sigh dreading shift as usual. not just shift, work fucking sucks. i don't want.
just trying to keep telling myself tonight that shift will end, and i will see my loved ones again.. :(

on a side note, fresh off the boat is REALLY funny hahaha its a v nice show! now that i've finished the 2 existing seasons i'm just q sian cos like nothing i feel like watching for now hahaha

5th August, 2016

things i wanna do in my life right now:

1) ____ _______
2) get fit so i can serve NS
3) be an intense cardiothoracic surgeon
4) learn the japanese language and live in japan for a while/be free to go there often as i will
5) get married and have a blissful marriage

damn sian. just damn sian. i don't want to do all these "things i'm supposed to do" already. i don't want to do this exam, i don't want to need to chase a career. i just want to do the things i want. i just want to have the life and home and family in 5 years time that has yet to happen, i just want to visit the places i want to visit, i want to enrich myself and explore the world, i want to live in japan and live a quiet daily life.

so stressed by all these "things i'm supposed to do". why the fuck. going to go insane in my own box my own mind.