.
he is a good guy.
'next is ** *******. try to do at least 75% of it.' with a sense of justice for himself against his peers.
he is a good guy.
albeit trying to be mischievous in lame way. (?)
he is a good guy.
'i tell you already.. its just you dont want to do'
i just bathed. and i realise the water makes you warm, yet when you're outside of the water, its the water that makes you cold. so how?
*tap* "wake up."
he is a good guy.
"hiok, if you need any talcum powder i have here."
he is a good guy.
blood brothers. lol i'm sorry if i'm bz at times la zz.
he is a good guy.
'you dont ex ex ex here and there la you got girlfriend say got girlfriend' in a da3 bao4 bu4 ping2 tone.
he is a good guy.
'next is ** *******. try to do at least 75% of it.' with a sense of justice for himself against his peers.
he is a good guy.
albeit trying to be mischievous in lame way. (?)
he is a good guy.
'i tell you already.. its just you dont want to do'
i just bathed. and i realise the water makes you warm, yet when you're outside of the water, its the water that makes you cold. so how?
i am pro. i thought the lit essay due fri, so i wanted to do during weekend. then turns out it was due wed. so i gg. rushed it out:
Dreamers Who Dared
The Great Gatsby I just read
Tale of a Dreamer who dared
Came to succeed, so prepared
But the ending was just sad
Nineteen-twenties was jazz age
Just America’s next page
Sadly Delusion, the mage
Made that Dream into a cage.
‘merica, land of freedom
All wannabes are welcome
Try hard, try on, try long term
You’ll achieve super-stardom
That was the unsaid promise
Made to all you who persist
In your bid to achieve this
Many ’mportant things you miss
Morality’s one of them
Cast and spit out just like phlegm
‘Anything! For fortune and fame!’
You did things that you’d’ve been damned!
Alcohol! Prohibition!
Was just the right situation!
For bootleggers to take action
Strike it rich with stealthy motion!
Alcohol people smuggle;
What calls for all these struggle?
Ah, its money, not the wine bottle
That makes your head all muddle
And why do we want to get rich?
If it was not for that bitch.
That was why Gatsby had itched
For things to impress that witch
So he smuggled alcohol
Just to get that gold hat, lol.
And trampolines, he did call
Just to bounce higher than them all.
However, he failed in his quest
Even though he tried his best
Did it all with much good zest
Even though it was a test -
Test of his morality
Which he failed obviously
So did everyone else. See,
The Dream was corrupted in reality.
The Dream has defiled every organism!
Into prey of materialism!
That money brings optimism;
Money brings you orgasm!
Those are definitely lies
But money was all in everyone’s eyes
Gatsby thus had no other choice;
To impress Daisy, he tries.
He was not corrupted within
It’s the Dream that corrupted him
His means were nothing but sin
But he did it for a love to win.
The Dreamers did wrong nothing
They only wanted to achieve something
However, too blinded they were to think
What’s the right thing; what’s the wrong thing.
Thus I salute those Dreamers who Dared
Though their bold dreams be morally impaired
Fortune and fame were all they cared.
The twenties, the jazz age, was indeed bleak and sad.
random shiz. i shall bathe nao and mug lit for tmr which i will failz anyway and i have headache and i'm v tired and was pissed off and did i mention my space bar is faulty lol yah i go shaoer nao then mug lit yay.
Dreamers Who Dared
The Great Gatsby I just read
Tale of a Dreamer who dared
Came to succeed, so prepared
But the ending was just sad
Nineteen-twenties was jazz age
Just America’s next page
Sadly Delusion, the mage
Made that Dream into a cage.
‘merica, land of freedom
All wannabes are welcome
Try hard, try on, try long term
You’ll achieve super-stardom
That was the unsaid promise
Made to all you who persist
In your bid to achieve this
Many ’mportant things you miss
Morality’s one of them
Cast and spit out just like phlegm
‘Anything! For fortune and fame!’
You did things that you’d’ve been damned!
Alcohol! Prohibition!
Was just the right situation!
For bootleggers to take action
Strike it rich with stealthy motion!
Alcohol people smuggle;
What calls for all these struggle?
