beautiful, isnt it
Sunday, September 30, 2012
stop freaking out!! accept what it is and always was.

i'm so tired
at 6:29 PM
Saturday, September 29, 2012
when i have a wife and kid, i'll find reason haha

sleeping to dream about you
and i'm so tired
of having to live without you
but i don't mind :3
i'm sleeping to dream about you and i'm so tired


today's truly a great day haha (:
at 1:33 AM
Friday, September 28, 2012


This romeo is bleeding
But you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up

It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up
I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me

And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always

Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I've made mistakes, I'm just a man

When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you've been needing to hear
I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mine
To say to you till the end of time

Yeah, I will love you baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always

If you told me to cry for you
I could
If you told me to die for you
I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you

Well, there ain't no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We'll find a place where the sun still shines

And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always


it'd be nice if this just continues :>

i like the way you coil my apple cable haha.
at 1:50 PM
Thursday, September 27, 2012
badass. cowboy.

smthsmthsmth, only the names have changed.

i wish that you have sweet dreams tonight, whoever it is that you dream of haha.
at 1:27 AM
Sunday, September 23, 2012
peace. :D
at 10:08 PM
Thursday, September 20, 2012
i'm really sorry hiok. won't you forgive me?

it is time to accept your fate, accept who you are. i am someone who is very happy, feels very happy, when i see others happy. i even get so excited, when i paint crazily ludicrous happy situations for others.

you worry about whether others are doing well, worry if they'll do fine. worry that they feel they are not. even when it doesn't concern you at all. you worry if they've rested well, if they've enjoyed themselves. you worry if they don't do well, if they are safe.. you're not so good at doing so to yourself, and so you try. but in every way, you fail as badly as possible. but that's fine because it doesn't seem to concern you as much. as much as feeling excited for others, or worrying for them. its ok i guess that you're not very good at that, cos i think you do a good job at what you do best.

even when you declare you don't care.. you still do. even when you try so hard not to. in your heart you whisper well wishes equivalent to prayers, if prayers existed in this world.

so i'm really sorry, hiok. logically and productively, it doesn't make sense at all to you. but it's time to embrace who you are, and maybe accept it. you take shit care of yourself, but that's the way you are made. to think about others. stop struggling.

stop trying to seek fortune. have you found any? those that you have, only come to you themselves anyway. maybe it'll come to you one day, maybe it will not. continue to be yourself, and do what you do best.

i'm really sorry to you, hiok. now all that's left is to forgive me..
at 10:37 PM
Monday, September 17, 2012
anyhoo tis yummy haha
at 1:10 AM
Sunday, September 16, 2012
i'm very sad.

i'm not living the life i want to lead.
at 7:33 PM
Saturday, September 15, 2012
how much my heart hurts
at 9:08 PM
i feel like eating chocolate ice cream with chocolate brownie!!!

and pink lemonade :)
at 6:40 PM
Thursday, September 13, 2012

k says: (PM 10:38:33)
The day the child realizes that all adults are imperfect, he becomes an adolescent; the day he forgives them, he becomes an adult; the day he forgives himself, he becomes wise.
- Alden Nowlan

at 10:39 PM
i dont even seem to need to eat

my body's running pumped full of toxins and negative forces anyway
at 6:48 PM
Thursday, September 06, 2012
one day without you and my life feels like it holds no meaning.

time to tap on my reserves and function
at 7:20 PM
Sunday, September 02, 2012
:( be brave!
at 1:29 PM
Saturday, September 01, 2012


i want to dance to this songggggggg


i remember when rock was young
me and suzie had so much fun
holding hands and skimming stones
had an old gold chevy and a place of my own
but the biggest kick i ever got
was doing a thing called the crocodile rock
while the other kids were rocking round the clock
we were hopping and bopping to the crocodile rock

well crocodile rocking is something shocking
when your feet just can't keep still
i never knew me a better time and i guess i never will
oh lawdy mama those friday nights
when suzie wore her dresses tight :D
and the crocodile rocking was out of sight

but the years went by and the rock just died
suzie went and left me for some foreign guy
long nights crying by the record machine
dreaming of my chevy and my old blue jeans
but they'll never kill the thrills we've got
burning up to the crocodile rock
learning fast as the weeks went past
we really thought the crocodile rock would last
at 9:45 PM