Saturday, September 30, 2006
艺术家随性？
Friday, September 29, 2006
haha. i'm still quite o.o abt just now haha. i nv went on some raging rampage before i guess haha.
well. i was pissed at a few things. lol. yea. and i really think i alr keep saying dont touch the damn sticks cos i needed them for the lit parody and when i come back i see one of the sticks broken la. -.-
haha donno la. u ask jorel wat happened lor haha. he was damn scared -.- haha. zz. i was damn pissed la. then i felt damn bad for the cleaner -.- cos he had to pick up so freaking many plastic and wood splinters haha. i made a damn lot of small splinters la i dint even know wat i was doing except being angry and on some rampage -.- zz.
i dint even talk to jorel at all throughout the wholething haha. but he go sms ben tay to ask him help me get more sticks lol. i dint even say/show anything except perhaps killing the wall and tables with the broken off parts of the original stick. -.- haha well i must say thanks to jorel for like haha on his own accord go sms ben tay la. lol but i think he got really really scared of me -.- haha. like everyday i in class screw around one then go disturb him for fun haha. then suddenly i'm there my mind completely blank and i only know to destroy cos i dont have any outlet. haha well i guess if theres nothing to destroy i'll be destroying myself one day.
anw yea haha. i'm v o.o at myself cos i think i was really just mind blank and on a rampage and ppl like ben lee and josh were like freaked out too and telling me to just 'chill la'. and tedric sitting there looking freaked out at wat i'm doing. kevin not bullshitting with me cos he scared i not in mood or smth haha. well my mood was like the room la. dark. zz. haha. we both rmr the first time, then the table made a bloody loud sound. haha the door was open and the sound like filled the freaking junior block -.- lol cos we were inside and we could hear the sound outside zz. and jorel haha omg i dint even like really notice jorel cos i dint talk to him but i realised he must have been super scared -.- haha. zz. lol i nv knew i could be liddat lol. and having ppl freak out at me hahahahaha so funny now that i think back. wow i must have been scary la o.o hahaha. lol jorel being scared hahahahaha (Y).
lol. i think i watch too much ouran or smth cos i keep thinking jorel hiding one corner being scared HAHA ok nvm -.- no la. more of. like ouran shows a lot abt personalities so does a lot of shit i'm seeing now la. zz haha. so funny. jorel being scared haha.. i rly rly wonder how bad i was just now -.-
zz. practice was ok haha. lol. had lots of fun with pzx, kev lim, jon ho, jon gan, douglas, even jiakai who offed the lights lol. then in the dark we play guitar, shenzhang, etc, then v fun. then the hp torch light make stuff v eerie haha. then we play stairway to heaven haha. v cool lor haha. and during that nearly one hour session we developed the first idea for a game/activity for next year guitar camp.. hehe funnage omg :D damn cool yet damn fun haha.
haha. i'm damn zz abt that something haha. wahlao. i dont understand myself la. why i like that? its hardcore to like that la. i'm actually serious about it la o.o-ness..
well. i was pissed at a few things. lol. yea. and i really think i alr keep saying dont touch the damn sticks cos i needed them for the lit parody and when i come back i see one of the sticks broken la. -.-
haha donno la. u ask jorel wat happened lor haha. he was damn scared -.- haha. zz. i was damn pissed la. then i felt damn bad for the cleaner -.- cos he had to pick up so freaking many plastic and wood splinters haha. i made a damn lot of small splinters la i dint even know wat i was doing except being angry and on some rampage -.- zz.
i dint even talk to jorel at all throughout the wholething haha. but he go sms ben tay to ask him help me get more sticks lol. i dint even say/show anything except perhaps killing the wall and tables with the broken off parts of the original stick. -.- haha well i must say thanks to jorel for like haha on his own accord go sms ben tay la. lol but i think he got really really scared of me -.- haha. like everyday i in class screw around one then go disturb him for fun haha. then suddenly i'm there my mind completely blank and i only know to destroy cos i dont have any outlet. haha well i guess if theres nothing to destroy i'll be destroying myself one day.
anw yea haha. i'm v o.o at myself cos i think i was really just mind blank and on a rampage and ppl like ben lee and josh were like freaked out too and telling me to just 'chill la'. and tedric sitting there looking freaked out at wat i'm doing. kevin not bullshitting with me cos he scared i not in mood or smth haha. well my mood was like the room la. dark. zz. haha. we both rmr the first time, then the table made a bloody loud sound. haha the door was open and the sound like filled the freaking junior block -.- lol cos we were inside and we could hear the sound outside zz. and jorel haha omg i dint even like really notice jorel cos i dint talk to him but i realised he must have been super scared -.- haha. zz. lol i nv knew i could be liddat lol. and having ppl freak out at me hahahahaha so funny now that i think back. wow i must have been scary la o.o hahaha. lol jorel being scared hahahahaha (Y).
lol. i think i watch too much ouran or smth cos i keep thinking jorel hiding one corner being scared HAHA ok nvm -.- no la. more of. like ouran shows a lot abt personalities so does a lot of shit i'm seeing now la. zz haha. so funny. jorel being scared haha.. i rly rly wonder how bad i was just now -.-
zz. practice was ok haha. lol. had lots of fun with pzx, kev lim, jon ho, jon gan, douglas, even jiakai who offed the lights lol. then in the dark we play guitar, shenzhang, etc, then v fun. then the hp torch light make stuff v eerie haha. then we play stairway to heaven haha. v cool lor haha. and during that nearly one hour session we developed the first idea for a game/activity for next year guitar camp.. hehe funnage omg :D damn cool yet damn fun haha.
haha. i'm damn zz abt that something haha. wahlao. i dont understand myself la. why i like that? its hardcore to like that la. i'm actually serious about it la o.o-ness..
Thursday, September 28, 2006
today was the closest i've been to you.
i felt the touch. i could feel the warmth, from where i stood. that close.
damn stupid, why i always choose this kind one?
well i'm sorry i'm in love with a dream. and you're my daisy, you're my that green over at the other shore, unreachable and impossible. impossible haha. it will never happen.
i'm crazy and i'm sad haha. its not easy to express this in words. this is hardcore and stupid haha. but i can feel it.
you've seen this world more than i have, and this world's seen you more than i have too. its not just this, theres so much more, and thats too bad for me, on the inside and on the outside. stupid and crazily impossible.
still, you're my daisy. and i'm in love with my dream.
i felt the touch. i could feel the warmth, from where i stood. that close.
damn stupid, why i always choose this kind one?
well i'm sorry i'm in love with a dream. and you're my daisy, you're my that green over at the other shore, unreachable and impossible. impossible haha. it will never happen.
i'm crazy and i'm sad haha. its not easy to express this in words. this is hardcore and stupid haha. but i can feel it.
you've seen this world more than i have, and this world's seen you more than i have too. its not just this, theres so much more, and thats too bad for me, on the inside and on the outside. stupid and crazily impossible.
still, you're my daisy. and i'm in love with my dream.
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
haha omg tmr is thurs and i'm not going to music anymore? o.o >.< my gdness haha gonna be hard getting used to it..
zz. v v tired today haha. kept sleeping in car on the way to making ic. shit i typed passport -.- i keep saying passport -.- anw yea. lol. i vaguely rmr my dad waking me up and asking me to alight first on the road and i was like staring straight ahead and perhaps maybe even making uhh noises lol. zz. haha.
shall do work for today and maybe read a bit/refresh on greatgatsby cos i think theres like gonna be 'an essay test' tmr and i dunno how its gonna be fit in since we're gonna go thru our mindmaps, go thru the test from last term, and do the 'essay' test all in 1 h haha. zz lol.
chinese ct paper 1 tmr wtf a bit the fastzor only. plus lit parody due to present on mon and we havent rehearsed once.. zz haha.