Ah, its money, not the wine bottle
That makes your head all muddle
And why do we want to get rich?
If it was not for that bitch.
That was why Gatsby had itched
For things to impress that witch
So he smuggled alcohol
Just to get that gold hat, lol.
And trampolines, he did call
Just to bounce higher than them all.
However, he failed in his quest
Even though he tried his best
Did it all with much good zest
Even though it was a test -
Test of his morality
Which he failed obviously
So did everyone else. See,
The Dream was corrupted in reality.
The Dream has defiled every organism!
Into prey of materialism!
That money brings optimism;
Money brings you orgasm!
Those are definitely lies
But money was all in everyone’s eyes
Gatsby thus had no other choice;
To impress Daisy, he tries.
He was not corrupted within
It’s the Dream that corrupted him
His means were nothing but sin
But he did it for a love to win.
The Dreamers did wrong nothing
They only wanted to achieve something
However, too blinded they were to think
What’s the right thing; what’s the wrong thing.
Thus I salute those Dreamers who Dared
Though their bold dreams be morally impaired
Fortune and fame were all they cared.
The twenties, the jazz age, was indeed bleak and sad.
random shiz. i shall bathe nao and mug lit for tmr which i will failz anyway and i have headache and i'm v tired and was pissed off and did i mention my space bar is faulty lol yah i go shaoer nao then mug lit yay.
Sunday, August 06, 2006
went ari's house for concert prep. rly great time there. lol. srsly it was a productive session. i now know why my guitar sound like crap. cos i nv on it loud enuf.. it was approximately at ten o clock or more most of the time at ari's house la. and trooper sound really awesome.. haha.
it just had to happen while we left home dint it. i dunno my grandma how.. rest in peace gong gong.
now its time to rush my letter, rush lit, mug lit, and do ss. i have to do letter fast haha.
it just had to happen while we left home dint it. i dunno my grandma how.. rest in peace gong gong.
now its time to rush my letter, rush lit, mug lit, and do ss. i have to do letter fast haha.
Saturday, August 05, 2006
lol. on the way to mrt i remembered i need to blog abt lame stuff that me and kev lim think of (Y).
like during leadership challenge workshop we were talking abt ppl deing hungry enuf to eat the library..
hh: 'later he come and EAT the library la'
lpz: 'he needs to INTERNALIZE the knowledge!'
hh: 'and DIGEST the info!'
-.-
then got peng's persuasive speech ytd..
peng: '... it will become ABDOMENABLE...'
turning to each other,
hh & lpz: '... isnt it ABOMINABLE?'
hh : 'HAHA ABDOMENABLE'
lpz, rubbing his stomach: 'HAHA ABDOMENABLE. I'M THE ABDOMENABLE SNOWMAN.'
hh: '... can you STOMACH the horror?'
lpz: 'omg -_-"'
-.-
then i was watching pirates: dead man's chest. and i found out that davy jone's heart is in the chest..
hh: 'yah.. u know.. the HEART is kept inside a CHEST.' pointing to my chest.
-.-
ok bu hao xiao. today is also a bu hao xiao day. zz. plus got so much work.. must rmr to watch my name is earl later haha..
like during leadership challenge workshop we were talking abt ppl deing hungry enuf to eat the library..
hh: 'later he come and EAT the library la'
lpz: 'he needs to INTERNALIZE the knowledge!'
hh: 'and DIGEST the info!'
-.-
then got peng's persuasive speech ytd..
peng: '... it will become ABDOMENABLE...'
turning to each other,
hh & lpz: '... isnt it ABOMINABLE?'
hh : 'HAHA ABDOMENABLE'
lpz, rubbing his stomach: 'HAHA ABDOMENABLE. I'M THE ABDOMENABLE SNOWMAN.'
hh: '... can you STOMACH the horror?'
lpz: 'omg -_-"'
-.-
then i was watching pirates: dead man's chest. and i found out that davy jone's heart is in the chest..
hh: 'yah.. u know.. the HEART is kept inside a CHEST.' pointing to my chest.
