haha its been some time since i blogged, life's been busy. or rather, working life :(

tmr (or today rather) i have my 2nd HO1 call. fk lol. i so dread it sigh. damn inexperienced at HO1 call and had a traumatic first one. sigh. feel like shit about it still.

always trying to stop the bad tomorrows from coming. greedy idealistic me, only welcome the good tomorrows.

keep trying to stay up late, prevent tomorrow from coming. ofc it doesn't work, backfires always as i have even less sleep.

the movie comes to an end. the show comes to an end. it all comes to an end. and then the next thing begin. its shit when the next thing is shit. like tomorrow sigh.

i have a countdown timer for calls. i don't give a damn to the possibility that it makes time crawl slower (it doesn't. times goes only a second at a time, always. the one lesson i learnt during army, the one constant that fortunately thus far, has only brought comfort, and not too much the bad side of "time that crawls" (re-spoiler: it doesn't. its constant.))

on a side note, need more smells of this month. my favourite incense burning, kim zua burning smells.


to the end of this call. and the one next tuesday. and the HO2 call next next saturday.

to the warmth of a nest. only thing i want, only tomorrow i look forward to :)