OURAN HIGH LAST EPI NEXT ): ): ): omg so fast!!!!! epi 26 onlyyyyyy ): and its so sad they hint abt the breaking up of the host club etc. wth la ouran is a damn nice anime.. other than being funny and DAMN CUTE and sometimes sweet, it def explores, or at least tries hard to explore, diff personalities and all that.
like got one epi. they explain llike the current situation in the host club is at a equilibrium now, the relationships as frens and all that is perfect. and one of the twins speculated in monologue that perhaps tamaki doesnt dare to reveal his feelings for haruhi, or doesnt DARE to realise his feelings for haruhi, because he is very afraid to disturb this balance now they all have as frens and members of the host club.
then got like a lot of stuff la..the latest epi abt japanese high class status family politics, diff personalities each character takes and their reasons and rationale for doing things, and how they react to stuff and all that. kyouya got slapped!!!! >.< by his father wahlao.. because his father thought the host club was a dumb idea and he disgraced him. but kyouya is brilliant in managing the host club, and he really respects tamaki's personality and as a fren la then stick with him. wahlao ):
zz then tamaki wants to dissolve the host club and engage himself to the stupid slut eclaire tonneru or smth. cos of family politics also ): against his will la tmd.
AND WHY NEXT EPI LAST EPI ): I GONNA MISS HANI-SENPAI >: ( HANI-SENPAI ROCKS LOR HE DAMN CUTE OMGOMG :D he got flowers around him when he talk one! *^_^* HANI-SENPAI!
haha and i think ouran made me like yaoi :P haha yaoi rocks.. :x
(yaoi is like jap slash i think haha :D)
haha my nick rocks! keki taberu~~!! haha hani senpai LOVES CAKES HAHA. and cute stuff like bunnies! and he is a 'lovely item'! :D haha. keki taberu~~!! eat cakes! :D
ok ok i going crazy over ouran alr but its uber nice lorrrr.
zz actly i rly rly v exhausted and all that shit haha zz. but oh well. gotta go thru it all lor. zz.
haha i think right, if we cannot handle the situation, we shouldnt have even gone for it in the first place haha. if we're gonna make a commitment we shud make sure we can commit to it, before we make dumb decisions we think is mature. and even if afterwards we have to abolish this commitment, i think we should be able to handle the situation. if we cannot handle the situation, we should not have initiated, or give any way for it to happen. i think sometimes we might think we're wah quite mature cos we think a lot and think about this and that, and decide we shudnt do this and that with the crowd cos they are just 'shallow'. but i think sometimes we are the ones that are shallow and childish and stupid. i find us lame, the way we just went into it liddat. even lamer, that we know we need to give it attention and commitment, but we decide to not give it, even though we're already in it. even lamer, that we should know this kind of stuff are for ppl who have the time and commitment for it, that if we were to carry on, we should keep in mind to give it attention. even lamer, the way we dealt with it when we find that we have 'no time for it'. even lamer, that we think we are above the rest because we did this slightly different. even lamer, that we deciding to go off but to do it 'in a mature way by still remaining as what we were when we set out', that we think we think a lot when i think the way we handled it is quite childish and amateur.
lamest, that we are being childishly emo, grumbling about not being able to cope and handle the situation now, even though this is the shit we have landed ourselves into.
i'm sorry haha i'm damn harsh, but i dont see a shit bit of method in our zi yi wei shi childishness. i only see method in madness.
speaking of which! i need to go do work le! haha. no one understands that. keki taberu~~! :D
zz. v v tired today haha. kept sleeping in car on the way to making ic. shit i typed passport -.- i keep saying passport -.- anw yea. lol. i vaguely rmr my dad waking me up and asking me to alight first on the road and i was like staring straight ahead and perhaps maybe even making uhh noises lol. zz. haha.
shall do work for today and maybe read a bit/refresh on greatgatsby cos i think theres like gonna be 'an essay test' tmr and i dunno how its gonna be fit in since we're gonna go thru our mindmaps, go thru the test from last term, and do the 'essay' test all in 1 h haha. zz lol.
chinese ct paper 1 tmr wtf a bit the fastzor only. plus lit parody due to present on mon and we havent rehearsed once.. zz haha.
OURAN HIGH LAST EPI NEXT ): ): ): omg so fast!!!!! epi 26 onlyyyyyy ): and its so sad they hint abt the breaking up of the host club etc. wth la ouran is a damn nice anime.. other than being funny and DAMN CUTE and sometimes sweet, it def explores, or at least tries hard to explore, diff personalities and all that.
like got one epi. they explain llike the current situation in the host club is at a equilibrium now, the relationships as frens and all that is perfect. and one of the twins speculated in monologue that perhaps tamaki doesnt dare to reveal his feelings for haruhi, or doesnt DARE to realise his feelings for haruhi, because he is very afraid to disturb this balance now they all have as frens and members of the host club.
then got like a lot of stuff la..the latest epi abt japanese high class status family politics, diff personalities each character takes and their reasons and rationale for doing things, and how they react to stuff and all that. kyouya got slapped!!!! >.< by his father wahlao.. because his father thought the host club was a dumb idea and he disgraced him. but kyouya is brilliant in managing the host club, and he really respects tamaki's personality and as a fren la then stick with him. wahlao ):
zz then tamaki wants to dissolve the host club and engage himself to the stupid slut eclaire tonneru or smth. cos of family politics also ): against his will la tmd.
AND WHY NEXT EPI LAST EPI ): I GONNA MISS HANI-SENPAI >: ( HANI-SENPAI ROCKS LOR HE DAMN CUTE OMGOMG :D he got flowers around him when he talk one! *^_^* HANI-SENPAI!
haha and i think ouran made me like yaoi :P haha yaoi rocks.. :x
(yaoi is like jap slash i think haha :D)
haha my nick rocks! keki taberu~~!! haha hani senpai LOVES CAKES HAHA. and cute stuff like bunnies! and he is a 'lovely item'! :D haha. keki taberu~~!! eat cakes! :D
ok ok i going crazy over ouran alr but its uber nice lorrrr.
zz actly i rly rly v exhausted and all that shit haha zz. but oh well. gotta go thru it all lor. zz.
haha i think right, if we cannot handle the situation, we shouldnt have even gone for it in the first place haha. if we're gonna make a commitment we shud make sure we can commit to it, before we make dumb decisions we think is mature. and even if afterwards we have to abolish this commitment, i think we should be able to handle the situation. if we cannot handle the situation, we should not have initiated, or give any way for it to happen. i think sometimes we might think we're wah quite mature cos we think a lot and think about this and that, and decide we shudnt do this and that with the crowd cos they are just 'shallow'. but i think sometimes we are the ones that are shallow and childish and stupid. i find us lame, the way we just went into it liddat. even lamer, that we know we need to give it attention and commitment, but we decide to not give it, even though we're already in it. even lamer, that we should know this kind of stuff are for ppl who have the time and commitment for it, that if we were to carry on, we should keep in mind to give it attention. even lamer, the way we dealt with it when we find that we have 'no time for it'. even lamer, that we think we are above the rest because we did this slightly different. even lamer, that we deciding to go off but to do it 'in a mature way by still remaining as what we were when we set out', that we think we think a lot when i think the way we handled it is quite childish and amateur.
lamest, that we are being childishly emo, grumbling about not being able to cope and handle the situation now, even though this is the shit we have landed ourselves into.
i'm sorry haha i'm damn harsh, but i dont see a shit bit of method in our zi yi wei shi childishness. i only see method in madness.
speaking of which! i need to go do work le! haha. no one understands that. keki taberu~~! :D
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
sometimes we miss that touch so much, that we crash into each other, just so we can feel something.
lol random thought. haha. omg what the fuck am i doing!? o.o
lol random thought. haha. omg what the fuck am i doing!? o.o
haha today morn! lol i feltt damn like hani senpai plz! :D haha i was in a super small blazer! all i need is a bunny and a mori senpai and i can be a lovely item! ok nvm ouran high stuff -.- lol
havent been blogging i think? did expo prep ytd and haha yea i'm quite convinced on the topic i did on haha.