-.-
ok bu hao xiao. today is also a bu hao xiao day. zz. plus got so much work.. must rmr to watch my name is earl later haha..
i am not the sheik of araby.
anw haha. i woke before 12 today leh i rock haha.. music later.. i think i'm going to get a pedal? haha it sounds good. very good, and i dun see much 30 buck pedals around. 1st hand one haha. (Y) zz.
anw haha. i woke before 12 today leh i rock haha.. music later.. i think i'm going to get a pedal? haha it sounds good. very good, and i dun see much 30 buck pedals around. 1st hand one haha. (Y) zz.
Friday, August 04, 2006
haha just home. from yes another stoning session with jho at mos cos he likes the counter girl there oops (:
haha zz. a lot of ppl came and went lol. all asking wat we doing and all amazed we can stone for 4, 5 hours haha..
anw on abt today. hmm wat happen ar. chem. ok. eng, ok, more gl speeches.. math = log ta which was quite easy haha (Y).
lol. zz i v tired plus v stone and v zzz and v. v. um dunno how to say. i v.v. V.V
went for some chi lecture thing which can gimme 5 ca marks free.. the talk quite interesting leh rly.. 30 mins only tho haha.. a loot of ppl damn bad just go, get the form, then dun care the presentation blah.
guitar was good haha (Y) we finished yet another song.. our ensem is like a displacement graph with increasing velocity (post physics cct). yes our displacement is an upward curve.. our progress is that curve andwe are owning time as well as effort (Y). wish more ppl come for pract tho (Y).
after that was mos lor. then talk a lot of stuff haha.. random crap haha.. and jon ho kept oogling.. :D and i realise hao hopeless and lost at what to do i am :D
yea. what to do..? work. soon. i go pom pom then i come back do work haha..
haha zz. a lot of ppl came and went lol. all asking wat we doing and all amazed we can stone for 4, 5 hours haha..
anw on abt today. hmm wat happen ar. chem. ok. eng, ok, more gl speeches.. math = log ta which was quite easy haha (Y).
lol. zz i v tired plus v stone and v zzz and v. v. um dunno how to say. i v.v. V.V
went for some chi lecture thing which can gimme 5 ca marks free.. the talk quite interesting leh rly.. 30 mins only tho haha.. a loot of ppl damn bad just go, get the form, then dun care the presentation blah.
guitar was good haha (Y) we finished yet another song.. our ensem is like a displacement graph with increasing velocity (post physics cct). yes our displacement is an upward curve.. our progress is that curve andwe are owning time as well as effort (Y). wish more ppl come for pract tho (Y).
after that was mos lor. then talk a lot of stuff haha.. random crap haha.. and jon ho kept oogling.. :D and i realise hao hopeless and lost at what to do i am :D
yea. what to do..? work. soon. i go pom pom then i come back do work haha..
Thursday, August 03, 2006
i finally watched pirates of the caribbean dead man's chest and its a SUPERB movie. dun stay after the credits haha its crap. johnny depp as usual owns. he is my idol haha..
lol. must thank zeming, ben hong, choon and shahan for letting me come along + even waiting for me haha.. i barely talked at all throughout the whole movie la. haha just watching intently.. lol.. like watching alone liddat haha
yea. i realise i'm super introvert. i become super loner and introvert yay haha. i nv talk to anyone alr (Y).
log ta tmr.. gonna bathe and pract piano nao i think i gonna be late leh zz haha..
haha i appreciate ppl like joshua haha.. i saw him this morning going around everyone sleeping in class and tapping them awake for assembly haha.. guess he could've just walked out lol but yea.. really appreciate ppl like him.. :D
donno if its tired or sian of work la. but i think is really i just becoming more and more introvert haha.. wah good job la.. zz.
lol. must thank zeming, ben hong, choon and shahan for letting me come along + even waiting for me haha.. i barely talked at all throughout the whole movie la. haha just watching intently.. lol.. like watching alone liddat haha
yea. i realise i'm super introvert. i become super loner and introvert yay haha. i nv talk to anyone alr (Y).
log ta tmr.. gonna bathe and pract piano nao i think i gonna be late leh zz haha..
haha i appreciate ppl like joshua haha.. i saw him this morning going around everyone sleeping in class and tapping them awake for assembly haha.. guess he could've just walked out lol but yea.. really appreciate ppl like him.. :D
donno if its tired or sian of work la. but i think is really i just becoming more and more introvert haha.. wah good job la.. zz.
