beautiful, isnt it
Friday, December 30, 2011
i have an innate fear/dread of getting involved in things which threaten to yield no results. recently, one thing like that is life.

but i've been told that a man ought to be judged by the things he does for people who can't give him anything in return. and 反正世界上很多事都是徒劳无功的.

i therefore ought to try venturing forth anyway..
at 3:41 PM
something about not mixing medicine with alcohol..

today my friend g girish gave me a crash course on how to ride a motorbike, and then i rode solo on his bike for a short distance. i eventually lost balance and fell down and cut my knee.

there is an intense vague mix of feelings and thoughts in me right now, esp today/tonight. like a melting pot of sludge of which i can't tell what's in it.

i've also decided to learn to ride a motorbike.

somewhere in the distance now i hear a rooster crowing. twice..
at 5:37 AM
Thursday, December 29, 2011
hiokhong says: (AM 12:23:05)
sian dont know if you caught what i happen to be telling nicole today since she asked

hiokhong says: (AM 12:23:16)
a bit random since we dont talk

hiokhong says: (AM 12:23:27)
but i'm amazed at how much i've changed in the past half a year la

hiokhong says: (AM 12:23:29)
srsly haha

hiokhong says: (AM 12:23:40)
my view on things, big and small

hiokhong says: (AM 12:23:50)
i cant even seem to look at ppl the same way anymore

hiokhong says: (AM 12:24:07)
i'm looking at a familiar face on fb and i cant seem to recognize it


wait til i see that face tmr lor haha
at 12:24 AM
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
eating zi char at bishan kim san leng with my guitar guys.. food's not great but the company is :)
at 7:52 PM
Monday, December 26, 2011
keep being in this state where i seem to be perpetually wondering
at 7:58 PM
after watching 无间道 II and III back to back today cos i felt like it, i'm just sitting here lying on one arm, reading a bit of facebook, with c-pop playing in my headphones, thinking of things, filling in blanks with stories i may have imagined myself, cos i feel like it.
at 7:50 PM
Friday, December 23, 2011
tsk, hmm.
at 1:08 AM
Thursday, December 22, 2011
今晚我不哭.. 但偏偏老天爷好像在替我哭...
at 11:12 PM
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
i guess i just had a sad and abrupt realisation. that you've moved on. fullstop. we can't be friends, and we can't be lovers, however much it is meant to be. aimless as i am as i roam funan right now with 2 hours of sleep, i am unwillingly glad you are not like me. there are echoes of you everywhere. so sad. it is fine i guess. the question remains: how much did i have to drink last night?
at 1:55 PM
i'm very sad as a doctor cos i can't save everyone
at 6:13 AM
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
my curse is that when ppl ask why, i ask, why not.
at 5:59 PM
Monday, December 19, 2011
back from sabai.. every sabai i'm filled full with thoughts haha. it was an awesome, tiring, fulfilling trip.. haha sad to say though, i spent the moments before touch down just now facepalming half my face with specs off thinking how now that i'm back in singapore i have to think of what to do with my life again.. sian
at 6:02 PM
Friday, December 09, 2011
you know that a precious memory has become too long ago, when you think about it and you miss it so dearly that you imagine yourself being transported back into that moment, only to find yourself panicking and feeling like you're in danger cos you can't not be in the present, to hold the world up and deal with all the shit that still needs to be settled, that being in a relaxed and happy moment, will cause you to be away from problems you can't just ignore, which you feel will escalate/accumulate backlog/miss opportunities. cos time will keep going forward, and the world will keep turning or smth.


am i the only one? recently, another memory has become that. a summer memory haha. man, eurotrip was fun..
at 12:27 PM
Wednesday, December 07, 2011
so long as you keep watching on like that, and smile.
at 8:47 PM
i'm a lone wolf in the desert. recently i've taken a liking to kill myself, and help others haha.
at 8:38 PM
Thursday, December 01, 2011
just spent 17 hours out of house.. and the last 7 hours or so, foaming over crazy drug names and numbers, at a doctor's house, for ocip. so tired and foaming.. but it feels good though. it makes me feel powerful, and strong haha. feels damn good too, that i have to wake up an hour earlier than usual in the morn tmr, for a meeting before school, before finishing the fight with the drug list after school haha.

i've always wanted to be the change i want to see in this world. 让这个世界,因为有了我,会有一点点差别。

而我的世界,不过就是你的心。
at 12:58 AM