shud i nap! lol. maybe.... zz hahasee how first..!
yea on the mrt back today i saw MS TANG! hahaha she just came back form overseas and gonna leave again lor haha her life now sounds fun! lol. miss ss lessons with her haha. she asked abt our class and i updated her on stuff haha. v good.
then she gave me golden advice! haha. she told me i looked v sad T.T haha and i agree i guess.. i need to be happy :/ yea and she was like. "dont keep doing work la work. work will nv finish one.. :x oops i shudnt be saying that." haha. hmm. yea. i shudnt keep doing work! theres no end to it! and i neeeeed to be happy! >: (
havent been blogging i think? did expo prep ytd and haha yea i'm quite convinced on the topic i did on haha.
shud i nap! lol. maybe.... zz hahasee how first..!
yea on the mrt back today i saw MS TANG! hahaha she just came back form overseas and gonna leave again lor haha her life now sounds fun! lol. miss ss lessons with her haha. she asked abt our class and i updated her on stuff haha. v good.
then she gave me golden advice! haha. she told me i looked v sad T.T haha and i agree i guess.. i need to be happy :/ yea and she was like. "dont keep doing work la work. work will nv finish one.. :x oops i shudnt be saying that." haha. hmm. yea. i shudnt keep doing work! theres no end to it! and i neeeeed to be happy! >: (
Sunday, September 24, 2006
shameless.. x.x but hope it at least brought a smile amidst all your studying.? (:
lol i just realised this year is my first year without a birthday cake haha.
haha post 599! lol.
zz. i shudnt have tried to do work last night i husd have just slept right zz cos i keep trying to do work i dint really accomplish much and i keep falling asleep then in the end is like i fell asleep at abt 4? and woke at like 6? then went to slee till like 12? so i rly dunno if i slept 6 h or 8 h and if i slept 6 h that sucks ballsssssss.
yah. i hate it when i fall asleep. cos if i fall asleep, it feels as if i dint really get those hours of sleep. zz. i shud be more focused next time >: ( so now i also dunno how la it just feels very. zz weird. its like i'm in between tired and not tired and that kind of sucks.
boo. so much work for mon. haha. got math test chem test and eng debate and tues got eng expo. ok la. not super super super lot but i dunno how to prep for eng debate and expo which is gayness and pisses me off. zz. stupid eng eng sucks.
nvm. i must MUST be focused and atleast finish studying math and chem fast haha.
yah. i'll get focused after i eat my breakfast/lunch... heh
anw! i decided i shud like make saturday. tv night! haha since i dun watch any tv anymore, i shud i shud! haha. its like always at 10 i take dinner or smth then i watch my name is earl which is like. a comedy show but its er not rly funny just mostly amusing. but its got moral lessons! and its amusing is rly amusing haha. as in. dunno la. its like some simpsons episodes not that funny but i still like to watch cos yah.
then right. after that always got saturday night movie one! haha. last time got commercials one but now is commercial free.. haha nice lor. i alr caught quite a few movies this way. i am sam!!! :D:D damn touching and sweet. half of family man which is super nice but i left to do work ): tea leoni is so pretty ): as in not chio not hot or anyth shes just pretty! lol k nvm -.-
then ytd caught in america! haha which is uber nice too! haha christy v cute haha esp when she sing desperado! i almost forgot i used to love that song la.. its such a nice song haha. then its quite a cool movie cos got the mateo guy. who is like crazy and screams all day cos he v pissed he got aids or smth. he's an artist haha. then he looks super murderous -.- but when the girls went trick or treating on him, he opened the door to find that those ppl banging on his door arent junkies (who populate the building) but rather, two little girls. he lightened up a damn lot and haha invited them in and befriended them. its damn weird that such a murderous and strong looking big black man who screams all day would actly befriend those little girls lor. he spent a lot of time as frens with the family (who btw is trying to get over the death of one of their kids, frankie).
it seems that because mateo knows he is dying he embraces and is 'in love' with everything that lives. he suddenly cried when he heard abt frankie (probably knowing he'll end the same way). he has a keep away sign painted on his door for the junkies inthe building. well i interpreted it as he hates the junkies cos they take drugs and waste their lives away and not cherishing it, while he himself does not waste his life away yet does not get to enjoy it for long. perhaps this is why he embraced that family.
anw. he died. in the hospital. the new mateo (thats what the family named the new baby) was born. he was born prematurely and was in coma, just like the big mateo. but as he stirred from the coma so did the old mateo, just that old mateo woke and died.
back at home, the father of the family, when all was well alr, tries to cheer the younger daughter ariel up. she was sad that mateo dint say goodbye when he 'returned home'. he made her think that mateo was riding a bike over the moon (like et) and waving goodbye. christy is smart haha she said 'look! look at mateo and FRANKIE waving goodbye!'
then the papa not happy buay song look at her and start crying. but theres a reason la. everytime their family has fun and is getting on with their lives, they always remember frankie and they break down etc. frankie once told christy she had 'three wishes' and being a kid she believe la. but so far all her wishes were true.. and she used her last wish to ask her dad and her family to say good bye to frankie, not just cos they need to move on, but because she thinks thats not the way they should rmr frankie as. rmr the good stuff i guess? mateo once said when a spirit is happy, he wont be around anymore. yea so i guess when frankie sees his family happy again and his memory with him, he can finally move on too.
lol. all the guai lan movie titles i nv hear before one all quite nice leh haha. yeah. i think sat night rly turn into tv night -.-
ok that was quite a long post abt the movie haha. i shall go eat nao.
zz. i shudnt have tried to do work last night i husd have just slept right zz cos i keep trying to do work i dint really accomplish much and i keep falling asleep then in the end is like i fell asleep at abt 4? and woke at like 6? then went to slee till like 12? so i rly dunno if i slept 6 h or 8 h and if i slept 6 h that sucks ballsssssss.
yah. i hate it when i fall asleep. cos if i fall asleep, it feels as if i dint really get those hours of sleep. zz. i shud be more focused next time >: ( so now i also dunno how la it just feels very. zz weird. its like i'm in between tired and not tired and that kind of sucks.
boo. so much work for mon. haha. got math test chem test and eng debate and tues got eng expo. ok la. not super super super lot but i dunno how to prep for eng debate and expo which is gayness and pisses me off. zz. stupid eng eng sucks.
nvm. i must MUST be focused and atleast finish studying math and chem fast haha.
yah. i'll get focused after i eat my breakfast/lunch... heh
anw! i decided i shud like make saturday. tv night! haha since i dun watch any tv anymore, i shud i shud! haha. its like always at 10 i take dinner or smth then i watch my name is earl which is like. a comedy show but its er not rly funny just mostly amusing. but its got moral lessons! and its amusing is rly amusing haha. as in. dunno la. its like some simpsons episodes not that funny but i still like to watch cos yah.
then right. after that always got saturday night movie one! haha. last time got commercials one but now is commercial free.. haha nice lor. i alr caught quite a few movies this way. i am sam!!! :D:D damn touching and sweet. half of family man which is super nice but i left to do work ): tea leoni is so pretty ): as in not chio not hot or anyth shes just pretty! lol k nvm -.-
then ytd caught in america! haha which is uber nice too! haha christy v cute haha esp when she sing desperado! i almost forgot i used to love that song la.. its such a nice song haha. then its quite a cool movie cos got the mateo guy. who is like crazy and screams all day cos he v pissed he got aids or smth. he's an artist haha. then he looks super murderous -.- but when the girls went trick or treating on him, he opened the door to find that those ppl banging on his door arent junkies (who populate the building) but rather, two little girls. he lightened up a damn lot and haha invited them in and befriended them. its damn weird that such a murderous and strong looking big black man who screams all day would actly befriend those little girls lor. he spent a lot of time as frens with the family (who btw is trying to get over the death of one of their kids, frankie).
