i don't want to go back to not knowing what to do


tired, but should do more with my life

i'm supposed to move on to more beautiful things.


but i seem to feel like staying. that's not good for setting things right. i'm too slow for myself. i must make it though..


"The path of the righteous man is beset on all sides by the iniquities of the selfish and the tyranny of evil men. Blessed is he who in the name of charity and goodwill shepherds the weak through the valley of darkness, for he is truly his brother's keeper and the finder of lost children. And I will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furious anger those who attempt to poison and destroy my brothers. And you will know my name is the Lord when I lay my vengeance upon thee."

now i'm thinking: it could mean you're the evil man. and i'm the righteous man. and mr. .45 here, he's the shepherd protecting my righteous ass in the valley of darkness. or it could be you're the righteous man and i'm the shepherd, and it's the world that's evil and selfish. i'd like that. but that shit ain't the truth.

the truth is, you're the weak. and i'm the tyranny of evil men. but i'm trying, ringo. i'm trying real hard to be the shepherd.

focusing on being a good doctor, and being a good person


he who rides a tiger, cannot dismount.

a life of excess

i believe that you are somewhere, and you are saying, "make it through your whole journey to me.."


lights and music make me happy haha. after all this enlightenment and lessons learnt that have let me see better (and that shall never cease), it's time to go back to following plans..

i've deleted an entire long post that would have otherwise been here, because i realised that musing on what is happening around me does nothing for anyone. instead, i should encourage myself. i should encourage myself to carry on with the heaviest of hearts, and the most human of bodies, as i look at you all. i must carry on, and go about.

he who rides a tiger cannot dismount.

i'm quite happy that i finished the final survey questionnaire tonight lol..

and now i take a shower and retreat to my sadness.. haha


a ham sandwich and two oranges, here i come..

some of us live in the past, some of us live in the present, and some of us live in the future. it doesn't matter, cos it just happens.


*feeling sad*


after abusing,


"but tonight's a bad night! bad nights are like that!"


"i don't see how tmr will be better.."


but still we try to set things right. i guess that's the will to live right there..

"information consists of differences that make a difference."

i finally realised that, i'm gonna become like my dad haha.

wanted to blog, but then i saw my last post.. have i? i did feel that way a few days ago, but now i'm just back to feeling so down. i'm feeling so down................................ i can't leh.

hmmm. i feel like i've really transcended. so it's all okay..

the fool lives simply.. in his world, there's only her, his loved ones, and his best friend. beauty, simple joys, love, responsibility, respect, and friendship. to him, words are as they are. he doesn't lie. he works hard all his life to spend the hard-earned money on the people he loves. he faces the good and the bad in this world with a smile. and people smile too, when they think of him..

to be a good-hearted person. :) 바보 was a really good movie..!

to be courteous. respect, although a history of violence

secrets. toil and have my own story..

just rewatched my sassy girl haha. the first time i watched it must have been years and years ago, maybe even in 2001 when it first came out, i have no idea. after all this time, its still as funny and nice, perhaps even funnier and nicer, due to the way i've grown, and the person i've become haha.. cha tae hyun has been called korea's jim carrey, and come to think of it, its quite an apt name! and he really is quite an amazing actor despite me only seeing in recent years as a guest on running man, on two separate eps. and jun ji hyun is really pretty!!! omg. and omg she really, really acts that crazy, slightly unhinged, but guarded and with her own baggage girl really well. apparently my sassy girl is based on a personal true story as blogged by kim ho sik.. i wonder how much of the movie happened though. i get that the violence and certain parts like the gangsters he met in the jail may have been exaggerated for dramatic purposes, but i'm talking abt the series of events, and the actual happening of a romanticised, open-ended view of love in reality. wow, it must be incredible if all that happened.

slightly unrelated, but thanks to the usual post-movie wiki-ing, i found out that jun ji hyun had also acted in a movie called il mare, which means "the sea" in italian.. and o m g guess what, the hollywood remake is "the lakehouse", starring keanu reeves and sandra bullock! i actually really liked that show, and who knew that the concept and the plot are of korean origin? cool..

ahh.. jun ji hyun really portrayed the character in my sassy girl so well.. i think, i really have a thing for xanthippes.

chasing to die. until a state to not

looking back, totally feel like a monday couple. i wonder how gary feels about it..