beautiful, isnt it
Friday, May 29, 2015
I recognise this feeling. It's that horrible feeling of dread. That I had before every book in, for NS. It's the most horrible feeling I've known in my life, and it's so bad. It's lonely, and it's just full of dread.

And now I feel the same for all my calls. Fuck..
at 7:03 PM
Sunday, May 24, 2015
even playing the cat game now because of you.. its cute, but it reminds me of the cuter you, smiling away being happy playing the game :) it also reminds me of japan which i miss.. japan trip which i went with you :) reminds me of the yard of our koyasan accommodation haha, imagine a bunch of cats playing there.

i love you :)
at 1:02 AM
Tuesday, May 12, 2015
POD 9:

prioritisation into:

- life threatening

- potentially life threatening

- fuck off la
at 11:16 PM
Sunday, May 10, 2015
POD 7:

 :(

:( because tomorrow i'm on call
:( because reg messaged me saying he has "an assignment for me tomorrow, remind him again" - worried simply because it is an unknown, i hate surprises, it better not be anything bad..
:( because the weekend is ending, and i don't always get weekends off


the only nice thing is looking at you sleeping soundly like a baby right next to me :)

sayang, its amazing to have you by my side.

want to go taiwan, japan again, and your cruise, with you soon..
at 5:29 PM
Wednesday, May 06, 2015
POD 3:

"...

I was like you once, worried and pre-occupied with all these. Then I realised. So long as it is filled not, nobody really reads it or cares."
at 11:15 PM
Tuesday, May 05, 2015
POD 2:

"Why are you so tired? Are the cases boring?"

"Of course they are. Then again they are not. Because I look at that old lady trying to get my attention while lying in HD bed and when nurse asked, it was cos she wanted to ask me how old I am because she says I look like her grandson, and that's when I know why the fuck I'm doing this. And then all disappears in a wisp of smoke the next moment when she addresses her granddaughter as both her deceased parents at the same time before turning violent, and I realise she has AMS."
at 10:24 PM
Sunday, May 03, 2015
one more day with you.

the kind of feeling i'm feeling? the dread of booking in, the "dread" of starting work, the absolute devastation i seem to have envisioning moments away from you? it's never been before, and it tells me something. and you have no idea how grateful i am that yesterday was pretend-sunday, so i get one more day with you tomorrow.

one more day with you. maybe that's all i'll need from now to fight on. :)
at 4:50 AM