it seems that because mateo knows he is dying he embraces and is 'in love' with everything that lives. he suddenly cried when he heard abt frankie (probably knowing he'll end the same way). he has a keep away sign painted on his door for the junkies inthe building. well i interpreted it as he hates the junkies cos they take drugs and waste their lives away and not cherishing it, while he himself does not waste his life away yet does not get to enjoy it for long. perhaps this is why he embraced that family.
anw. he died. in the hospital. the new mateo (thats what the family named the new baby) was born. he was born prematurely and was in coma, just like the big mateo. but as he stirred from the coma so did the old mateo, just that old mateo woke and died.
back at home, the father of the family, when all was well alr, tries to cheer the younger daughter ariel up. she was sad that mateo dint say goodbye when he 'returned home'. he made her think that mateo was riding a bike over the moon (like et) and waving goodbye. christy is smart haha she said 'look! look at mateo and FRANKIE waving goodbye!'
then the papa not happy buay song look at her and start crying. but theres a reason la. everytime their family has fun and is getting on with their lives, they always remember frankie and they break down etc. frankie once told christy she had 'three wishes' and being a kid she believe la. but so far all her wishes were true.. and she used her last wish to ask her dad and her family to say good bye to frankie, not just cos they need to move on, but because she thinks thats not the way they should rmr frankie as. rmr the good stuff i guess? mateo once said when a spirit is happy, he wont be around anymore. yea so i guess when frankie sees his family happy again and his memory with him, he can finally move on too.
lol. all the guai lan movie titles i nv hear before one all quite nice leh haha. yeah. i think sat night rly turn into tv night -.-
ok that was quite a long post abt the movie haha. i shall go eat nao.
Friday, September 22, 2006
wow haha. what a day it was.. haha first practice! wow. a whole new exp haha.. now that the sec4s arent here anymore. its so weird for me that i'm actly standing up walking around talking and getting stuff done and all that. i get the key and i can like go in an hour early for all i care. ppl actly come to me to ask me qns and they actly take my word as law o.o. still very unbelievable to me that our batch is taking over as leaders leh. lol. jon ho v yong gong today i hope its liddat for everyone for ever! haha.
cant deny it was very very busy and tiring tho lol. wow. haha. first of many. i will get used to it and i will make sure i give more than my best to make sure this cca gets 101% of me. (:
it was a great day! esp starting work haha fresh! :D
but that doesnt change that fact that i slept 2 hours ytd so i FREAKING tired now?
in love with a dream. i think i'm dum.
cant deny it was very very busy and tiring tho lol. wow. haha. first of many. i will get used to it and i will make sure i give more than my best to make sure this cca gets 101% of me. (:
it was a great day! esp starting work haha fresh! :D
but that doesnt change that fact that i slept 2 hours ytd so i FREAKING tired now?
in love with a dream. i think i'm dum.
yay i dint let myself do work for the last 5 mins! now at 12 i start work haha YAY.
its quite amazing tho haha. time pass damn fast alr lor haha.. we shudnt rush our lives everyday! stop, turn and take a look around plz.. zz i must do more of that! haha.
another year goes unnoticed another few things left unsaid. the life i'm leading now is bullshit la tmd. hoho. after today i WANT A CHANGE.
its quite amazing tho haha. time pass damn fast alr lor haha.. we shudnt rush our lives everyday! stop, turn and take a look around plz.. zz i must do more of that! haha.
another year goes unnoticed another few things left unsaid. the life i'm leading now is bullshit la tmd. hoho. after today i WANT A CHANGE.
Thursday, September 21, 2006
i dint know neopets got special skin when u log in on ur bday one lor lol.
anw! thnx to everyone who rmred/wished me/etc! haha thnx a lot!
zz last thurs group music lesson today! ): gonna miss the class la omg. wahlao. 8 years tog alr leh. lol. rly rly gonna miss the class. as yian says.theres gonna be an emptyspaceon thurs now! lol. goodthing and bad thing zzzzz.
wah. tmd. i still got philo and eng debates to do. wtf. nabei. i hate it la tmd. ytd night spent studying for tests. today spent rushing nb work. nb la. nb nb nb. scumfk. -.- tmd rly damn sian leh wahlao. very zhuding that my bdays all suck zit zz. lol left like 5 mins still don spare me. good job la wahlao.
suckzor zz. stupid la. zz i go attempt to do work now. scumfk.
anw! thnx to everyone who rmred/wished me/etc! haha thnx a lot!
zz last thurs group music lesson today! ): gonna miss the class la omg. wahlao. 8 years tog alr leh. lol. rly rly gonna miss the class. as yian says.theres gonna be an emptyspaceon thurs now! lol. goodthing and bad thing zzzzz.
wah. tmd. i still got philo and eng debates to do. wtf. nabei. i hate it la tmd. ytd night spent studying for tests. today spent rushing nb work. nb la. nb nb nb. scumfk. -.- tmd rly damn sian leh wahlao. very zhuding that my bdays all suck zit zz. lol left like 5 mins still don spare me. good job la wahlao.
suckzor zz. stupid la. zz i go attempt to do work now. scumfk.
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
i've decided i'll do it all for you.
i'll take all the blows and all the insults. i'll take that step back and be seen as the loser.
i'll do it all just so i can be with you. forever.
my beloved sex goddess.
which is my elec guitar, btw..
i'll take all the blows and all the insults. i'll take that step back and be seen as the loser.
i'll do it all just so i can be with you. forever.
my beloved sex goddess.
which is my elec guitar, btw..
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
lol shit i'm getting scared.
haha a lot of ppl around me are like being paranoid and freaking out and getting stressed and too busy. with work. alr.
here i am playing ultimate bullseye................
=.= lol crap i better start doing work omg.. lol..
haha a lot of ppl around me are like being paranoid and freaking out and getting stressed and too busy. with work. alr.
here i am playing ultimate bullseye................
=.= lol crap i better start doing work omg.. lol..
haha i just realised the elecver of 'layla' by eric clapton brought back lots of memories. esp those mornings, or even saturday mornings, spent at plaza, suntec, etc during last year oct or nov or even dec liddat. haha. oh and nights of point and click adventures haha. samorost was the first word that leapt at me though i rmr i dint finish that game cos it was too laggy on my comp -.- lol. mornings and nights. not bad.
just learnt reptilia and readymade, and i think next i will learn.
math. yah got math test tmr omg. =.=
just learnt reptilia and readymade, and i think next i will learn.
math. yah got math test tmr omg. =.=
Monday, September 18, 2006
today was an ok ok day la. cos there are good moments. but as usual on the way home it ends up like shit.
anw haha. today was mainly full of shit. not just cos kev lim was lao sai-ing (and kept saying he needed to shit). haha there was a LOT of shen zhanging from me :D haha and a lot of crap talking (Y). a damn lot. haha and our lit presentation wasnt THAT bad lalalalalala.
chem was win. lol. me and kev kept doing dumb stuff esp kev haha he pour the deionized water into the beaker donno how many times cos he kept pouring too fast and spilling a bit -.- lol. then i started relating my titration test and how i forgot to clipthe burette so i wonder how come the burette nv fills.. then i look at my pants and i say gg..
then i used the rest of solution q to spam my pantsto remove the purple.. and the burette commited suicide anw.
then we forgot to add indicator and wonder how come we titrate nth happen blahblah a lot of dum stuff hahaha.
then was guitar agm haha..
today on the way back from music on the train i thought a lot haha. it suddenly hit me just how fast things were. today was the second last lesson for thur music class. thurs will be the last lesson EVER for this course omg. and it'd be 10 years with yamaha and thats it alr.. omg. this thurs would be the last lesson EVER for this course..
