beautiful, isnt it
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
feeling horrible and alone..

maybe the need to permanently study is driving me crazy, but i'm starting to think, "so this is life?" i gotta secure a way to make money, so that i may sometimes go out to play? go on nice dates, go places like japan and korea, and places i miss in europe? how can this be? i had thought life is more. was discussing this with kevin a few days ago - i feel like i need something to give myself gratification. being a doctor and saving lives.. doesn't give me self-gratification. heck, anyone who helps others because it gives them self-gratification is damn lame. isn't being able to do good and help someone, more of a duty? an obligation i'd readly comply with, a 举手之劳. as such, i don't get gratification from being a doctor and helping others, i feel. i just feel its pretty essential and good, and i feel," oh, not bad". but then i feel my life is empty. how can life feel so empty? i need some selfish reasons to live. i need things in my life that make ME happy..
at 6:26 PM
feeling randomly like shit, and oddly calm in a can't-be-bothered-with-all-this state of mind
at 5:23 PM
Monday, February 27, 2012
i'll still carry the insects gently out the window.. i'll still be the animal-loving me.

i should still be the best that i can be. but this is a slippery slope i am trying to climb out of.
at 12:21 AM
Sunday, February 26, 2012
it's easy if you try
at 1:54 PM
Friday, February 24, 2012



i'm still learning. but this will do for now.. until my two feet bring me there.
at 2:00 PM
Thursday, February 23, 2012


it just isnt huh.
at 11:53 PM
it's a beautiful, beautiful day :)
at 6:09 PM
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
i feel like you are my link to sanity, especially these days.
you make me realise by myself that i shouldnt be destroying myself,
that i should stop destroying myself,
or at least wean off the process, once i can handle it.
i think you might just change someone's life. i hope you do.
at 6:10 PM
Monday, February 20, 2012
hiok!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
at 12:29 AM
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
fear

vs

feeling happy eating a plate of leftover strawberries cos they are so mildly sweet and nice
at 1:19 PM
Monday, February 13, 2012
如果有一天
撞上一个小缺口
at 12:53 AM
Thursday, February 09, 2012
to bros.
at 3:22 AM
Monday, February 06, 2012



yes, we make our own destiny
at 10:41 PM
i make my own destiny

fiery me, i dont deserve to be this tired and hateful
at 9:00 PM
Friday, February 03, 2012
"it seems that everything we do in life turns out to be either illegal, immoral, fattening or, most disturbingly, possibly carcinogenic."
- robbins
at 11:51 PM
she eyes me like a pisces when i am weak
i've been locked inside your heart-shaped box for weeks
i've been drawn into your magnet tar pit trap
i wish i could eat your cancer when you turn black

hey!
wait!
i've got a new complaint
forever in debt to your priceless advice
hey!
wait!
i've got a new complaint
forever in debt to your priceless advice
hey!
wait!
i've got a new complaint
forever in debt to your priceless advice
your advice

meat-eating orchids forgive no one just yet
cut myself on angel hair and baby's breath
broken hymen of your highness i'm left black
throw down your umbilical noose so i can
climb right back

hey!
wait!
i've got a new complaint
forever in debt to your priceless advice
hey!
wait!
i've got a new complaint
forever in debt to your priceless advice
hey!
wait!
i've got a new complaint
forever in debt to your priceless advice
your advice

she eyes me like a pisces when i am weak
i've been locked inside your heart-shaped box for weeks
i've been drawn into your magnet tar pit trap
i wish i could eat your cancer when you turn black

hey!
wait!
i've got a new complaint
forever in debt to your priceless advice
hey!
wait!
i've got a new complaint
forever in debt to your priceless advice
hey!
wait!
i've got a new complaint
forever in debt to your priceless advice
your advice
your advice
your advice
at 12:06 AM
Thursday, February 02, 2012
there is no certainty, only opportunity.
at 11:16 PM