lol i win the game. yet AGAIN.
its 420 am.. thanks to my amazing powers of falling asleep and my amazing powers of not being able to wake up and thansk to cross country, i fell asleep at abt 10, to 1! haha. (Y).
then 1 to nao is like in between a lot of falling asleep zz. but i finally did my philo essay haha. bu cuo.
so nao. i start studying for physics. (Y). nln bu cuo sure fail..
reading mr soon's notes haha he is freaking random la wthhhhhhh..... super super super random haha. 'fig 1.1 a chicken calling you a chicken' -.- grapefruit is a scalar quantity. under guidelines to drawing scale diagrams he wrote 'look both ways before you cross the road'. and a LOT more. wthhhhhh omg mr sooon ROCKS :D haha he is uber random!!
kk i better start studying (: lemme see which period can i sleep in tmr.. HAHA. THERES BIO. I HOPE ITS NOT LAB = SLEEP.
its 420 am.. thanks to my amazing powers of falling asleep and my amazing powers of not being able to wake up and thansk to cross country, i fell asleep at abt 10, to 1! haha. (Y).
then 1 to nao is like in between a lot of falling asleep zz. but i finally did my philo essay haha. bu cuo.
so nao. i start studying for physics. (Y). nln bu cuo sure fail..
reading mr soon's notes haha he is freaking random la wthhhhhhh..... super super super random haha. 'fig 1.1 a chicken calling you a chicken' -.- grapefruit is a scalar quantity. under guidelines to drawing scale diagrams he wrote 'look both ways before you cross the road'. and a LOT more. wthhhhhh omg mr sooon ROCKS :D haha he is uber random!!
kk i better start studying (: lemme see which period can i sleep in tmr.. HAHA. THERES BIO. I HOPE ITS NOT LAB = SLEEP.
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
haha. today was ok la.. x country haha.
i actually ran haha. well i ran stop ran stop and hardcore sprinted last stretch.. shud have run more tho haha.. zz
yea i saw a komodo dragon, and i told myself to sprint by counting lampposts (Y). haha. sprint 7 lamp posts then i go. i shud have run a lot a lot more tho haha..
then, when i went back to sch, i fell to peer pressure ( -.-") and i went to play soccer -.- i actly asked if my dad could fetch me haha.. and its all back to those sec 2 days man.. haha where i can just stay in sch till like 7 plus each day playing soccer, and my dad would call me asking if i could need a ride.. and when i get in the car, its all dark. we drive home..
except nao, my soccer sucks (worse than before so u can imagine), and i fell asleep once i went into the car. look at wat sec 3 life has done to us. to me.
anw yea haha nice little deja vu haha.. i shudnt have stayed tho. nao i need to mug phy AND do philo work AND wake uber uber early tmr.. (Y) i win the game. and i dint get to eat. =.= zz
on to today! haha titration! quite ok except for.. the story of the evil burette. haha. as i was pouring the very dark and stainable purple KMnO4 into the burette, i was wondeirng. eh. how come the thing nv full one..
then i look down. and oh *&^%$ my pants.. (Y) i forgot to clip the thing..
so.
i then poured iron sulphate all over my pants :D instant removal!
karma catches up on us all.. as i was washing my aparatus after the whole pract, i put the burette back on hte stand. it wasnt sloping or not put properly.. but then the thing just fell off the stand and onto the ground. (Y). byebye evil burette (:
i realise i forgot to sign for the broken equipment.. bleh dun care zz.
haha while waiting for going macritchie for x country today, pzx showed me a video of li yuan kungfu kicking a stack of chairs haha :D
inspired, i started stacking up chairs the gl way haha.. balanced head to legs to legs to head all the way up. and thnx again to peer pressure, mainly pzx who wanted to film me. -.- yes i kungfu kicked it haha. he better come online send me the vid :D
zz. WORK WORK. *&^%$#.
i actually ran haha. well i ran stop ran stop and hardcore sprinted last stretch.. shud have run more tho haha.. zz
yea i saw a komodo dragon, and i told myself to sprint by counting lampposts (Y). haha. sprint 7 lamp posts then i go. i shud have run a lot a lot more tho haha..