today. agm hand over. next tues is prometheum day alr.. omg i cannot believe. this fri training onwards is OUR batch leading alr leh. i rly rly cannot believe i cannot picture walking into a guitar room with us and the sec2s and no kovan or ari or xiang xiang (linky). no sec 4s... lol i cannot picture leh. its so fast its our batch's turn our batchs oneyear chance of leading us to the fore..
a long long time ago.. i can still rmr how the music made us smile. (american pie lyrics) anw yea. a long long time ago.. haha i can still rmr lor. we all had so freaking much time to screw around one lor. go out here and there stay out late here and there no work to do everynight can sleep at 11 one. haha. yeah.
and then now also. i dunno why la. prob cos more meals outside but my money seems to be disappearing faster lor. zz. must watch and not spend too much money unnecesarily.. lol..
there are 3 things i'd very much like to have la. as u can see. i need time and i need money. and i need you. haha yea. donno if you donno who you are or if you don wanna know who you are. (:
anw haha. today was mainly full of shit. not just cos kev lim was lao sai-ing (and kept saying he needed to shit). haha there was a LOT of shen zhanging from me :D haha and a lot of crap talking (Y). a damn lot. haha and our lit presentation wasnt THAT bad lalalalalala.
chem was win. lol. me and kev kept doing dumb stuff esp kev haha he pour the deionized water into the beaker donno how many times cos he kept pouring too fast and spilling a bit -.- lol. then i started relating my titration test and how i forgot to clipthe burette so i wonder how come the burette nv fills.. then i look at my pants and i say gg..
then i used the rest of solution q to spam my pantsto remove the purple.. and the burette commited suicide anw.
then we forgot to add indicator and wonder how come we titrate nth happen blahblah a lot of dum stuff hahaha.
then was guitar agm haha..
today on the way back from music on the train i thought a lot haha. it suddenly hit me just how fast things were. today was the second last lesson for thur music class. thurs will be the last lesson EVER for this course omg. and it'd be 10 years with yamaha and thats it alr.. omg. this thurs would be the last lesson EVER for this course..
today. agm hand over. next tues is prometheum day alr.. omg i cannot believe. this fri training onwards is OUR batch leading alr leh. i rly rly cannot believe i cannot picture walking into a guitar room with us and the sec2s and no kovan or ari or xiang xiang (linky). no sec 4s... lol i cannot picture leh. its so fast its our batch's turn our batchs oneyear chance of leading us to the fore..
a long long time ago.. i can still rmr how the music made us smile. (american pie lyrics) anw yea. a long long time ago.. haha i can still rmr lor. we all had so freaking much time to screw around one lor. go out here and there stay out late here and there no work to do everynight can sleep at 11 one. haha. yeah.
and then now also. i dunno why la. prob cos more meals outside but my money seems to be disappearing faster lor. zz. must watch and not spend too much money unnecesarily.. lol..
there are 3 things i'd very much like to have la. as u can see. i need time and i need money. and i need you. haha yea. donno if you donno who you are or if you don wanna know who you are. (:
Saturday, September 16, 2006
lol. 3 songs struck my memory cells just now. i rly dunno why. just really really really missed these songs and wanna listen to them. um. it was. don't phunk with my heart -.- heart-shaped box by nirvana, and bad day. lol. i dunno. zzz grah.
shit la. i suddenly miss last year. rly. i rly dunno why. i think its cos of don't phunk with my heart.. =.= i dunno why. it just brings me back to last year, which somehow, in my memories, seem like another life of mine. last year as in. april period liddat haha. wow. lol. hahahahaha. omg. late nights with isketch. mass transfers of songs. i dunno but somehow it seems very 'sunny' to me. perhaps thats cos of the m'sia montage.. wahlao lol. memories and brain stuff are weird la i cant even describe that thing i feel/recall -.- but yea. reminds me of last year.
then i watched family man and i realised tea leoni is omg damn chio -.- lol. and i realised/recalled a lot of other stuff after i watch a bit haha. zz. ): crap. lol. long time nv hear dont phunk with my heart alr la. really brings me back to those days. come to think of it, almost one half years ago alr lol. wow.
shit la. i suddenly miss last year. rly. i rly dunno why. i think its cos of don't phunk with my heart.. =.= i dunno why. it just brings me back to last year, which somehow, in my memories, seem like another life of mine. last year as in. april period liddat haha. wow. lol. hahahahaha. omg. late nights with isketch. mass transfers of songs. i dunno but somehow it seems very 'sunny' to me. perhaps thats cos of the m'sia montage.. wahlao lol. memories and brain stuff are weird la i cant even describe that thing i feel/recall -.- but yea. reminds me of last year.
then i watched family man and i realised tea leoni is omg damn chio -.- lol. and i realised/recalled a lot of other stuff after i watch a bit haha. zz. ): crap. lol. long time nv hear dont phunk with my heart alr la. really brings me back to those days. come to think of it, almost one half years ago alr lol. wow.
stupid people think money matters.
smart people think money doesnt matter.
ppl like me sometimes just wish i had the freaking money damnit.
ysc was ok haha. oral is a rip off. u either win for ur concurrent session or u dont get a prize -.-
i realised i know 18 ppl's bdays in september. i wish they all come for my ysc then i could 'utilise them in my project'. lol.
i HAVE been blogging. well if it doesnt appear here it means it in the drafts.
smart people think money doesnt matter.
ppl like me sometimes just wish i had the freaking money damnit.
ysc was ok haha. oral is a rip off. u either win for ur concurrent session or u dont get a prize -.-
i realised i know 18 ppl's bdays in september. i wish they all come for my ysc then i could 'utilise them in my project'. lol.
i HAVE been blogging. well if it doesnt appear here it means it in the drafts.
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Thursday, September 14, 2006
zz. back home after music. very zz cos i practed motif like siao and the only thing he nv ask to hear is motif.. then concert pieces i keep screwing up wahlao. and its our 3rd last lesson meaning concert is next thu (Y).
but damn funny haha. u know how mr yeo called me out to go play impro? he obsessed with calling ppl's msn nick can. he was like. 'omg your so beautiful hahaha its your turn to play' or smth liddat -.- lol. referring to my msn nick a few days back -.- 'omg your so pretty blahblahblah' wth la hahahaha damn funny can... then i going out that time i was like.. o.O" wtf!??!?! then i think erm ppl got hear me hrm hrm.
sch was ok haha. except we made lame stuff abt gatsby and all that crap. like haha. edmund said smth like. gatsby wanted to go after daisy. after 5 years he finally made IT big. then he tried to get daisy back. and all of us were like. lol. he took FIVE YEARS to make IT big so that he can SATISFY daisy again. -.- then gatsby is an oxford man then i wa like telling leo abt coxford -.- then i was like. shit no wonder gatsby failed coxford. he took 5 years to make it big leh.. ok nvm.
and i just rmr wat mr soon's new greeting system is -.- lol. ytd he was like. i insist you guys to use this new greeting system for me ar. next time the class ends, you must say. thank you and see you SOON. er er er -.- omg can zz from lameness can T_T.
ysc briefing + upload tmr. omg zz. lol. sat = screw up = over :( BOOOOOOOOOO. tmd. i'm very tired and overwhelmed with a lot of things on my mind very zz la wahlao omg -.- today i overslept on the train and ended up in tampines. (:
but damn funny haha. u know how mr yeo called me out to go play impro? he obsessed with calling ppl's msn nick can. he was like. 'omg your so beautiful hahaha its your turn to play' or smth liddat -.- lol. referring to my msn nick a few days back -.- 'omg your so pretty blahblahblah' wth la hahahaha damn funny can... then i going out that time i was like.. o.O" wtf!??!?! then i think erm ppl got hear me hrm hrm.
sch was ok haha. except we made lame stuff abt gatsby and all that crap. like haha. edmund said smth like. gatsby wanted to go after daisy. after 5 years he finally made IT big. then he tried to get daisy back. and all of us were like. lol. he took FIVE YEARS to make IT big so that he can SATISFY daisy again. -.- then gatsby is an oxford man then i wa like telling leo abt coxford -.- then i was like. shit no wonder gatsby failed coxford. he took 5 years to make it big leh.. ok nvm.
and i just rmr wat mr soon's new greeting system is -.- lol. ytd he was like. i insist you guys to use this new greeting system for me ar. next time the class ends, you must say. thank you and see you SOON. er er er -.- omg can zz from lameness can T_T.
ysc briefing + upload tmr. omg zz. lol. sat = screw up = over :( BOOOOOOOOOO. tmd. i'm very tired and overwhelmed with a lot of things on my mind very zz la wahlao omg -.- today i overslept on the train and ended up in tampines. (:
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
some one call the plumber.. my nose is a running tap..
yea was the whole of today.. u shud see the long lasting tissue i used.. lol see how soaked it was after the china ambassador talk -.-
lol today was ok ok la. talk a lot of crap with kev lim in class haha. we talk a lot of rubbish one (Y). talking shit rocks haha damn funnage..
except chi i like slept -.- cos i was listening then somehow i was on the table and the next thing i knew she left class alr and then i continued to sleep during lunch can then wake alr v zz. then had to go for ambassador talk.
which i was trying to fold an elephant! the elephant is damn cute ok josh rocks haha i shall learn it haha its sooo cute! lol. after ambassador talk went for lunch/dinner with tom will zhi haha. excpet kfc gave me damn small portions -.- wahlao.
lol. on the way home v tired also booo. zz. prob cos i nv sleep during the ambassador talk i was busy trying to learn how to fold an elephant -.- haha. now back have to do ysc wtf zzzzzzzzzzzzz.
haha for those who nv go rage xi! you missed out on life. (:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P3AKlgEotQU
ok ok ego -.- at least i nv post the whole vid here la. and its the only vid i have ): haha i better go do work alr!
yea was the whole of today.. u shud see the long lasting tissue i used.. lol see how soaked it was after the china ambassador talk -.-
lol today was ok ok la. talk a lot of crap with kev lim in class haha. we talk a lot of rubbish one (Y). talking shit rocks haha damn funnage..
except chi i like slept -.- cos i was listening then somehow i was on the table and the next thing i knew she left class alr and then i continued to sleep during lunch can then wake alr v zz. then had to go for ambassador talk.
which i was trying to fold an elephant! the elephant is damn cute ok josh rocks haha i shall learn it haha its sooo cute! lol. after ambassador talk went for lunch/dinner with tom will zhi haha. excpet kfc gave me damn small portions -.- wahlao.
lol. on the way home v tired also booo. zz. prob cos i nv sleep during the ambassador talk i was busy trying to learn how to fold an elephant -.- haha. now back have to do ysc wtf zzzzzzzzzzzzz.
haha for those who nv go rage xi! you missed out on life. (:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P3AKlgEotQU
ok ok ego -.- at least i nv post the whole vid here la. and its the only vid i have ): haha i better go do work alr!
Monday, September 11, 2006
haha. they take away re for lessons. good job. now ysc even more good job. more lessons also v good job!
but we had two free periods today haha.. spent it showing ppl like jorel and jotham and leo music like iron maiden and dragonforce haha. (Y)
i think gareth and ding are sweeeeet. >.<
oops. :x hahaha
OH YAH today while going home i was thinking abt whos bdays were in sept cos i realise i know a hell lot of ppl one la. THEN I REALISE. omg. i wished chels but i dint wish SALAH when BOTH were on same day!!! OMG SO SORRY. anw yah u get these few lines dedicated to you aww HAPPY BELATED BDAY SALAH!! so so sorry!
anw haha. i had big headache today zz. guess why. oh its cos i slept late last night! x.x haha went to nap. before that i like had stomach ache etc. then after i wake up also got. and i think usu everyday illness i can like identify roughly alr la. haha. like cold from flu etc. i think i having stomach flu la.
bleh. dowan to disgust ppl with details haha but i think i draw random connections when i'm feeling screwed up zz. like when u sit v long in the toilet haha.
anw. i realised. ok so theres this king diamond song called the 7th day of july, 1777. (you can google lyrics) in which count de lavey discovers that his pregnant wife has been cheating on him. he decides that 'no bastard baby shall inherit whats [his]'.
er. 'so he pushed her down the stairs.. she dies! NO! she cries..' well she cried cos yea she dint die.. -.- cos right she broke her neck and her embryo fell out of her womb -.-
um. well she dint die so count da lavey decided to burn her -.- and he decided to name the baby ABIGAIL. he says, 'abigail you must rest in shame.. REST IN SHAME. [insert solo.]' ABIGAIL was his wife's SIN.
but he dint burn the baby.. he had an 'idea'. he decided 'the baby girl he mummify, for the future to find.'
'AND HE DID.' thats the end of the song -.- (btw, all the quoted lines are rly lyrics..)
yea so um. u know the story of the song alr la. then right. i realised. THIS YEAR. 2006. the 7th day of july, was the president's young performer's concert. jon lim played a concerto with the sso on that day.
TODAY. someone told me a pro person called ABIGAIL SIN 'played the concerto jon lim played on the 7th july rmr?' lol you see the wonderful mystical connection!? the end of the world is approaching.. count de lavey and his flying fetus must be the ones haunting the bio lab.
anw thats what u get from squatting in a toilet for half an hour.. i shall do work now..
but we had two free periods today haha.. spent it showing ppl like jorel and jotham and leo music like iron maiden and dragonforce haha. (Y)
i think gareth and ding are sweeeeet. >.<
oops. :x hahaha
OH YAH today while going home i was thinking abt whos bdays were in sept cos i realise i know a hell lot of ppl one la. THEN I REALISE. omg. i wished chels but i dint wish SALAH when BOTH were on same day!!! OMG SO SORRY. anw yah u get these few lines dedicated to you aww HAPPY BELATED BDAY SALAH!! so so sorry!
anw haha. i had big headache today zz. guess why. oh its cos i slept late last night! x.x haha went to nap. before that i like had stomach ache etc. then after i wake up also got. and i think usu everyday illness i can like identify roughly alr la. haha. like cold from flu etc. i think i having stomach flu la.
bleh. dowan to disgust ppl with details haha but i think i draw random connections when i'm feeling screwed up zz. like when u sit v long in the toilet haha.
anw. i realised. ok so theres this king diamond song called the 7th day of july, 1777. (you can google lyrics) in which count de lavey discovers that his pregnant wife has been cheating on him. he decides that 'no bastard baby shall inherit whats [his]'.
er. 'so he pushed her down the stairs.. she dies! NO! she cries..' well she cried cos yea she dint die.. -.- cos right she broke her neck and her embryo fell out of her womb -.-
um. well she dint die so count da lavey decided to burn her -.- and he decided to name the baby ABIGAIL. he says, 'abigail you must rest in shame.. REST IN SHAME. [insert solo.]' ABIGAIL was his wife's SIN.
but he dint burn the baby.. he had an 'idea'. he decided 'the baby girl he mummify, for the future to find.'
'AND HE DID.' thats the end of the song -.- (btw, all the quoted lines are rly lyrics..)
yea so um. u know the story of the song alr la. then right. i realised. THIS YEAR. 2006. the 7th day of july, was the president's young performer's concert. jon lim played a concerto with the sso on that day.
TODAY. someone told me a pro person called ABIGAIL SIN 'played the concerto jon lim played on the 7th july rmr?' lol you see the wonderful mystical connection!? the end of the world is approaching.. count de lavey and his flying fetus must be the ones haunting the bio lab.
anw thats what u get from squatting in a toilet for half an hour.. i shall do work now..