then, when i went back to sch, i fell to peer pressure ( -.-") and i went to play soccer -.- i actly asked if my dad could fetch me haha.. and its all back to those sec 2 days man.. haha where i can just stay in sch till like 7 plus each day playing soccer, and my dad would call me asking if i could need a ride.. and when i get in the car, its all dark. we drive home..
except nao, my soccer sucks (worse than before so u can imagine), and i fell asleep once i went into the car. look at wat sec 3 life has done to us. to me.
anw yea haha nice little deja vu haha.. i shudnt have stayed tho. nao i need to mug phy AND do philo work AND wake uber uber early tmr.. (Y) i win the game. and i dint get to eat. =.= zz
on to today! haha titration! quite ok except for.. the story of the evil burette. haha. as i was pouring the very dark and stainable purple KMnO4 into the burette, i was wondeirng. eh. how come the thing nv full one..
then i look down. and oh *&^%$ my pants.. (Y) i forgot to clip the thing..
so.
i then poured iron sulphate all over my pants :D instant removal!
karma catches up on us all.. as i was washing my aparatus after the whole pract, i put the burette back on hte stand. it wasnt sloping or not put properly.. but then the thing just fell off the stand and onto the ground. (Y). byebye evil burette (:
i realise i forgot to sign for the broken equipment.. bleh dun care zz.
haha while waiting for going macritchie for x country today, pzx showed me a video of li yuan kungfu kicking a stack of chairs haha :D
inspired, i started stacking up chairs the gl way haha.. balanced head to legs to legs to head all the way up. and thnx again to peer pressure, mainly pzx who wanted to film me. -.- yes i kungfu kicked it haha. he better come online send me the vid :D
zz. WORK WORK. *&^%$#.
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
i'm very tired haha.
and i'm damn pro can.. the math cct i nv study.. then. (: haha. bu cuo.. got full marks. tyco can.. not so for the rest of this week i guess.. theres a test every day of this week. tmr is tit ration, thur is phy cct, fri is log.
zz. haha i realise my attitude towards ppl's scandals and rumours are very very changed haha..unless it somehow affects me lol. otherwise. i dunno why leh. last time everyone v kpo one haha then i think i got cou re nao la. then now is like zz. lol ok lor i nt interested haha.. weird.
and i realise i forget a damn lot of stuff.. haha. i guess when ppl come your house they bring gifts and sometimes when they leave they take their gifts along with them. i forgot a damn lot of stuff..
must watch ouran high epi 17 today.. hahaha..
tmr cross country zz. i dun want to run............... zz i very tired..
):!
and i'm damn pro can.. the math cct i nv study.. then. (: haha. bu cuo.. got full marks. tyco can.. not so for the rest of this week i guess.. theres a test every day of this week. tmr is tit ration, thur is phy cct, fri is log.
zz. haha i realise my attitude towards ppl's scandals and rumours are very very changed haha..unless it somehow affects me lol. otherwise. i dunno why leh. last time everyone v kpo one haha then i think i got cou re nao la. then now is like zz. lol ok lor i nt interested haha.. weird.
and i realise i forget a damn lot of stuff.. haha. i guess when ppl come your house they bring gifts and sometimes when they leave they take their gifts along with them. i forgot a damn lot of stuff..
must watch ouran high epi 17 today.. hahaha..
tmr cross country zz. i dun want to run............... zz i very tired..
):!
haha its 4.49am and a start of a new month. i just finished my persuasive speech supp to due tmr i started at abt 12 -.-
yea. then at 12 i fell asleep la. woke at 3 haha.
zz. my chang wen suo duan hao. zz. i think hand up on wed la haha.. a bit the late la due last fri..
zz. i fell asleep right after i know some gl shit haha. lol. hopeless. again. i hate it.
yea. then at 12 i fell asleep la. woke at 3 haha.
zz. my chang wen suo duan hao. zz. i think hand up on wed la haha.. a bit the late la due last fri..
zz. i fell asleep right after i know some gl shit haha. lol. hopeless. again. i hate it.