Sunday, September 10, 2006
haha i was playing snowmuncher! :D and i realise i kept dropping snow blocks on myself -.- so that i can hear the OW hahahahahha so funny the OW. :D
i liked just now. thats how i liked it. i like the grey gloomy sky and the damn damn strong wind and the smell of rain. i liked that just now. thats one of the few random atmospheric things i like haha.
very sudden tho, the change from sunny weather to such a dark sky i cant even see my keyboard well now haha.
woke at 2 cos i slept at 6.. now to start on my erp..
you know when your upper or lower eyelid throbs/pulsate/spasm subtlely? those random random come one? haha those that supposedly mean someone is thinking of you? lol. my upper LIP. is having that now.
very sudden tho, the change from sunny weather to such a dark sky i cant even see my keyboard well now haha.
woke at 2 cos i slept at 6.. now to start on my erp..
you know when your upper or lower eyelid throbs/pulsate/spasm subtlely? those random random come one? haha those that supposedly mean someone is thinking of you? lol. my upper LIP. is having that now.
Saturday, September 09, 2006
my goodness. i woke up saying, 'kanineh. your life sucks.'
Friday, September 08, 2006
zz i donno but i think i screwed up interview. great haha. smth, actly the one thing, that i always wanted always tried to go for. i kept myself free of other commitments so that i can take on this role, and when i take it on i cangive my all for it. its not just smth i wanted and wanted to go for, its smth my passion and my drive led me to eventually. i stay up late at night with no one but you in my arms. i just wish i could get a chance to be at the head of all that, doing my best to influence ppl to stay up late at night with them in their arms, not because they have to, but because they love to. i really wish i could just get a chance an attempt at that. make ppl come not cos its their duty or they'll get screwed for it, but come becausethey enjoying being there, enjoy it all. love what they are doing. i really want that chance haha.
anw i think i screwed it. came back slept was rly tired out. haha. practed piano (not much dueto sleep.. which wasnt much anw) and went to plaza for mr yeo's farewelldinner. haha. at pizza hut. nice nice. except jevvie poured drink all over himself haha. (Y) job! we speculate he was trying to get some ppl attention.. hmm..
music haha. was great. i think daniel's impromtu motif was nice leh rly. haha he turn around ask me which ones -.- before he went out haha. and he came up with some damn damn random thing haha which i thought was nice know..
after music went movie with class haha. before that had abt 30 mins. lol. me jev daniel went times to look at mags and daniel started smelling magazines.. rushed to carrefour to buy snacks cos we realised that was a good idea.. haha i stopped a lot of times to scratch my leg (Y). fun..
went up to meet the rest and went in! haha. nice show haha shud try to catch..
after movie was 1130 haha. dark and deserted plaza rocks. the other time where it is so deserted is on a weekday morning. haha. anw went runnign around with jev and i started taking pics of the ulufied place.. raced down the still travelator and got scolded. walked with jev to mrt haha and he ran for the last train (due in around 1 min..) haha and he made it. i walked around thedeserted mrt haha and went to see wat took over xsquares place. a lan shop.. great thnx a lot.. all the fun times we had la. zz.
went back to plaza and walked the first floor haha.. dark and shops closed and almost no ppl.. haha. reminded me of almost a year ago when go in the early early morn haha.. got watch hpgof that was like 9 or smth haha ulufied.. another time go around 8 plus 9. sit at macs listen diff ipods haha eat breakfast. walk around plaza with all the shops closed like today. only one or two ppl,mostly cleaning or shop keepers haha. that morn was like just now except the doors were open and it was bright outside haha. rmr talking abt ps 2 games -.- such as dynasty warriors......... -.-
anw haha i like plaza at 12 mn i guess. so quiet all the shops closed its dark like siao and no one at all. walk around enjoy the quiet atmos. ppl esp my meta usu dun see a shopping mall in city area in this light (haha in this dark -.-) before. yea. i think its nice. its one of those random atmos i like. such as grey skies vs city scape, extreme wind in s'pore. yea. one of those atmos i like. oh yea. reminds me of urbanization vs alienation. haha. lonely in the big city came from such a cheem sounding concept..
ok la. its like 1.35 now. tmr i have the whole day free and i wonder how my last weekday holiday will be spent. rotting at home probably.
i'm confused and tired and its been some time for many things. yea haha. wonder when till come along again haha.
anw i think i screwed it. came back slept was rly tired out. haha. practed piano (not much dueto sleep.. which wasnt much anw) and went to plaza for mr yeo's farewelldinner. haha. at pizza hut. nice nice. except jevvie poured drink all over himself haha. (Y) job! we speculate he was trying to get some ppl attention.. hmm..
music haha. was great. i think daniel's impromtu motif was nice leh rly. haha he turn around ask me which ones -.- before he went out haha. and he came up with some damn damn random thing haha which i thought was nice know..
after music went movie with class haha. before that had abt 30 mins. lol. me jev daniel went times to look at mags and daniel started smelling magazines.. rushed to carrefour to buy snacks cos we realised that was a good idea.. haha i stopped a lot of times to scratch my leg (Y). fun..
went up to meet the rest and went in! haha. nice show haha shud try to catch..
after movie was 1130 haha. dark and deserted plaza rocks. the other time where it is so deserted is on a weekday morning. haha. anw went runnign around with jev and i started taking pics of the ulufied place.. raced down the still travelator and got scolded. walked with jev to mrt haha and he ran for the last train (due in around 1 min..) haha and he made it. i walked around thedeserted mrt haha and went to see wat took over xsquares place. a lan shop.. great thnx a lot.. all the fun times we had la. zz.
went back to plaza and walked the first floor haha.. dark and shops closed and almost no ppl.. haha. reminded me of almost a year ago when go in the early early morn haha.. got watch hpgof that was like 9 or smth haha ulufied.. another time go around 8 plus 9. sit at macs listen diff ipods haha eat breakfast. walk around plaza with all the shops closed like today. only one or two ppl,mostly cleaning or shop keepers haha. that morn was like just now except the doors were open and it was bright outside haha. rmr talking abt ps 2 games -.- such as dynasty warriors......... -.-
anw haha i like plaza at 12 mn i guess. so quiet all the shops closed its dark like siao and no one at all. walk around enjoy the quiet atmos. ppl esp my meta usu dun see a shopping mall in city area in this light (haha in this dark -.-) before. yea. i think its nice. its one of those random atmos i like. such as grey skies vs city scape, extreme wind in s'pore. yea. one of those atmos i like. oh yea. reminds me of urbanization vs alienation. haha. lonely in the big city came from such a cheem sounding concept..
ok la. its like 1.35 now. tmr i have the whole day free and i wonder how my last weekday holiday will be spent. rotting at home probably.
i'm confused and tired and its been some time for many things. yea haha. wonder when till come along again haha.
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
here he is in all of us.
which day's gonna be our last on earth?
Monday, September 04, 2006
i was eating a nimm2 sweet haha. my that tube bought almost as usual from after a thurs music class. was trying to prop the next sweet out but couldnt. tore it open and saw haha. fault in processing - the sweet was left unwrapped haha. packed into the tube unwrapped! haha dont think its that a common occurrence? different.
i eat the sweet anyway.
oh i realise good ideas usually come after when things are over. lol. cos we keep thinking into retrospect and we keep thinking and thinking and replaying events in our head and often times we go like 'shit i shudda done that right tmd'. yea. thats why its like after smth then u start thinking shit i shudda done that.
haha and there are times where i stand outside my body and i look at myself and what i'm actually gonna do, and i look back and say wtf. anything for that. haha i'm actually willing to do dumb irrationale things for that. anything for that. whats this obsession? haha. i cant believe i actually go the extra mile just to. thats how bad it is.
well while we're on the topic of gold-hats and bouncing high, haha i just wonder how much higher do i bounce. just how much higher will i bounce.
just came back from tampines library haha its the 2nd time in my life i've been there -.- and i donno how to borrow books (: haha. and i think ppl hate me cos i search like all the authors and i only find like one book -.- damn wat la wahlao. i wanted to read who's afraid of virginia woolf but their copy is missing/on loan wahlao! now i got arthur miller's death of a salesman.. i hope its easy to read zz.
rewatching l'amelie poulain! :D so cool the show haha so intricate yet sweet yet nice and curious. haha small aspects of life.
fur pies dont sell! xD
edit. haha do i sound upset or smth in this post -.- lol cos i read (after i showered) and i realise, 'ok..'. anw today was an ok ok day just just now before i shower i abit gong gong zz haha.
i eat the sweet anyway.
oh i realise good ideas usually come after when things are over. lol. cos we keep thinking into retrospect and we keep thinking and thinking and replaying events in our head and often times we go like 'shit i shudda done that right tmd'. yea. thats why its like after smth then u start thinking shit i shudda done that.
haha and there are times where i stand outside my body and i look at myself and what i'm actually gonna do, and i look back and say wtf. anything for that. haha i'm actually willing to do dumb irrationale things for that. anything for that. whats this obsession? haha. i cant believe i actually go the extra mile just to. thats how bad it is.
well while we're on the topic of gold-hats and bouncing high, haha i just wonder how much higher do i bounce. just how much higher will i bounce.
just came back from tampines library haha its the 2nd time in my life i've been there -.- and i donno how to borrow books (: haha. and i think ppl hate me cos i search like all the authors and i only find like one book -.- damn wat la wahlao. i wanted to read who's afraid of virginia woolf but their copy is missing/on loan wahlao! now i got arthur miller's death of a salesman.. i hope its easy to read zz.
rewatching l'amelie poulain! :D so cool the show haha so intricate yet sweet yet nice and curious. haha small aspects of life.
fur pies dont sell! xD
edit. haha do i sound upset or smth in this post -.- lol cos i read (after i showered) and i realise, 'ok..'. anw today was an ok ok day just just now before i shower i abit gong gong zz haha.
Saturday, September 02, 2006
i really long to be back in yesterday.
haha i went to shop at orchard just now!
by myself! :D haha for those of you devout advocates in the belief that i am scandalous and not lonely as i 'claim to be', this fuck is in your face.
anw. went hmv! then went to taka to get my mothers bday prez haha. i got her a nice musicbox and a card! not rly music box la.. just the music maker itself >< i'm obsessed tis so nice hearing the light metallic yet angelic 'ting ting ting's of tunes like. yesterday, my way, and especially yellowsubmarine! so cute can. esp yellowsubmarine its like a march!
went kino and bought red dragon by thomas harris haha. its the last book i dont have of the hannibal lecter trilogy so far (i heard a fourth book on hannibal's childhood is coming out :D). hahaha. dr lecter rocks. its a brilliant series i wanted red dragonfor some time now yay haha can read.
(did i mention, screw erp books? i'm not gonna read?)
i also bought heavier than heaven, which is a biography of kurt cobain. rip.
anw at kino, i realised something haha. you always able to spot ppl. i cant, much. at first i thought perhaps i was less aware of my surroundings but i think not.. because of your nature perhaps, you are very aware of ppl, how they look and what they do. whether they look like ppl you know, or are ppl you know. i guess i'm diff? cos i'm more aware of my surroundings in terms of things. i can scan things fast. rmr scenes quite vividly in my mind. the details. whats it with people?
and i just fell into. hmm a state of. i also dunno how to describe. but i realise some ppl around me are 'grown up' i'm sorry i cant find a better word for it.. well some ppl's parents are either super open minded, or they see their children as more grown up and thus give them more freedom alr. am i jealous? to be frank, i really am not sure. perhaps i am, or perhaps i'm just reminiscent of some good times i've had.
like as i walked up taka. down taka. to diff shops. the basement there. hahaha. oooh. i've been there. past tense. just like ytd night right before i fell asleep doing my lit essay, i was going thru my pictures folder and before i knew it i reached that photo haha. 'you know why i was smiling so sweetly? :D' hahaha. good things never last and as i am happy for others, i'm alr thinking when the tears will come.
is that a reason why i fail to treasure the present instead i look too much into the future? i dont really care now haha because i have no present to treasure much less a future to worry about. my head is cloudy and my neck again tired. its all in a mess and in a blur and theres nothing to the light at the end of my tunnel except perhaps its a freight train coming my way. i dont even know if i'm able to articulate how i feel now accurately. but i'm feeling as if i'm going nowhere, and its because i have nowhere to go.
i rly cant believe i went orchard alone. i hope those who have an inaccurate picture of me in their heads finally fucking believe me about what i say abt myself.
i wonder whats my life coming to? haha.. what happened to ppl around me. lol. how come i become so lonely.. i realise i dun have much frens haha (Y). maybe i should go around flirting and screwing around with girls again like in sec 1 haha.
on the other hand i now have 2 books and a cd to screw around with. doubt anyone's gonna understand this post.
by myself! :D haha for those of you devout advocates in the belief that i am scandalous and not lonely as i 'claim to be', this fuck is in your face.
anw. went hmv! then went to taka to get my mothers bday prez haha. i got her a nice musicbox and a card! not rly music box la.. just the music maker itself >< i'm obsessed tis so nice hearing the light metallic yet angelic 'ting ting ting's of tunes like. yesterday, my way, and especially yellowsubmarine! so cute can. esp yellowsubmarine its like a march!
went kino and bought red dragon by thomas harris haha. its the last book i dont have of the hannibal lecter trilogy so far (i heard a fourth book on hannibal's childhood is coming out :D). hahaha. dr lecter rocks. its a brilliant series i wanted red dragonfor some time now yay haha can read.
(did i mention, screw erp books? i'm not gonna read?)
i also bought heavier than heaven, which is a biography of kurt cobain. rip.
anw at kino, i realised something haha. you always able to spot ppl. i cant, much. at first i thought perhaps i was less aware of my surroundings but i think not.. because of your nature perhaps, you are very aware of ppl, how they look and what they do. whether they look like ppl you know, or are ppl you know. i guess i'm diff? cos i'm more aware of my surroundings in terms of things. i can scan things fast. rmr scenes quite vividly in my mind. the details. whats it with people?
and i just fell into. hmm a state of. i also dunno how to describe. but i realise some ppl around me are 'grown up' i'm sorry i cant find a better word for it.. well some ppl's parents are either super open minded, or they see their children as more grown up and thus give them more freedom alr. am i jealous? to be frank, i really am not sure. perhaps i am, or perhaps i'm just reminiscent of some good times i've had.
like as i walked up taka. down taka. to diff shops. the basement there. hahaha. oooh. i've been there. past tense. just like ytd night right before i fell asleep doing my lit essay, i was going thru my pictures folder and before i knew it i reached that photo haha. 'you know why i was smiling so sweetly? :D' hahaha. good things never last and as i am happy for others, i'm alr thinking when the tears will come.
is that a reason why i fail to treasure the present instead i look too much into the future? i dont really care now haha because i have no present to treasure much less a future to worry about. my head is cloudy and my neck again tired. its all in a mess and in a blur and theres nothing to the light at the end of my tunnel except perhaps its a freight train coming my way. i dont even know if i'm able to articulate how i feel now accurately. but i'm feeling as if i'm going nowhere, and its because i have nowhere to go.
i rly cant believe i went orchard alone. i hope those who have an inaccurate picture of me in their heads finally fucking believe me about what i say abt myself.
i wonder whats my life coming to? haha.. what happened to ppl around me. lol. how come i become so lonely.. i realise i dun have much frens haha (Y). maybe i should go around flirting and screwing around with girls again like in sec 1 haha.
on the other hand i now have 2 books and a cd to screw around with. doubt anyone's gonna understand this post.
today saw the beginings of a nice song. beautiful chords stubbornly the same unique shape throughout. as stubborn and as beautiful as you.